bits and pieces of my life

am all alone once again...

2007-04-11T13:44:00.000+08:00

hehez...its has been some time or been awhile since i last bloggie in my blog...sowie bloggie have been neglecting you...anyways the hubby's home leave was over within ablink of an eye on last sunday...where i had sent him off with his family in the wee early hours of the morning...looks like my blogging in will start again...to share or in fact to pour out my sorrows of being faraway from the hubby...once again both me and the hubby are 1138km away from each other...

the past one week have been afruitful and memorable ones for me with the hubby being back here...well i hope it went well for you to hubby...hmm,probably except for the daddy thingy...haish that event totally wreck our week...but alhamdullillah hubby that it wasnt as bad as we had thought it would be...but seriously when one is having enjoyable moments with their loved ones time seems to move like a speeding bullet...all i can once again is just to pray that time will move faster and before i know it...the hubby will be back in my arms once again...

this time around the hubby will be away for 6 mths solid with no home leave till the day hubby is finally back...well before the hubby went he mention to me not to think till the day he is back but to break it up into pieces whereby it will seemed more faster...well that is what i intend to do but lets hope that it will move faster...haish, not having the hubby around me makes me feel so empty...i feel as though im like abird flying without wings...like body without head...but one thing for sure is that my heart will never feel empty cause the hubby have put in much loves...care....concern to last me to an infinity and beyond...

damn am i missing the hubby's jokes...laughter...fickle-mindedness...blurness...and believe it or not even his hot-temperedness i am missing too...like people always say...when the person you love is around you dont think of all this minor details but only when they are not around do you start feeling its presence...hmm, guess i'll have to agree on that mayn...hehe...

haish....6 months...i wonder how my life is gonna be each passing day...hubby...i need you in my life...

to the dearest hubby...having to see you walk away in the departure hall...really made my heart tore apart knowing that i wont be seeing you for the next 6 months...but i am grateful for the time spent with you each day...and that i am and will be right here waiting for you...thinking of you always and not forgetting that i am always missing you...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

missing you always hubby...

am missing the hubby badly

2007-03-20T14:40:00.000+08:00

am right now at the granny's sister house...just got off the msn chat with the hubby...though i cant hear hubby's voice as per usual, it still was nice to be able to chat with hubby despite hubby being busy doing his work and duty...hubby, i really appreciate that of you...haish am missing him lots...

been quite awhile since i last bloggie in my entry...anyway my holidays have already begun since monday and right now no more attachie and waiting for work only...which i might start in june or july...so peeps soon i will be a qualified full-time enrolled nurse...and yar i will be working at Tan Tock Seng Hospital...am honoured to be able to work at an instituition of the late forefathers...ceh2 now i am talking about history...

anyway will be meeting up with D'TJs on thursday to slackz togather while shop around for prom nite outfit...frankly speaking am kinda lazy to attend it but for all the claamates sake am going for it...prolly i might not get a dress but just put on something presentable...cause the function is at school and its like only 4 hours...it will be a waste to spent alot for only 4 hours...the important thing is i will get to meet up with the rest for the second last time before graduation ceremony which falls in May...

its just so fast...within ablink of an eye, my friends and i will all be graduating and starting work...sometimes it just frightens me to think i will be solely independant at work without the guidance of my lecturers...but hey im sure all of us will be able to do it...but the only sad thing is i wont be hearing from my buddies much as all will be in their working world...these buddies of mine mean a great deal to me...been through thick and thin ...all sorts of laughter with me right from the start...i think without them i wont be here today...well you gurls cheesy well know who you are and who im refering to...hehehe...hey just dont forget me yar...tat a friend named NURUL ZAWANI ZAINAL ABIDIN aka KAK NGAH aka TIKUSI still exist...am going to miss you lots...huggss....muax...

well hubby dont feel that left out since i never mention you YET...hehehe

haish, am right now actually thinking about the hubby lots...am missing him eventhough just chatted with the hubby...as the date for the hubby to be back for his home leave draws nearer, the more i am missing hubby...prolly it is just the home-coming syndrome for me and the hubby as well...just can wait for the hubby to be back so we can carry out the activities that we have plan to do...and i mean awhole lot of things going on...shopping is amust and eating is also...hehehe

to the dearest hubby...am counting down to the day that you are coming back...and that is like next week...exactly 10 more days...yeays, i cant wait for that...but the true fact that am missing you lots will always be there...just cant wait for the whole 1 year of your Brunei trip to be over...and thats where i know that you are finally coming back though after that we will still have challenges up ahead...but for now lets just take it one step at a time....hurry2 back ouhkay...your famous amos will be right here waiting for you...lovie lovie you lots lots...to infinity and beyond...hehe...huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

hubby...where art thou are you??

2007-03-15T05:42:00.000+08:00

haish...been missing and thinking of hubby badly and to make it worse i wont be hearing from hubby till hubby is back in singapore...that is i think so lah...and this is all because hubby's money was stolen and he couldnt make the necessary plans...but i am worried about hubby...i mean to think we cant even trust people who are wearing the same green uniform and who is also in another country as my hubby...bak kata pepatahkan...dah dlm satu sampan pun nak tikam sesama sendiri...

because of hubby losing his money...hubby is feeling upset over it...who wouldnt...how i feel i could be there for hubby in time of his need...well hubby, if you are reading this bloggie...if you need money for your expense tell me kays...i will be glad to be of help...and to the person who stole your wallet....what goes around comes around...the person will get the retribution one day...

BUT...

to the dearest hubby...whatever may happen to you...when you are feeling low...always remember that i am always here for you...and that i am waiting for you...haish....am missing you alot...just cant wait for you to be back...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

am always loving you hubby

am missing the hubby badly...

2007-03-12T16:57:00.000+08:00

haish...am missing hubby badly...

no amount of words can describe how i am feeling right now...

no amount of chocolates can make me stop thinking about hubby...

but one word describe it all...

YEARN

i yearn for hubby to be here right by me...

in times of need...

in time of loniness..

only the strength that i seek is in hubby...

and its in him i get through...

what would i be without hubby...

probably just awondering soul...

no place...

no happiness...

but am grateful that i have you,hubby...

and here i wanna express words that holds meaning...

but no amount of words can compare my love for hubby...

i love you no matter what the challenges up ahead...

i will love you when all desert you...

but most importantly...

i love you for who you are to me and that is being my hubby...

lovie lovie you lots lots...

missing you lots lots..

huggss...

muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

3 weeks more to the hubby coming back..

2007-03-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

ahhs...today am feeling very vibrant and jovial as hubby once again called me today despite having to spent $20 on the B-tone yesterday...and spending another $10 today to top-up his B-tone card again...hubby, i seriously appreciate what you have done for me and that sayang bangat sama anda...hehehe...

anyway since the parents aint home, i am the one in-charge of the household...which means i have to clean the house...do the laundry...and also cook...and thankfully all these have already been done as soon as i woke up early this morning...

well now since i have already finished talking to the hubby, am right now blogging in cause am missing and thinking about hubby...there is still like 3 weeks more to hubby coming back for hubby's home leave...which will be 10 days...hmm, i wonder what hubby and me have in store for ourselves...

as for me...in these 3 weeks i have gotta finish baking hubby's chocolate chips cookies...and i will be probably baking about 3 or 4 packs of it...cause the big brother also want some...and i just knew that he is going to ask me to bake it for his girlfriend as well...but hey am proud that i can show my culinary and baking skills to peeps out there...hehe, so hubby harga pun must go up tau...hehe...takdelah i am just joking kays...bluekz...

anyway hubby...there will be more than the ccokies that you are going to get...and you know what it is...and you better make more room for the blueberry muffin and also the assam pedas ikan pari eh...

kaylah i guess that should be all cause i am actually intruding the time that my lil sis is supposed to be playing on the computer...hehehe...

to the dearest hubby...simply cant wait for you to be back and give you avery big huggie and lots cuddles for you...haiz....these 3 weeks for me is like asmall kid being deprived of sweets...anyway am thinking and missing you always...will be right here waiting for you hubby till you are back in my arms once again...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

abeginning moment that will never i forget...lovie you lots hubby...

reminiscing on the past of my life....

2007-03-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

how does it feels to look back in your past...having to come to know that your past wasnt really agreat one to be talked about...be it schooling, family or even relationship...

then you start focusing on what you have now...and that you are really thankful and greatful for the past which have taught you many lessons and to move on...

to feel proud of your results having to get a good grades...unlike in the past where all i can see is just red marks and more red marks indicating that failure was there but having to coming near completion of my ITE life...i am proud to be an ITE student cause of this true fact that i am doing so well right now in life...but to prove myself and others around that i can be of a useful person i have still got to work on it...and insya'allah i will...

dengan doa dan ketabahan akan ku harungi semua cobaan...

looking back on those days whereby my relationship always fails and it saddens me alot cause i put all my heart and commitment into it...but right now those sadness is all thrown away into the depth of the ocean cause what more do i seek when what i have right before is not only a gem but to be exact a RARE gem...and he is my beloved iskhairy haron...

having to meet eye to eye for the first time on 6 of april 2006...i just knew that there was something different about hubby but little did i know that we would end up hubby...hehe...anyway it was the first time that i felt touched by what hubby did for me...his concerns was sincerely shown through his actions...though we were shy toward each other but the chemistry was right there from the beginning...and i am grateful for that to god...and alhamdulillah where are now still happily together but there are still many more challenges that we have to go through as one...and right now itself we are still experiencing it...hubby, having to be apart from you is not easy...only ALLAH knows how both of us are feeling...but it is through this being apart that made us change and learn from the small tiff that we used and also have...and right now i am missing the hubby lots...

and its has been near to three days since i last heard from the hubby...not being able to know how hubby is always makes me feel uneasy but deep down in me i know that hubby will always be ouhkays...and i just know that...haish, but it still aint easy when you just misses someone...

to the dearest hubby...i am and will always be right here waiting for you no matter how slow the time is going to move...and that the 365 and 24/7 will always be a challenge for me till you are finally back in my arms once again...am always thinking and missing you lots...and that tak dapat dengar suara you make me feel as though aBIG part of me is missing...haish...biler nak balik hubby...well yar i know end of the month but aarrgghhh...anyway lovie lovie you lots lots...huggsss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

where art thou are you hubby...

been missing the hubby alot lately...

2007-03-07T05:42:00.000+08:00

hey there peeps...been almost 5 days since i last bloggie in...have been kinda tired lately and due to that, hence the laziness in blogging in...anyway into my 2nd last week of attachie and am right now at IMH whereby there is completely nothing to do...not even serving the urinals or bedpan...so it already considered my 'holidays' have already begun...actually having to travel to and fro to Buangkok (Hougang) can be very tiring...but lucky for me when i am on the morning shift which i will be for the next 2 weeks, my dad will be sending me but its the journey back that tires me out...having to wait for the bus which takes some time to come and the 30 mins to 45 mins bus journey is kinda hectic...but looks like i just have to endure these 2 weeks only...

anyway haven been able to have adecent and enjoyable conversation on the phone with the hubby cause hubby have not purchased his B-tone yet and his EZ-card have just run dry...and this is kinda of sadden me abit though cause when i am feeling all tired out, the best medicine would be to hear hubby's chirpy voice...but its 100% alright cause i understand hubby's situation only that at times or sometimes my body mechanics chooses to feel this way...hehehe...

haiz...but i am actually missing the hubby alot lately...well this usually happens when hubby's home leave is just around the corner...

to the dearest hubby...just want you to know that eventhough i seldom unable to talk to you... my love for you have not decreased abit but instead it remain stronger...and that having to think about you when you are not physically here can be a torment but this i take as a TEST for us in the near future...i am always right here waiting for your return 24/7 till you are finally back in my arms once again...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

am missing you lots hubby... :'(

abrand new day and abrand new month...

2007-03-01T09:29:00.000+08:00

morning2 there to all...waking up to the chills and shiver of the morning rain can be very slacking for me...and i hope the rain doesnt continue till the afternoon or else i am going to slack my butt off at work...cause raining days on an afternoon shift really makes me sleepy...and all i wanna do is just sleep but too bad cause i am on attachie...finally today will be the last afternoon that i am doing at SGH and the last two days there too...thank god i will be in the morning shift tomorrow till 1100 only then off to school for the class phototaking...yeays!!

but the irritating thing is that tomorrow we have to sit in for 2 hours of career talk...just when i thought we could be off earlier...well at least i will be in the company of D'TJs except for diyana who is going back to school today...hehehe...

haiz...i think it is high time that i get the computer servicing cause it is making the whole computer and NETWORK going bonkers...files and webpages are starting to be missing...such as i thought the hubby deleted the testi i gave to the hubby in his frenster...mummy, i need a whole new set of computer...but i know what the parents will say about that...DREAM ON...

well i hope todays work at ward wont be that stagnant and that at least i have the companion of the 2 NYP students...and yar i hope that 'soft' staff nurse wont be on duty again today or else he is gonna be a pain to the eyes...arrgghh...lets just hope that the staff that is on today will be the fun ones...hehe boleh gituk pilih orang...

guess that should be all cause didnt want my bloggie to go empty for today as being in the afternoon shift and getting home at 2200hours will kinda make me too tired to go online and bloggie in but i might just log in today if i aint that tired...

but before that.....

to the dearest hubby...it already the beginning of the month and we have exactly 30 more days before we see each other again...and hubby i simply cant wait for the day but for now i shall live life as per normal and i wouldnt wanna hope so much just in case the worse case scenario happens...lets just wait till the end whereby everything is finalized kay hubby...but the true important fact is that i am right here waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once again...and that i am always thinking about you in my life...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

how i yearn for you to be right here by me..my dearest hubby...

am feeling so tired..haiz...

2007-02-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

hahas...finally i am home at the comfort of my own chair whereby i am able to bloggie in my entry for today...hehe...anyway just finished showering and am now taking ashort rest before i watched tv or do some reading...its been along time since i last read...so i think i might just do that...

well since today i was on 8am-4pm shift cause of the plaster room posting...there was nothing muchie that happen today at the ward...while at the plaster room, it was kinda fun having to see how they apply the cast and seeing how patients moan and groan at just having to remove the cast using the saw...hehe actually i shouldnt be laughing at them cause i have never gone through that...and so i wouldnt exactly know how the feelings is...whatever it is the posting to plaster room was aworthwhile experience...

yeays...another 2 more days and finally i will be out of SGH to IMH whereby its gonna be like a holidaying mood since there wont be anything muchie to do or would i rather say there would be NOTHING to do at all...when furthermore the 2 weeks that i am going to be there, its gonna be hopping around to different wards at the day...this can be very confusing and tiring...well lets just pray that the last day of posting at IMH, all of us are able to be on the morning shift or else...

well i guess that should be all cause cant think of what i should be blogging in but these last few lines is amust to be bloggie in cause it is just like adaily routine for me to the hubby...

and mentioning about the hubby...i am missing him lots lots...

to the dearest hubby...just want you to always know eventhough i know you know and is assured about it...but i still must say it to you...that i am always right here waiting for you and thinking of you till the day you are back to singapore for good...and hubby that will be the day that i am gonna give you ahug like never i am gonna let go...hehe...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggsss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

aint he the cutest hubby around...

am loving you lots...

2007-02-27T19:23:00.000+08:00

ahhs...aint it feel great having to finish 8 hours of works and now being at the comfort of one's own home especially my 'bantal busuk'...hehe,hubby i promise i will have it thrown away one of these days... cause i know i will have you to huggie in the future...hehe...

anyway work today was normal...except that earlier in the day i was being the junior staff for the cubicle Room 20...whereby i had to orientate the 2 year one Nanyang Polytechnic students on the ward routine...haha,i was SUPER shocked that they wanted me to orientate them cause i myself am a student who is still studying or would i say still be learning the ropes of being an Enrolled Nurse but at the very least i am glad to be of help cause they will know what to do and as long as they are willing to learn,all of us will learn...hehe but today kinda interacted and made friends will the NYP students at the central station...hmm,and they are a bunch of friendly peeps...

guess what...am excited having to hear hubby's voice today...and it was sweet of hubby to buy the B-tone again to chat with me...haiz,wonder when hubby will be back...am seriously waiting for hubby to be back...haish,actually truthfully have been kinda guilty and feeling apologetic to the hubby these few days except that i didnt tell hubby...i have been feeling these way because of the small arguements that we had last week...hubby,i know you have told me not to talk about it but thus i still feel guilty...and if you were in Singapore,i could at least do things to make it up...well,i guess we have to wait for hubby to be back so i can do it ,huh hubby...hmm,probablythe chocolate chips cookies that i am going to make for hubby will just do the job...hehe...

talking about foodie,hubby i guess you cant wait to be back for the foodie that i am going to prepare for you...when you are back,the 'asam pedas ikan pari' and the 'blueberry muffins' will be waiting piping hot for you ...but too bad hubby, the chocolate chip cookies will only be for your flight back to Brunei...sorry alot alot hubby...

kaylah peeps out there reading my bloggie and especially to the JERRIES and the Hubby...guess this should be all cause have gotta shower as just finish jogging earlier on...so will bloggie more about 'bits and pieces of my LIFE' tomorrow or whenever i am free from laziness...hahaha...

to the dearest hubby...just want you to know that i am always were here missing you every minute,every second,24/7 and 365 days of my LIFE...how i wished you were right by me so that we can continue our story of 'honey and bee'...been thinking about you and am right here waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once again...and i am going to give you a big HUG...lovie you lots lots...huggs...muackiez...

.:: Two Hearts One True Love ::.

missing you always my dearest hubby..

am feeling sick mayn..

2007-02-26T17:51:00.000+08:00

hey there peeps...its been 2 days since i last bloggie in...and its all because i was feeling kinda unwell and was just bent on lying down...

well didnt do much the past 2 days except for being at home like i usually do...but it was the nursing home visit on saturday with the newly batch of Community Service Club from the year 1...the visit on saturday was actually also the chinese new year celebration for the folks as well...everyone had their fair share of goodie bags with oranges and biscuits inside...after the whole thing ended at 1pm, i decided to head back home cause was feeling tired and sleepy as well...but this i have gotta say...i was SUPER furious with the SBS bus driver for asking me to pay adult fare price when in actual fact i am still a student...i even showed him my student pass but he just went on and on nagging well not nagging cause he was actually scolding which i thought was rude..anyway he was scolding on how i should pat adult fare price...and couldnt be bothered with his crude reply i just paid him the fare...and for crying out loud i paid him extra fare...i paid him $2.55 for just a short bus ride...haiz...some bus drivers these days especially from SBS Transit can be very rude...till now i simply think its not my fault and that i deserve to pay a student price...no justice at all...but i look at it as though its a donation contribution to SBS...hehehe...

anyway..on sunday which was yesterday, didnt do anything much at alll cause there was also no laundry to be ironed and the 2 precious water tank need not be changed so was stuck to the tv set the whole day just at watching chinese movies from the starhub free movie preview...then when night came...it was off to bed to dreamland for me...

and that was how my weekend ended...it was just like in ablink of an eye...and poof it is monday and attachie starts again for me at ward 76...haiya and today my patience was tested again by the same patient...and i thought she would already be discharged...but in the presence of her son, she was SUPER well-behaved...well i guess thats how elderly will be...even me or the hubby too will be like that one day...

mentioning about the hubby, its been 3 days since i last heard from hubby...looks like hubby have been avery busy BANQUET boy...hehe hubby i hope it wasnt too tiring or taxing on you...anyway, hubby i know u have been avery disobedient and naughty girl last 2 days ago...and i am sorry once again but am SO OVER it...looks like the advise you gave me really worked hubby...hehe and that is why i love you lots...

I TOO AM GOING TO BUILD THE FUTURE WITH THE LOVE WE SHARED, AND NOT THE WORDS WE SAID.....

to the dearest hubby...am missing you lots and am wondering when you will be back again to give the comfort that i have not had the past 2 months...eventhough i know that 1 month is not long...it is still faraway and i too know that you agree too...been thinking about you lots and been missing you lots...thinking about how much i miss you, the memories of the happy things we did together all came pouring back to me...be it the sweet things you did for me or even the most ugliest quarell we had...and these memories are the events that gave me the strength to be here for you always...and that i will be right here waiting for you till you are back once again...and i cant wait to give you abig,tightest hug...am always thinking of you...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez....

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

boy...arent we all bloated...the apple of my eyes....

keep holding on..avril lavigne

2007-02-23T09:36:00.000+08:00

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

holding on to someone you love so much is very important especially when the rough gets going...the tough gets going to...this is the story of my life...having to met this hubby of mine, my whole life changed...the way i eat...the way i sleep...hmm prolly even the way i walk...but the true thing is that the way i love someone even changed...loving someone is not to own that someone...but to give the love that you have towards that someone by showing how you muchie you love him...well in my case, the relationship of mine and the hubby didnt start off well cause both were trying to step up toward our own ego...and it took us quite awhile to know one anothers heart and also to understand...but as time pass by...quarells and arguements are being exchanged and its through all these rocky situation that WE learn from it and began changing for the happiness of US...hubby changed...i changed and that is why we are holding strong...arent we hubby??...and that we are prepared for future challenges...and i have my own strength and my own superhero to look on...and that is none other than you hubby...i was not wrong in believing you cause you have shown me the way to LOVE and you guided me through

haha...i aint sure why i am blabbering all these but i guess i appreciate hubby so muchie that i wanna make known to hubby all the time...but the fact that is clear is that i truly lovie hubby lots...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

oh man...i am feeling super tired...

2007-02-22T19:00:00.000+08:00

hehehe...yeays finally i am back from attachie and also from school...which i think is really unnecessary cause i just have to travel all the back to campus to key in the cca/cip updates...lucky thing i did it fast and before i know it i was already on the way back home...

wahh...today at ward...my patience was really being tested by this auntie whom just refuse all the bedpans that was being served to her...in the end, ended up having to push her to the toilet as well...well at least i was able to maintain my cool...hehe, lets just hope that tomorrow will be abetter day since i will be in the afternoon shift...and yar talking about afternoon shift, its been consecutively 3 weeks that i have been alocated the afternoon shift on fridays...the end of the week...haish...

but seriously looking forward to the last week of posting at SGH and then off we go to IMH...and alhamdullilah i am able to complete the 31 skills that i was supposed to complete and now am aiming to complete more...insya'allah...

anyway while on the way to school, i was shocked to have received amessage and acall from the hubby...its as though the hubby knew i was missing him...but the other fact is also that hubby too misses me...by the way i was at first unaware of the message cause since i thought hubby wont be calling me till next, i decided to OFF the handphone of mine...well not to avoid peoples call but to self-divert my thinking...and to keep myself occupied...it was pleasant to the ear..and music to the ears having just to hear hubby's voice...ahhh....

i have missed the hubby alot these past few months...and i have never missed anyone this much before...i guess hmm well not i guess...the feelings i have for the hubby must have been really intense and deep that i could miss him lots...hehe...

well but the main thing is that hubby knows that i misses him and that i lovie him lots and that i am always thinking about hubby...not even asingle day did i go without thinking about hubby...and i hope in knowing this hubby will be able to endure the next few months...just like how i am enduring...hubby, lets find the strength in each other...i believe we will be able to do it...

to the dearest hubby...am waiting for you tii you are back in my arms again and that i miss you so much that even if you ask me to compare who and what i would miss most in my life...is it you or my 'bantal busuk'....hehe, and the answer would obviously be you hubby...thinking of you always....and cepat2 lah balik eh dear...hehe...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez....

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

colours of our lives...

abrand new day...

2007-02-21T17:31:00.000+08:00

ahhh...finally am back from the attachie and hmm whats wanie evaluation going to be about this ward 76 that i am posted to for the next two weeks...but actually right these two weeks excluding the CNY holiday...am only going to be there like ONLY aweek...hehe...hmmm, well the ward is ouhkay not too bad unlike ward 73...but since its the CNY time, theres was not many patient to an extend that 3 cubicles of 6 beds were left empty cause the patients have all gone home for the festive season...wah if only everyday was like this at the hospital...i guess they wouldnt need anymore nurse...hehe...

guess what i found out from my working colleague today...that the increment in the healthcare sector which i thought was 5% increase was actually going to be 7% increase...hey isnt that great...i mean although its asmall sum, at least there is an increment and at the very least we nurses are being recognized and appreciated...so i hereby would like to thank the government body...hehe...guess i must be crazy huh...

haish...have been feeling kinda bored having to stay at home even on the weekends...cause usually i would be out with the hubby watching the movies or just walking aroung window-shopping when hubby was still in singapore...but now the harsh and reality is that he is nowhere around me cause hubby is still in brunei...hubby still has a long way to go before coming back here for GOOD...

well prolly this is the test for US...lets just take it on the positive side...absence makes the heart grow fonder...besides prolly being away will make us quarell less often...hmm...but didnt we just had aquarell like 2 days ago..kan dear...hehe...and i am truly sorry for that quarell cause it was SUPER unnecessary...but still kan dear i wouldnt count that lah eh...cause both was reacting toward the situation..hehe well i also dont wanna talk about it anymorelah....

to the dearest hubby...i just wanna you to know that whatever you have done for me has never gone down the drain cause i truly appreciate for whatever you have done for me...and cause of that fact alone i am loving you lots...and i will still continue loving you...and that i am right here always thinking and missing you and not forgetting will be right here waiting for you with open arms...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggss..muackiez....

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

you are the music of my heart...

have got to stay strong....

2007-02-20T12:19:00.000+08:00

actually nothing muchie to bloggie in today...but the chinese new year holidays been kinda stagnant cause stayed home for the past 2days which includes today as well...

woke up this morning to a rude awakening...my whole dressing table was filled with water...and guess from where did the water came...haha, it came from the 2 precious tank...and im guessing that the filter is leaking...and since the dressing table is made of layers of wood, the top layer has kinda came off...wonder how i am going to answer to the parents...well anyway will be getting anew filter soon...took me 2 hours to try and salvage the filter but sadly it cant be saved...

anyway am feeling very exhausted today cause didnt get agood night sleep yesterday night...cause i have lots of thinking to ponder on...well that was what the hubby said lah...and yar it kinda work for me...ad now my thinking have straighten out and i shall know what i should be doing not just for now but in the future as well...

the only thing that i need to do now is that i have got to be strong for all the challenges that gonna come...be it 10times the impact, i have to be strong...and the strength i need and i see can only be found in hubby...its through hubby that i get my strength thus therefore i have to be confidence in him that both of us will pull through no matter under what unforeseen circumstances...hubby, after thinking through semalam...yar yesterday incident was just the beginning...and that now i am prepared to face these challanges of OURS...and for that hubby i need you...and i know that you will always be there for me whenever just my guard is going down and i am assured of that...

to the hubby...just know that i may sometimes seems that i cant face the challenges or that i face it with negativity but its through you that i learn from and that when in future it happen again i will know what to do kay...you dont worry about me cause you do know that i have changed and you said it yourself...so have the faith in me like how i am going to promise and tell you now that i have the faith in you...like you say...as long as both of us love each...even if people were to throw stones at us or hurl abuse at us...we are going to make it safely together...insya'allah...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

love you lots...

2007-02-19T18:19:00.000+08:00

The Hunney and The Bee

dear..will always lovie you lots no matter what happen..never amoment that i stopped loving you...happy anniversary hubby....

haunting of the past...

2007-02-19T17:43:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt the hatred and grudge around you or in you before...well i myself have felt hatred and grudge towards someone but that was so OVER cause i learned to move on..but now having to see how people having the hatred and grudge towards others can be very scary and to acertain extend hurting...

sometimes why cant people just learn to let it go....i have been there before so i know how it is...learning to let go can be very cleansing to the mind, body and soul...even if you are not willing to let go, take it as alife challenge rather than VENGEANCE...what can u reap from having your revenge...all u might get is RETRIBUTION...probably this is the hubby and my retribution for his misdeeds but we'll learn from it...and why having agrudge can actually make some people go to the extend of wanting to make the other party life difficult...in simple they dont wanna the other party to lead a peaceful life all because of their hatred and vengeance...

i seriously pity these people with vengeance...i mean i know how it feel to get hurt cause i myself have been there especially when the situation i am talking about has got to do with relationship...

recently,i received an unknown taggie in my taggiebox regarding the hubby and i was shocked to have to read the taggie and at the same time hurt ans insulted...the taggie reallie could have make or break my relationship with the hubby..and thank GOD for it that we'll go through it together..but the true fact is that i already know about hubby's BLACK past and that i have accepted him...but the reason i got hurt was because the person taggie in amanner that was as though was laughing at me...and if it was awomen who taggie, ask yourself...shouldnt you be telling me straight cause we are akind...we are WOMAN who got hurt and we shouldnt be letting others get hurt to but NO instead of helping, you are MOCKING..which human in the right mind would do that...psychologically that is....

but whatever it is, i accept what the taggie was as a challange to my relationship... but to whoever it is, the art of FORGIVING IS AVIRTUE not only patience ouhkays!!...and all i can say is i understand how it is to be HURT....

well, the hubby and me have also talked about the taggie and we have expressed our feeling upon reading about it and that we are accepting the harsh truth...and furthermore the true fact is that both of us love each other lots...both of us have one another and that both of us have changed for the better of the relationship....

whatever the BLACK past that the hubby has, i, nurul zawani zainal abidin have accepted it and that the most important thing is that i have given him achance to change...anew wings to fly...anew leaf to turn over...so here i am telling that whoever the person is that i am ready for hubby's past to come back haunting us especially and eventhough no matter hurting it can be ...both the hubby and me will weather through the storm together...

to the hubby...after this incidence i am sure that you are feeling down and that it has instill fear in both of us but i just wanna let you know that i seek the strength in you like how you seek the strenght in me...whatever may happen i am always here for you...and no matter what may happen i will always love you for who and what you are..that is my PROMISE to you dear...like you say...buruk, baik i u terima..then here i am telling you also...all your weakness and your goodness of strength i accept...so dont worry i still am loving you lots...will always be missing you lots...will be thinking and waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once again to continue the little story of the hunney and the bee...cant wait to hugie you once again...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggs...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

2007-02-17T18:10:00.000+08:00

A Valentine's cum Anniversary day Surprise

thats me and the hubby in the pic..minnie & mickey

I LURVE ISKHAIRY HARON TOO

thats me trying to cut the cake up at the granny's place...

this was a surprise that shocked me upon having to received it eventhough i kinda know what was going on..i didnt expect the hubby to go to the extend of ordering an ICE-CREAM CAKE from SWENSEN'S just to surprise me for the V'day....this have happen to the help of my all time favourite tikusi...UH'EEN...

anyway i am touched by what the hubby had done for me...how silly of me to think that i wouldnt be celebrating V'day but it though this gift came belated to me...hubby it was a sweet surprise...whats more its my favourite flavour of ice-cream...it was CHOCOLATE FRECKLES MINT..hmm...i LOIKE...hehe....

but the sad thing is that hubby wasnt here to celebrate and have the taste of the cake with me and the family..hubby when you are back we will do all that we had wanted to do kays..i am lucky to have you by my side and that never will i forsake our love for anything..never will i...

to the hubby..just want you to know that i lovie lovie you lots no matter what may happen....and that you too is the man that i love..iskhairy haron...just cant wait for you to be back in Singapore once again...huggs..muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

having PMS...

2007-02-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

have u ever had the mood swings that is actually affecting the way how u react towards your emotions and your loved...it can be to the extent that some hurtful words could have been exchanged or being said..well it kinda happen to me for 2 days consecutively..i had alittle tiff with the hubby and i was feeling guilty of what he was feeling afterwards...

hubby here i am wanna say that i am seriously sorry that hujung kaki ke hujung rambut if these 2 days i said some hurtful words to you but you should jolly well know kan that i love you lots and that whatever you have done for me i am happy with it cause your the BESTEST HUBBY AND AWESOME HUBBY around...i am pretty sure i wont be able to find someone similar to you...and that whatever you have done for me tak pernah i fikir bukan-bukan kays...kalau dulu tu u bole lah cakap i fikir bukan-bukan...but now no tau hubby...and its all because of YOU...you brought the change in me..probably what had happen was the result of the torment that is eating me up..hehe but fret not kay dear..IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN..insya'allah..

well peeps aint mentioning anything about the last day at ward 73 today cause it was irritating ever..probably it was because of the menses cramp and at the same time the patient was equally fussy..haiz..usually this doesnt happen..no matter how tired i would be in a ward or how fussy and difficult the patient can be, i would still put asmile on my face...just to ensure that my patients will have their satisfaction at the end of the day..but cause today i had to ENDURE with the pain that i was suffering...i could get easily irritated..hehe...

looks like i seriously have to do what the hubby said...BETTER KEEP MY PMS IN RESTRAIN..hehe

to the dearest hubby..just wanna say that i am seriously sorry for whatever i have said..never once did i really mean whatever the hurtful things i have said...and probably at the same time i should blame the PMS also kays..hehe i know very contradicting...but the most important thing that i want you to know is that i wuold never do anything to hurt you especially not when you have said this in your friendster profile...LOvEd yOuR WomAn, NuRuL ZaWaNi...hehe...aww that totally brought laughter, smiles and chuckles to my heart and not forgetting that i am touched...but like you say, you dont need to say these word to me for me to know that you love me because the actual fact is that you do love me alot...and i also love you lots....am thinking and missing you every moment..24/7 365days...hehe...am waiting for you till your are finally back in my hands...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggss..muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

the CHARMED of my life..

haiz...

2007-02-15T09:32:00.000+08:00

A World On My Own

haish...how lonely i have been feeling lately...with nowhere to go except to and fro to work and then back home and the whole routine will resume again the next day...if only the hubby was here with me...just been feeling so empty in me without the hubby...so empty...not only the hubby is not around me but i am feeling there is no presence of the loved ones around me except for my family who knows that i have been missing someone close to me only that they just keep quiet cause they know they can do anything...haiz, what am i to do...how can i make this feeling of emptiness go away...maybe all i need is amiracle to happen...

missing someone you love so much can be painful but hubby no worries i am still staying strong here...just needed to let it all out before i go crazy...hehe

to the dearest hubby...i know i keep blogging in this everyday but i guess this is the only way i can express myself...love you lots..huggss...muackiez.....

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

am feeling so tired..haiz...

2007-02-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

haish..happy valentine's day to all especially the hubby if you are reading this...

anyway once again i am celebrating the lovers day all by myself...probably this is what fate has install for me eventhough i am already being tormented having to be away from the hubby like 1138km...

on the way back from works makes me even more sad having to see all the other couples who are making their way to their each and another valentines surprise that will be waiting for their loved ones...well as for me i guess i shall just turn in and seek solace on my bed to prevent myself from being thrown into the world of feeling loneliness despite having to miss the hubby alots and i mean like big time...hmm..sometimes i wonder when will the time pass by faster so that hubby would already be back in singapore..but unluckily for me that is still along way to go before i can actually see that happening...

i wonder how it would be this valentine if hubby were to be around...but one thing for sure i know that i wont feel lonely...but hey snapping out from this negativity, looking onto the positive and brighter side of my life...i guess i am bersyukur that god have actually made us meet and fall in love....alhamdulillah i am treasuring every moment that i have with the hubby...and its for him also that i am staying strong and tough....cause i know hubby wouldnt want me to be feeling this way...hehe...

hubby..in event of 'V' day, i would like to once again wish you happy lovers day..and that having to have you in my life is amiracle and also a blessing bestowed to me..although i cant be there and you cant be here to make known of valentines day, i am sure we will be as happy as can be and grateful for this wonderful realationship of ours..cause though we are still new in these, we have made tremendous change and put the effort into understanding each other better in order to make US happen....but the main thing i wanna you to know is that i am right here waiting for you till you are back in my arms once again....

talking about valentines day and how lonely i am feeling right now without the hubby, at least while being at work people including staff and house attendant was wishing one another on these lovers day...though it was kinda funny to wish strangers, i cant deny that it actually brighten up my day although i was feeling all tired...hmm i am actually wondering why working at ward73 is making me have fatigue like i have never had before...well all i can say is that i have to start getting used to it to prepare myself in the near future....

well lets hope that in the future i will also accept this fatigue or else...looks like i can just tell myself that i am not fit to be a nurse...

guess that should be about it..have gotta wash the uniform cause working in this ward too have made my uniform tremendously dirty and i mean real dirty...

to the dearest hubby..i am actually missing you big time...even at work i am missing and thinking of you even when i am talking with the patients...hehe..well having to be able to think and miss you only proves one thing...that i truly love you lots..hehe..niwae been 3days since i last talked to you and am also missing your voice..in fact missing you too...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggs...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

am in love with you always...

haha..damn tiring...

2007-02-13T17:21:00.000+08:00

haish...had asuper tiring day today since i was man-handling 2 cubicles all by myself...been some time since i brought alot and i mean alot of patients for showering within a speculated timing...hehe but it was kinda fun though except for the fact that my legs is now all aching from all the walking about to and fro...

alamak...just started bloggie but i have gotta go..need to go and do the daily jogging..hehe..when i am back i will continue from where i have stopped....UNLESS i am just too tired or lazy to do so...hehe...

hey there..i am finally back to continue my bloggie in my entry..hehe

well actually the jogging turned out to be grocery shopping at Sheng Siong and at that also manage to like sweat out alittle cause we walked to and fro from the house and on the way back the bro had to carry the new fan that thw parents had just bought...

well anyway today is the second day at ward73 and its was much more tiring than yesterday like i have mentioned earlier on but today made a discovery regarding one of the patients diagnosis...i had initially not know what was it...during the passing of report, the staff only mention HP4..which i dont even know what it means but malu bertanya sesat jalan..so i asked the staff and to my surprise when i found out what it meant i was like...this is my FIRST time nursing these kinda case...the HP4 only meant universal precaution and alert...well too bad peeps and hubby i cant reveal what is the diagnosis cause of patient confidentiality..the main aim and goal on me nursing this patient is not to have fear like other people would...

today mdm angel met up with me to discuss where i have gone wrong for the nursing care plan assignment...and thank god..alhamdulillah that i kinda did well for the assigment...phew nasib baik tak payah re-do...she also mentioned that is amiracle that i was able to complete quite anumber of skills within the past month..well all i can say is alhamdulillah...i guess i work well under lots of pressure...

haish..didnt hear from the hubby like 2days already except for me chatting with the hubby yesterday till like 2215hrs and by the time i log off and finish ironing my uniform i was already exhausted and tired but wanna know something...talking to the hubby is NEVER tiring but its a pleasure and music to the ears...especially my ears..wahahah>>these is the laughter that the hubby likes to used...anyway just gotten back from the aunts place to ask her of the favour of sending hubby's stuffs over to Brunei...and lucky for me not only she agreed to do it, she also agreed to be responsible for the pricing of the mailing stuffs...hehe..thanchew lots BIBIK!!!.....urhm, probably she wants to also send it to her future nephew-in-law eh dear...hehe...

hahas...the bro is ordering PIZZA again after yesterday...hmm looks like i have to continue with the dieting since i had like 2 piece yesterday..guess i shall forgo todays pizza....

i guess that should be about it..wanna wait for CSI:Miami before turning in for the day as i have been feeling aching all over the body...

to the dearest hubby..i am seriously missing you big time here...been trying to occupy my time to make it pass but still you are always on my mind..no doubt about that...thinkinga about you make me realise that i am actually unable to live without you dear...haish...ngah waiting for you right here..lovie lovie you lots lots..huggss...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

just wanna be with you...

2007-02-12T18:27:00.000+08:00

haha..its been 2 days since i last bloggie in on 9feb07...anyway been kinda busylah the past 2days...with the kenduri arwah on the saturday which ended so late..and the shopping with the family yesterday..

anyway on saturday for the kenduri arwah, i decided to contribute chocolate eclair which i was doing for the first time ever...hehe well its didnt turn out that perfect but still it was edible and the relatives was like asking who brought the eclair..well my mum had wanted to take the whole credit to herself but noway was i gonna let her do dat...i gad to make known that it was me lah..hehe but it was actually the same lah cause i had to get the recipe from my mum..and she did help me also during the process...

yesterday was the splurging day...the family decided to head down to Bugis despite the bro saying that its gonna be crowded cause of the new year coming..but because my mum and me wanted to really get the outfit that i had long wanted to buy and been searching high and low for it...crowded or not..there we will be...yeays..finally i got the mini dress that i wanted and i bought 2 pieces at that...the mum bought 1 piece and 2 skirts..well too badlah the shop we went to was SUPER generous..gave discount like noone business..hehe i will head down there again cause there will be new design coming up...well anyway the lil sis bought herself an ORIGINAL ADIDAS bag which cost 80bucks while the dad bought an NIKE classic shoes...hmm, not that we were splurging yesterday but since the dad got some extra salary cause of chinese new year from his company..why not buy things too...its not as though my family shop every week....hehe oh yar i also bought myself another pair of CROCS...silver in colour...hehe well i guess i should stop asking the dad to buy anymore stuffs for me..

but there is still ONE thing that i have yet to get for myself since like i dont kow when...been wanting to get myself apair of LEVI's jeans which i have not yet gotten it...hmm, maybe i should ask my dad to get that one last thing for me when the BUCKS come out next month since i wont be receiving the bucks for the driving license which the parents have initially planned to...but its ouhkay it wont be aproblem cause the hubby gonna take the driving license over in Brunei so in the future he can just drive me to the destination...betul tak hubby,kan kan??

mentioning about the hubby..am missing him lots actually..wonder when the time he will be finally be back for good...i feel as though its still farway..one of his fren ihsan is already back in the arms of his family but i wonder when it will be the same for the hubby..haish...

anyways today was the first day in ward73...and i aint quite like it cause its kinda stagnant with nothing muchie to do..i guess i am not cut out for medical setting..looks like ward55 which is surgical settings suits me better...hehe

well peeps i guess that should be all cause have gotta dry the uniform in the laundry and change the water in the fish tank which has been 2 days delayed..so sorry my precious lil fishes...

to the hubby..just want you to know that i am right here waiting for you in PREPAREDNESS for the future in us...and that i am thinking and missing you always wherever i maybe and although we are 1138km apart...our hearts beat as one...i lovie lovie you lots lots...huggs...muackiez..

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

always right here waiting for you....

CaliFitness

2007-02-09T09:29:00.000+08:00

arrgghh...i am like REALLY irritated and pissed with the service of the CF...they have been delaying that thingy about the membership for like about 4 months already and still have yet to get back to me...now when i called in to them just like today (o9.02.07 @ 0930hrs), they told me that they are aware of the situation and said that i ahve to understand on my part that they have yet to receive any information from AZ side cause she have been on sick leave for afew days or weeks or something like thatlah...and the way the recep told me to understand on my side was like asmack on my face cause it was like saying that i didnt understand thier trouble and i was more like a DIFFICULT customer...

i mean like come lah..this thing have been delayed since NOV2006...and was it our fault..hmm well i dont think so cause we beforehand had given the BLACK and WHITE document to their side...all i can say is blame it on their communication lah~........ *hiakdush*

p.s: i am not trying to put the whole blame on them but still we have the customers RIGHT!!

this is fridays entry...irritatinglah...

2007-02-09T08:47:00.000+08:00

hmm...yesterday went back to campus again for SIMs training..and yesterdays lesson was SUPER dry and boring unlike last weeks SIMs training..but luckily there were afew funny people that liven up the class such as nick..hehe this guy super funny lah...

anyway today will be the last day at ward 55 and i will be in the afternoon shift and haiya just wondering the irritating sister wont allow us to change shift on the account that we have helped them for the past 1 month or on the account that it is our last day...hmph...irritating...

well since i have always been taught by the hubby to always stay positive, then i shall take tomorrow last day on an AFTERNOON shift POSITIVELY...lets just hope that there will be lots to do so that time will past by faster...and before i know it it will be 2100hrs... right now just came back from the jogging and is drying the perspiration up while bloggie in my entry...

yesterday just as soon as i reached home, i logged onto the net and alhamdulillah the hubby was online..hehe then i didnt know his fren was using his computer then i acted to be angry saying why hubby didnt PM me in MSN when i signed in..hehe hubby was shocked to see my reaction and quickly tried to counter my 'ANGER' reaction by trying to pacify me...hehe but seriously now and i mean now that we are in almost into the 10th months together, i am glad to say that hubby's detecting my anger or merajukness is very skillful cause hubby is able to detect it more better now...and will be able to pacify me in time before i get angry..hehe..sayang hubby banyak2...

damn..then before i know it, am talking to the hubby on the phone...while i was still blogging....

to the dearest hubby...i will love you always and that i will forever be waiting for you...and that you are always in my mind 24/7 365...no matter what may happen you will always be on mind...right here waiting for you in pain....lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez....

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

the story of the army and the nurse...

hehe...i must be mad..

2007-02-06T04:41:00.002+08:00

imagine having to miss someone so much that you could eventually think that other people is the person you miss...just from its body size and the perfume..

well it happen to me this morning on the way to work when i smelt the odour that the hubby uses..the ADIDAS...and the guy whom i saw was also exactly the size of hubby but he is not actually the hubby..i was lost in the space for amoment back then..hehe..but no wories kay hubby...i will know and recognize you even if you are old and dah kerepot..

well anyway there is this issue that was mingling through my mind the whole night yesterday after watching GOL & GINCU...you peeps reading this bloggie answer ths question to yourself..especially if you are attached...

what would you do and how you would react to the situation if your significant other has contracted HIV...in this event your significant other truthfully told you the truth cause he/she respects the whole relationship..would you leave him/her for fearing of the future or would you still stay and stick together with him/her to go through thick and thin together...even to an extent that people around disagree of you doing it for fear of contracting the disease from your significant others...

well in that show, the girl ANA decided to leave REZA the one whom contracted HIV...it was for fear of the future...cause she want to have afamily with alot of children which she knows that REZA cant give...the most touching part of the story was to see REZA crying so hardly...and i can feel the pain he was going through..in my mind i was like, ANA should have stay with him to give him moral support...

but now come to think of it if it were to happen to me..i would be more confused then her i guess..i wouldnt know what to do at all..all i can say is i will be lost...

hahas...i also donno why i brought the topic up...probably it just strike me in the head...

anyway today at work wasnt so bad afterall..the same usual thing when i am in the morning shift..sponging...giving gargles...chatting with the patients...giving breakfast and many2 more to mention...but it seems to me that i am liking the whole of ward 55...be it A side or B side...especially all the staffs from 55 whom have been a great guidance to me in answering all my queries and doubts regarding anything...its them whom i wish to be after i graduate..to carry on being a kind nurse who is approcable by anyone...

hehe..actually kinda nothing to bloggie in regarding work cause the things at work are very routine to me..its just the same...i wouldnt wanna make my avivid reader who reads my bloggie bored reading this blog of mine...

well looks like its gonna be all...ciaos...tudalus....but before that...hehe...

to the hubby...i am and will be proud in the future to be called your wife and for that you have the answer to it..but i just wanna let you know also that i am proud to have a hubby like you..and that i will be right here waiting for you till you are back in my arms once again....missing and thinking of you lots...lovie lovie you lots lots too..huggss...muackiez....

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

the cutie one..sayang sama anda selalu.....

haiya..still many2 weeks away....

2007-02-06T04:41:00.001+08:00

Dedicated to my one and only huBBy

hahas..actually nothing muchie to say cause i have already bloggie along one today...just felt like bloggie in again cause this the only thing that occupy me..the INTERNET..this is where i will update mine and the hubby's hotmail and friendster..but actually all these are still not enough to make the missingness goes off...

probably i shall just bloggie in how i am feeling right now...hehe

anyway eversince the hubby went to brunei starting last october 2006...i feel that my life have just lost something well not exactly somethinglah but i felt that i have lost abig part of me...it just felt so empty..truthfully i have been empty in the past before hubby came to the pictures of my life but this emptyness that i am experiencing now is way deeper than how i used to feel in the past...

it is through this being away phase that i realise that i seriously love the hubby lots..i mean no amount of i love you can actually explain how muchie i lovie you hubby...no amount of words...

all i know now is that i need you in my life to guide me as a real hubby in the near future..like how you always say that you see the future in US...i too see the future in us..you might think that sometimes i appear as though i dont take the future seriously but in my heart i so much want it to happen insya'allah...each time you as me wheather you are prepared for the future with me and how i would say NO but the truth is yeshie you are prepared and i too wanna let you be aware that i am prepared...but for now we still have many storms to be weathered and i am quite sure that both of us will be matured enough to solve it...

especially with you to show me the way and the guidance...

haiz..

hubby dear..you just dont know how muchie i love you...if i hadnt love you this muchie i wouldnt be faithfully waiting for you here...and if there was a chance for me to be there with you hubby..o would drop all the things that i am doing in singapore to go over to your side in brunei but ni semua angan2 yang takkan tercapai..hehe..right now bloggie in and missing you but luckily theres still the memories of the fishes that was left for me by you..just wanna let you know that i lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss..muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

missing you lots dearest hubby...

2007-02-06T04:41:00.000+08:00

ahhh...the satisfaction of having to sit on the chair is so overwhelming especially when i have standing for the past 8 hours...anyways the schdule for the next 3 weeks at SGH have already been posted out and i so like the timing and the peeps that i will be working with..hehe..

niwae nothing muchie happen today at work cause its just the beginning of the week and alot of patients have been discharge but fret not cause by the time i work tomorrow, it will be full house for T1...and i will then have things to do such as hourly monitoring and orienteering to do also...today i felt very pitiful for one of my patients who under trachea tube and also today i saw how his flushing of the wound and the changing of the packing was done..eventhough he was under LA(local anaesthia) i could still see him gripping his fist and his face grinning with pain...if only there was something i could do to alleviate his pain and to make him better but it was not within my control..haiz..probably these are some of the events that i have to witness as a nurse even if i didnt want to...

hehe..well dear like i say you have to earn it if you wanna know what happen on that faithful day..and iyer ke you have been a GOOD boy...well i'll pray that u have been aites??...

to the dearest hubby...i wonder when you will be back again cause i cant wait to give you ahug..and i too cant wait to be hugged cause only you know how it feels like when i am being hugged by you...niwae am seriously missing and thinking about you lots..will be right here waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once agian..been diarying in the diary everyday just to keep my missing you in checked..haish...haiz...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggs...muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

you are so near but so far..

haiz...

2007-02-04T20:22:00.001+08:00

haish...cant wait to continue with the colours of our life

the blooming of the relationship..hurry back kays hubby!!

another weekend just pass...

2007-02-04T20:22:00.000+08:00

urhmm...today waking up to the rantling of the mother...she was SUPER noisy and i just had to wake up cause the noise pollution have disrupt my sleep..and at that moment is was only 0645 in the morning...hmm so guess what i decided to dress up in my training attire and head off to the park to jog ALONE....hmm by the time i finished jogging it was already 0745..hmm not bad i took an hour to did some exercise to the body...

by the time i finished and reached home, my mum told that the auntie have asked if we would like to follow her to JB..so knowing that i have absolutely nothing to do at home decided to taggie along...but before heading off to woodlands checkpoint, i had to stop over at the hubby's house to take some foodie prepared by his mum...

to my shock having to reached teck whye by car, my mum...auntie and including the granny wanted to accompany me up to hubby's house...and can you guess for what purpose??...haha shockingly with the intention of knowing hubby's mum..hehe was kinda shocked to see my family reaction...hubby i think you are sure to laugh your heads off if you are reading this...

and comments from the family members shall only be known to me and no one else...heehee hubby even if you wanna know about it...you have got to earn it...hmm...

anyway nothing muchie to bloggie today as i am feeling exhausted...besides there really is nothing to bloggie in except that i misses the hubby alot...

hmm...havent heard from the hubby after yesterday except a message from the hubby informing me that hubby's already back from 'bandar'...erm hubby you also said that you have been a good boy and tak buat benda i tak suka...i WONDER how true it is...tak pernah2 pun you cakap macam gitu...must be that you have done something mischevious and naughty so thats why you are feeling guilty about it...SO you better tell me what exactly have you done or ELSE....

haiya...the weekend is already ending and another week of attachie..not that i am dreading having to go to work but just cant wait to be out of ward 55A cause there is nothing muchie to do...even if i try to find something to do also..there wont be anything...and lucky thing this week is the last week...nevermind zawani just endure it for alil more days...this week will be doing 4 morning and an afternoon..yeays...i so love morning shift...hehe

to the dearest hubby...my one and only...the king of my heart..the apple of my eyes...the nut to this squirrel..the bee to the hunney...am seriously thinking and missing you right now..how i wish i was there with you or you with me but that is all just unfullfilled wishes of mine...you dont know how muchie you mean to me...you are as though the light of my life..without you this lil squirrel will never glow lest you are back...but with the strength that have been imposed onto me by our deep love...i am and will be right here waiting for you no matter what happens....i need you in my life like how a flower yearns for water and sun..like the moon and the stars...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggs..muackiez..

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

lets try it together...

2007-02-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

hmm..sooner or later i will look like walking zombie...am feeling so bored at home with nothing much to do at home...wanna go out but cant seem to find any peeps thats free...

been bugging the mum to go out with me but she is just plain lazy...

haiya..nothing nice to watch on the TV set...looks like i shall just rot infront of the comp but dang i am unable to do that because the lil sis is using the comp...nie pun i just told her that i need to bloggie in for awhile... haha..yesterdays SIMs training aint so bad after all..got to meetie up with quite anumber of 'E' class students..like sufian..kak nadia..uncle zul..michelle..gaya lawrence and many morelah but not forgetting the all time favourite uh'een..whom i will missed alot when we graduate...but sadly yaty wasnt there yesterday...we would have a hell of good laughter and giggles...after SIMs we decided to 'jenguk' and take a peep at OAC training and guess what saw magik, hanaf, khai,fir,man,wando and including the new peeps...but sadly the new intake of OACians wasnt that overwhelming..nampak nye tutup lah tak lamer lagiks..haiz...kesian..but yg tetap best magik aderlah..hehe..gonna miss OAC too mayn....

anyways yesterday finally hubby called unexpectedly and it sure was relieving and it felt great having to hear his voice..it was like music to the ears..ahh..hehe...anyway after near to aweek never talk, we wasted 2 B-tone card...but as both of us was missing each other i shall just close one eyes...its really tough having to be like this but hubby no worries aites i will be ouhkays and before we know it...you will already be back in Singapore..

oh yar..fret not kays..my mind is all set to continue my studies in diploma..you just pray that i am given a placing in poly tau...and you didnt brainwashed me lah..i just wanna tease you only..or maybe you didnt brainwashed me hubby but you used propaganda instead..hehe...anyway its gonna be another week before hearing hubby's voice again cause today hubby's going to 'bandar' for OFF and will be back only tomorrow but i am sure i will endure THE torment...

the clocks ticking by seconds and its already gonna be the 4th week of attachie and i have got 3 more week at SGH before going to the last posting at old time IMH...arrgghh really dread having to go there cause i am gonna trouble my dad to send me to work early in the morning...haiya thanks dad..love you lots..what to do...you work just beside IMH..hehe..but as the clock ticks, the months of hubby's homecoming for good is still exactly 8 months away..i sure pray and hope that it will move faster..insya'allah...and that hubby's understudy will be there sooner than expected so hubby can make it on time home for raya and most importantly my 21st birthday..hehe...

to the dearest hubby..you will always be in heart...its you and your love that i crave and cant live without...its you that i am waiting and thinking not only in the day but also at night..be it awake or asleep...i need you in my little life...missing you lots everyday...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss..muackiez...

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

thinking of you always hubby..where art thou are you...so near yet so far...

finally bole!!

2007-02-02T05:31:00.000+08:00

finally i am able to bloggie in..how irritating can blog be..wanting and needing me to switch to the new blogger..haiya anyway that is all done and here i am..hehe..

niwae yesterday shift was the first morning and it was super fun yet stagnant...having to do only hourly para and hourly urine plus NG feeding...and not forgetting our friend SPONGING..hehe

well today going back campus for SIMs training and will be meeting up with uh'een later cause shes on SIMs training too..yeays at least i wont be alone going to and fro to campus...ader jugak teman makan nanti during break...hehe...

because time is running short on me all because the blogger, i shall bloggie in again later tonight...that is if i am not too tired or LAZY...like i did yesterday...kays gotta head off to the toilet and get ready to head out to jurong east station...and we better not be late cause MDM PHYLLIS TAN will be there at SIMs today..haish...the thought of her being there brings goosepimples on me and butterflies in the tummy....the fear of her will be stuck in me till i donno when...

to the dearest hubby...am missing you big time...and its been aweek lor since i last talked to you....sob3...and that i am thinking and waiting here for you just like how the bee waits for the hunney..hehe..anyway lovie you lots lots..huggs...muackiez...

p.s:off to meetie the lil tikusi.......

hehe...i must be mad..another afternoon shift..

2007-01-31T08:06:00.000+08:00

yeays...today is the last afternoon shift for the week...and then will be doing morning and on friday going back to ITE campus for simulation training AGAIN...been doing afternoon shift the past 2 days and it was kinda stagnant with nothing muchie to do except for admission and more admission...seriously i think now i am a pro in doing the orienteering for admission which includes having to provide the pain and handwashing education...how great can that be..makes me feel that i have past out as an enrolled nurse already...hmm but am i ready for that..nyeah actually i am not because my brain and mind have been brainwashed by the hubby and family to continue in diploma after graduation...insya'allah i will if GOD permits....

hmm...the precious are moving gracefully in the water...so free and happily..hehe and i have already given their fair share of the pallets...will give another meal before i head off to work later...

anyways been having backache and back pain these few days and weeks...guess it could be probably due to having to start attachie and improper lifting technique....well but its also getting better with enough rest...hehe...well nothing much happen yesterday...as per usual parameters and more parameters especially 1hourly parameters for those patients who are POST-OP...

have i ever say that i really liked nursing...like spoosh why am i even mentioning it only now...hahas guess the mind going bonkers as well...

oh yesh saw yaty while i was leaving the hospital premises yesterday...hehe having to bump into one of the JERRIES makes me recall all those happy moments...now i am missing all D'TJs especially the JERRIES...haiya wonder when we can meetie up...the schdule of our shift always will be the opposite of the other...especially mine...hehe but no worries man we will meetie up for sure cause we will need to survey and shop for prom nite outfits...haha...

anyway been exactly 3 days since i last talked from the hubby and the missingness is getting the best of me or NOT...funny thing yesterday after i got back from work and finishing shower, decided not to turn in first but went ahead to watch CSI:MIAMI and cold case...and as i was watching these shows, i was also thinking and missing the hubby...and outta nowhere i received aMESSAGE from the hubby and i was super shocked...hehe but it kinda dapat lepaskan rindu jugak walaupun setakat bace mesej je...

to the hubby...having to end off the bloggie each time with alil message for you is like a routine for me but to me its not ahassle but its my way of saying that i am thinking and waiting right here for you till you are back for GOOD and i mean for GOOD...not going back to that place again..am missing you always....lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

p.s:didnt see the message coming yesterday...love you lots!!

the apple of my eyes...king of my heart..

the JERRIES...mishy you mousy lots

damn i lovie him more and more...

2007-01-30T08:26:00.000+08:00

well here i am again blogging in for today..and i have better bloggie in very quickly before the internet or computer hang and shuts down on me..haish it can be very infuriating especially if have bloggie in like tonnes of words...hehe...

niwae just woken up like an hour ago and have already finished feeding the two precious and am still looking and gazing at them while i am at the computer...by the way did i mention that the two precious is being kept in my room..hehe...am blogging in and thinking about the hubby at this very moment..haish...well one thing for sure its no use of me sighing and all...but what i can do is to just occupy myself with things to make me busy and then will the time move faster...

yesterday was posted to the new ward 55A...its the ENT and Gynae side...well aint so bad except that time moves very slowly there cause there no bladder washout or any catheter drainage unlike 55B...kinda miss that ward....had lotsa fun there mann...UROLOGY rock on...hmm anyway first day at the new ward and i have got 2 initials signed...one was neurovascular assessment which i spot on during the report taking while the other was monitoring elderly on restrainer...hmm thank god that i have managed to get quite anumber of skills signed for competency and initial...but one thing that i am bersyukur is that i am left with only 1 critical skill to be signed for competency...urhhm probably i will get it signed during the ortho posting...that is if it still is planned as scheduled for ortho posting...

and yar the only thing that was happening at ward 55A yesterday was that all the Directors of Nursing from all the Singhealth clusters was down at SGH to visit the DON of SGH who is admitted and the best thing is that no students are allowed to attend to her cause for fear we students make any mistakes and that will put abad name to ward 55A...haish politics and hypocrisy...thats what i would say of the situations...hehe...the funny thing i heard from the talks of the sisters is that she got admitted for having sore throat and that for losing her voice....how funny...hahas...but what the heck...aint my business actually cause i am not the student in charge of room 1..the VIP room...

yesterday during break i thought that i would disturb the hubby by sending him a message that needed him to actually call me if he wants me all his life...well sadly at first i didnt receive any call and i had to report back for duty...but hehe i was surprised when i received a voice message from hubby saying that he loves me...awww seriously didnt expect him to reply cause niat di hati nak mengusik sahaje...cause i dont need any foolish message to know if hubby loves me cause both of us loved each other so much...and hubby always assures me and always remind me not to think negative but always think positive instead...tell you what i can be very negative at time...but that used to lah now nomore and its all thanks to my hubby....hehe

to my dearest hubby...am thinking and missing you lots...but its ouhkays i will endure these next months with patience and cant wait for you to be back in my arms once again... and that i am right here waiting for you till you are back in my arms once again..lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss..muackiez...

i need you in my life...i want you in my life not only now but forever...thinking of you always and missing you lots...

2007-01-29T09:44:00.000+08:00

hahas...i never thought these two goldfishes would actually fill my life with colours when the hubby first bought it for me...i was like in my mind, hubby could have bought me something else to make me remind me of hubby whenever i misses him...but now i am like really stuck to these two precious of mine...it would be them that i look to when i first wake up in the morning...it really have a sentimental values to me...feeding it...talking to it...changing the water tank..i dont and never will find it a hassle doing it but infact i enjoyed doing it...you can say its reverse therapy also lah...by having the two precious around, at least i dont feel so empty in me cause its something that hubby left for me just before he went off to being 1138km away from me again...

anyways the weekend really passed by very quickly without me knowing it...hmm later have got to get ready for attachie...come to think of it 2 weeks have passed and now is already into the 3rd week of attachie and how time flys..but to me it will always be slow because the hubby is not here with me...haish... hehe...yesterday went to meetie up with hubby's mum to transfer the 100 bucks over to his friend account for his usage this week before he gets his pay like next week..seriously i have got to thank hubby for sacrificing alot of his cash on B-tone card just to call me and yesterday itself hubby already spent 30 bucks on B-tone cause he misses me so much so that he really needed and wanted to hear my voice...if you guys wanna know i too misses him as much as hubby misses me..hehe..so yesterday i kinda talked hubby to sleep...aint that cute... well my dearest hubby will always and forever be cute in my eyes..

hmm...now that i have bloggie in what i have wanted to..what shall i bring to work to eat today....urhm sandwiches or biscuits...any opinion anyone??....well looks like i better get my food pack ready and head off to the shower cause gotta run some errands at the town council for my mother...

to my one and only hubby..just wanna you to know that you are the only DEAR in my heart...and like i always say..you are the king of my heart...the apple of my eyes...the nut to this little squirrel...hehe...and that i will always be right here waiting...thinking..missing you always...i will treasure you more than i treasure my life..i will chose to love you when other chose to hate you and my love for you will keep you away from harms..insya'allah...and that you are the light in my life...the sun that shine on me..lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

arr

2007-01-26T09:46:00.000+08:00

guess whud...i was like blogging in whole lot of things when suddely the computer shut down on me just like that and now i am just too pissed to bloggie in already...hmm maybe i shall bloggie in when i return from work tonight..that is if i am not too tired to do so....

well now have gotta get my lunch pack ready...wonder what sandwich i shall make for myself today...been having cucumber sandwich the past few days or would i say aweek...hehe

anyways hope that work today will be great and as busy as yesterday though i am pissed bout yesterday...haish...no comment bout that cause i tried to bloggie it in but dang the comp chose to ruin it...

to my dear...just want you to know that i am thinking and missing you lots...its really a torment not having to hear from you but i shall 'ren' or endure it till the very end of your overseas attachment...anyways lovie lovie you lots lots...cant wait fro your final return and to give you awhole lot of hugs and kisses...huggss...muackiez...

haiya..still 22 weeks away..

2007-01-24T05:19:00.000+08:00

the torment of missing someone i loved most is way painful than having to have my first tooth extracted when i was in Primary 1..hehe but insya'allah all these being faraway is for a good and worthwhile cause...this test our, that is me and hubby...patience which is very important in every relationship..i also do not want the hubby to turn into the 'HULK' again like the other time..for me once is enough to get by as a lesson learnt..

anyway yesterday i kinda slept early cause was super tired at work yesterday..work was as usual..doing the basic nursing care but to my surprise i have completed quite a number of skills..hmm well done zawani but there is still more to go....by the way saw one of the JERRIES at work yesterday...yaty to be precise..hmm wonder biler lagiks boleh terserempak ngan uh'een...hehe...oh yesh the colleagues at work have been getting lesser and lesser with Gaya having to be admitted in NUH and Kak Lelah still on hospitalisation leave...haish our health and mind can be very unpredictable...never know when you are going to be sick..who knows might be i will be hospitalised next...ish insya'allah tak..seliseh...

hehe..should get my breakfast ready for work..

but not forgetting, i was super surprised when hubby called me at home despite what had happen..that seriously touched my heart..like dear said, when you misses someone you would go to all extreme just to hear them...thanchew dear for being so understanding to my needs...

to my dearest hubby...no matter how long you are away, just bear in mind that i am thinking and mssing you always...that you are on my mind 24/7 and 365 days..hehe...but kalau possible please make the months pass by fast....you takie cares of yourself...will always be waiting for you ...lovie lovie you lots lots...hugggs...muackiez...

haha..early morning...

2007-01-23T05:27:00.000+08:00

morning2 to all the peeps..anyway am getting ready for work but decided to blog in alil...hehe anyways yesterday was fine for me except that i was allocated to the HIGH DEPENDACY unit which i handled alone as the junior there...basically i was like a real enrolled nurse doing her job...cedebah...well dream on zawani you have got like amonth or so before graduating..and that also have yet to confirm if i am going to work or poly...

anyways the truth i bloggie in early is because i am missing my dearie whose is 1138km away from me again..anyways he is the love of my heart..apple of my eye...king of my heart..hehe ok ok shant get all mushy up...

guess i should end off here cause gotta set off to work..

to my dearie hubby..am thinking and missing you lots..you dont worry kays, you will always be on my mind every minute, every second and through all the moments that i am still breathing..lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...

haish.....

2007-01-21T19:00:00.000+08:00

arrrghhh...how dumb can the lil sis be..she left the comp on just like that and when i was about to use it, the whole comp HANG on me...*hiak dush*...

anyways, my butt is all sore from all the sitting and watching the tv with nothing to do but lucky thing for me i still have my precious fishes that the hubby bought for me just before he went back to being 1138km away from me..my days are just filled with watching and talking to the fishes...it just feel like i am expressing how i feel to the hubby...and i just hope that the fishes will be able to stay by my side till God knows when...cant imagine how life's going to be for me should these fishes dont live long...haish..but i am going to do all my best to ensure that their life span will be longer..

anyways D'TJs have been keeping quiet...hmm i wonder just how they are doing...well i guess they are busy with attachie and their boyfies..how i envy them for having their loved ones around them..while as for me all alone here..the source of strength is nowhere near me...and i seriously need the strength for me to persevere...insya'allah i will find it deep within me..having to miss my hubby so much, i now realise that missing my buddies are not just missing them but i feel that they are also part of me just like how hubby is...but sorry guys...more will be for the hubby..hehe..

hubby...i am seriously missing you lots as i am even blogging in my entry..no amount of words could actually expresses how i am missing you..the pain is within me though i told you that i am ouhkay and will be able to survive for the next 6 months...the truth is that i cant but for our and your sake, i am finding the strength to do so...and i am pretty sure i will able to do it...that is with you always on my mind...

to my dearest hubby..though i wont hear from you often, i just want you to know that i am thinking and waiting while missing you always...hehe...and most importantly i will always and keep loving you dear...lovie you lots lots..huggsss..muackiez...

so lonely...

2007-01-20T17:38:00.000+08:00

hahas...yeahs its wanie back in the house again..and i think its been aweek or so since i last bloggie in...hehe and i guess D'TJs knows what is the reason that stops me from bloggging in..

yeshie..the hubby was back in town for aweek last week..and he like went back last wednesday...and to my own surprise i actually cried non-stop in the train when i saw hubby walking away..the pain was so much to bear that i told hubby how he didnt have to go back...but haish like hubby say that all this has happen and he cant turn back time and all i can do is pray and pray that the next 6 months will pass by unknowingly..

oh yesh..by the way i would like to thank my best buds that had helped me in making the surprise birthday party worked out and once again to all for making the effort and taking that opportunity for our gathering...and i really enjoyed myself that day...13/01/2007...and the pictures i will upload and email it aites..sorry eh taking along time to do it...

anyways..been missing the buds...but hehe i saw uh'een yesterday in the train..well she looked kinda sleepy to me..just like me..but hey though we only like chatted for awhile, i still feel great having to see her..should meetie up hor one of these days after attachie or before you start WORKING..hehe...and heres an advice from me..dont even think of changing your career..we have slogged hard to do well in nursing...and if it wasnt for nursing,i wouldnt have met up with awhole bunch of best friends....

anyways in here i wana share a good news to all my peeps reading this...firstly, my hubby's dad having finally accepted me...and in a way he has even start talking to me whenever i at hubby's house and it made me feel like one of them...ahh, aint that blissful...mendapat restu daripada kedua2 pihak keluarga is very important and the most BIG news that came as a shock to me was that...hubby said that his dad says that most probably end of next year we might be getting engaged..insya'allah...hubby's dad was like saying to hubby that...tak baik bawak anak dara orang manis2 keluar tanpa ikatan...hehe dengar tu dear..hehehe...

well i guess that should be all...will bloggie again when i am free but no wories i wont let this bloggie go abandon like it did the other time i went for attachie..taliking about attachie, ward 55B is a nice ward to work in except that its VERY stagnant..hehe.. how irony can that be..

to my dearest friends..i hope that though we are going to graduate soon and now is busy with attcahie, i really do hope that we will keep in touch aites..anything just beep me at my mobile or call me at home..really missing you guys but miss someone more lah..not forgetting him also...hehe

to my one and only hubby...though this time you will be gone for 6 months, just wanna let you know that things will never change abit except that i will still continue loving you more and more as days goes by...and have faith in us and in me that i will wait for your return like i always do and have been doing..though we are having problems in communicating with each other this time around, i want you to know that it will never stop me and it will never be a barrier to stop loving you...you are always on my mind 24/7..just like how i am in your mind 24/7...the note you wrote in my diary will be my inspiration and motivation..am thinking and missing you lots...loving you lots lots..the days that i spent with you last week will always be in my mind and that its always on my mind..i need you in my life...i want you in my life...you have to be in my life...i want a future in US...takie cares..lovie you..huggss...muackiez...1138km apart......

4 more days to go before.....

2007-01-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

merry go round the stars..merry go round the moon..merry go round the chimney top on a sunny afternoon...

hahas..i guess i must be crazy singing a nursery rhyme for no reason...

haish..do you peeps realise that the first week of the year 2007 is moving SUPER slowy and i mean the clock is ticking slowly..hmm, probably i guess it just me waiting for the hubby to be back and that is precisely why i think everything is moving at a slower pace...

well anyway tomorrow will meeting up with yaty and uh'eens...yeays...going to shop for the project thingy and ehem ehem...hehe..cant wait to meetie up with these two crazy yet funny buddies of mine...

anyway..i was prepared not to hear anything from hubby for the 3rd day..not forgetting the fact that he didnt wish me aidiladha or new year..hehe...but all that was forgiven when i finally gotten a call from hubby...hooray,hooray..that was what my heart was saying in silence..anyway, the mobile phone that i passed to his fren has already safely arrived and also the 40 bucks...hehe..finally hubby has his own phone to call me when hubby is in brunei...thanks to Ikhsan that has been lending hubby his phone to make personal call...thanchew berrie muchie...

to my dearest hubby..today really had awonderful talk with you over the phone and we really talked alot...about the past, present and also the future..frankly speaking dear i am looking-forward to spend my life with you in the future and i am waiting slowly for the day to come..but for now, i am waiting and thinking and missing you lots...cepatlah balik eh!!...lovie lovie you lots lots...muackiez..huggss...

2007-01-01T12:16:00.001+08:00

hahas..a very good morning to all the peeps out there....

a belated hari raya aidiladha...and a happy new year...

throw away all the unhappiness that had been in the way in 2006 and welcome a brand new chapter of 2007 where new resolutions are made and it smell a whole brand new more of ups and downs..but it aint gonna stop me from making a hatchet in the year...sad to say that 2006 was gone just like that and the only fact that i didnt bloggie in in the last moments of 2006 and its all cause i was busy with the aidiladha preparations...

well aidiladha for me was stupendiously awesome..with me following the parents balik kampung, with the fact that i had never want to go back down all the way to Muar..asmall part of malaysia..but it was really an eye-opener for me...with lots to see..well went over there in the Uncle's car and we set off after sholat aidiladha and reached there like about near to noon...wanna know something..i actually saw first hand observation of the banjir ...and to my horror it was really up to chest level when the water rise..it suddenly saddens me in the car to see the actual situation of these people as i saw the smiles on their face as they welcome the aidiladha with open hearts despite the malapetaka...but thank God that all is well soon...niwae upon reaching there, i was hoping that i would be able and just in time to see the sembelih..but i was a step later..all was done and it was apity that i didnt see...having to accept the fact that i came all the way too see it and it was all over, i was kinda sad but hehe guess God answered my prayers..so my Cik Hurai brought me to the ladang lembu to see more of the sacrifice which was really a heart-warming and heart-wrenching to see the lembu's (cow) to cry and too them accepting the God's will of being the sacrifice....well here are some pictures that i managed to pluck my courage to see the whole process doing on..

here the cow is being position in the lying position to be ready to be prayed on

the sacrifice is being cleaned for the owners to bring in back to dsitribute to needy peoplethe leftovers...sorry for the gruesome atmosphere...

well..these are some of the pictures that i had wanted to share to the peeps out there..but the purpose of showing these pics are not to make you stop eating the meat but to see what aidiladha really means and that we should be appreciative of our life..for all the wellness and good that we have i our little Singapore...

having to be there to observe all that is happening, i now truly am truly glad for a healthy life that i have and everything...well after having to go for the observation, we then headed back and then things were as per usual..eating and more eating of the ketupats, lemang, lepat and ......hehe these scrumptious delicacies can only be found during these times only..apa lagi bedallah all the foods that was spread on the table..hehe but as usual for me will only be just asmall serving..cant let all those jogging efforts go down the drain...well anyway since all is done and eating is done, soon it was time to go home back to Singapore..cause i was not feeling well, we didnt stop at any place to shop for alil while...

and by the time we reached Singapore, it was already 2007 and the new year has come in and upon reaching home, i showered and straightaway ate my medication and head off to bed...i didnt even have the time to go around messaging all my frens especially D'TJs to wish well wishes for the new year..i was seriuosly sick and so am i today but i have to get up off bed to fight off the weakness in me...

since i didnt have the time to messaged my frens yesterday, so here i am extending my well wishes for the new year to all who know me..and that wherever and whatever you have done for me in the year 2006, thanks alot and it has been great to have you around in my little life...especially to 2 of my best budds, uh'een and yaty...you have been a great buddy for me in 2006 and i am sure there are many years to come...hmm at the least till we grow old aites??....hehe and most importantly not forgetting someone close to my heart...

to my dearest and one and only hubby..happy new year to you and that i wanna thank you for being in my life now and that for being there for me always..and its joyous to me to have you in my life not only in 2006 but for many2 years that is coming till you know what...hehe..and that i am loving you more and more than the days that has passed..and that i am thinking and waiting and missing you badly in Singapore..and what did i tell you..these week is going to move slow...it has already started and moving real slow..lovie lovie you lots lots hubby..muackiez..huggss...

finally....

2006-12-29T13:50:00.000+08:00

thank god...syukur kepada Tuhan...finally the internet communications is back in business...this is what happen when we dont take good care of mother nature...disasters strike and man are made to suffer...well but we cant blame fully on man cause like the mum said..hmm, tulah tanda2 kiamat dah banyak tapi manusia masih tak nak bertaubat..haish but the irony of this is that people already realise but they just are being complacent...

anyway poor me its been two or was it three pissed off days since i last bloggie in any entry and also the last since i log into the net and also the messenger...and again im saying this, finally the net is working so peeps out there including me can continue their net surfing and emailing as usual...now i know how it feel when the computer is almost down...especially when i am already stuck to the computer everyday for the past few weeks of the holidays and more are to come..hehe...

anyways it has been raining non-stop the past two days and i feel like i am living in the world of IceAge...i was embedded with the sweater and also the blankets and believe it or not i am even sleeping with the fan completely OFF...call it miracle but i would rather say its weird...its super cold man..but hey there are just some people in the house that is keeping the fan ON and still have the nerve to say that they are feeling HOT..i mean like what the ice are they talking about...nak kater tak mandi, dah pun mandi...think they are just warm-blooded human..hmm arent humans supposed to be warm-blooded...??..now i think i am the one that is confused...

talking about raining, its saddens me to see and hear news of how innocent lives are taken away due to the rising floods that can rise up to the chest levels..and all these are happening just to our neighbouring country which is not far from us..i am glad that my country Singapore is safe and sound..syukur alhamdullillah..and should there be any help that they need, i am sure that we will be glad to help...

guess looks like i shall just laze around the house with nothing to do and just slogg infront of the computer the whole day...too bad i cant savour food at this moment cause i am fasting...hmm but i am like only 5 and half more hours to breaking fast..wonder what i shall have for today???..any ideas anyone...

haiya..am damn bored cause there is nothing to be done at home..and all the books at home has already been read and i cant head down to the library to borrow cause i still have an outstanding penalty charges for the past overdue books..hmm, looks like i better have to borrow the dad's cashcard for that...he's sure to nag at me when he finds out about the charges...sshhh, its between me and all thats reading the bloggie...

by the way..these few days have been very noisy at home cause the bro is at home...and he just have to disturb us..me and the lil sis...and the bro is SUPER irritating...but hey i do love this bro of mine...adik maner tak sayang abang kan...aww...hehe...

anyways, its like less than aweek and half and before i know it, the hubby gonna be back in Singapore...am seriously not to mention patiently waiting for THE day....have been talking alot with hubby lately but its kinda weird cause our conversation communication is delayed for exactly 5seconds and its all also due to the Taiwan quake...must be wondering what i am saying...its like when i say something, hubby will only receive it 5seconds later..and its kinda cool, style but can be irritating sometimes..it makes me talk like a robot at times...but all in the name of missing and wanting to hear your love ones voice...even that i have to endure...

well looks like i have been blogging alot...hehe that should be the case since i couldnt get into the net the past few days...but i guess till herelah cause cant think of anything much to bloggie in..

haish..why does it seems that i can get through the hubby's line...

to the dearest hubby..am thinking and missing you lots lots..just wanna you to know that thought the irritating line is not on our side especially in the time when you are coming back, i missed you so aites..and i lovie lovie you lots lots too..muackiez..huggss...

......damn

2006-12-26T20:48:00.001+08:00

continuation of more pictures...i hope you peeps reading the bloggie will enjoy it as much as i CAMWHORING...

23/12/2006

The besties of buddy....

hehe..didnt know that wanie could actually be into posing>>CAMWHORING..

dont things look clearer this way.....

royal rumble........

hehe..lawa muker...what is yaty doing??...hehe

finally...

2006-12-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

hahas...finally the pictures have been uploaded..sowie for the delays peeps...
these are the pictures taken during the meet-up with the girlfriends...
on Saturday 23 December 2006...

The sweets delights of CoffeBean's...ahhh

hehe..the two micey..Mrs Khairy and Mrs Fathul..

Three blind micey with the Star Wars dude...

Santa Claus..and Mrs Santa....hehe....

aww...aint Mrs Santa sexy....hehe

haish...

2006-12-26T13:07:00.001+08:00

hahas..these few days i have been really emotional and sentimental..listening to old love songs and all...prolly i am just appreciating my love castle and story with gratefulness...

and i am just glad..bersyukur dan alhamdullillah that uh'eens and yaty's boyfie are doing fine as well..hey peeps i cant wait for the january thingy where we will meetie up once again..hehe..

haish..it has started to rain non-stop again..looks like the monsoon season will carry on till early jan i guess and too bad for me i wont be able to jog again...*shrugs*...

brr...and i am feeling cold and shivering that finally decided to put on thicker clothing or else i would start feeling breathless due to being asthmatic...really need to warm myself up..don wanna risk getting sick when the hubby's coming home i so near yet so far..hehe, and yar psst i have not shower yet even its already like noon...its just so cold lah and i don like using water heater that muchie...

niwaes i guess this should be all lah..wanna go clean up the room alil bit..the mum have started to nag about the 'tudung' cupboard being messy and all..but hey i usually will am i mean i will clean up after the mess ouhkays!!...inlike the bro...who always leaves others to pick up the pieces...

finally, to the dearest hubby...am thinking about you ....loving you lots lots...

music of my heart...

2006-12-26T13:07:00.000+08:00

Music of My Heart
Gloria Estefan/Nsync

You'll never know what you've done for me

What your faith in me

Has done for my soul

You'll never know the gift you've given me

I'll carry you with me yeah, yeah

Through the days I've had to think of days before

You made me hope for something better

You made me reach for something more

Chorus:
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Helped me to free the me inside
Helped me hear the music of my heart
Helped me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something I've never known before

And your love is the music of my heart music of my heart.

You were the one always on my side (always on my side)

Always standing by (always standing by)

Seeing me through

You were the song that always made me sing I'm singing this for you

Everywhere I go

I think of where I've been

And and of the one who knew me better

Than anyone ever will again

(Chorus)

What you taught me

Only your love could ever teach me

You got through when no one could reach me

Cause you're always showing me

All the best that I could be

It was you that set me free

(Chorus)

this music lyrics suddenly meant so much to me...its though what i am experiencing now as its reflects on how my life is evolves around hubby..ans its through this relationship that i learnt alot..hubby is the source of my strength, confidence and esteem...

i woudnt be what i am today if it hadnt been for you my dearest hubby...you are the MUSIC OF MY HEART...

to my dearest hubby, just wanna you to know that i love you lots no matter what happen..you taught me the true meaning of love and that i am ready to go through highs and lows with you, come what may...cause you have always been there for me even when i am at the lowest..you never stop believing in me..am thinking and missing you lots..lovie lovie you lots lots..muackiez...huggss....

.::Two Hearts One True Love::.

monday just passed....

2006-12-25T20:58:00.000+08:00

haiya..the weekend is already over and monday has yet to past...haish, how the torment is daunt on me waiting for the moment for hubby to get back....

am right now on the phone trying to connect to the bruneians line but to no avail..hmm i wonder if its the connection error here in Singapore or is it Brunei..this sure have got to do with the rain and all but hey lets not blame mother nature for this aites?....damn i want so much to talk to the hubby even for just afew minutes but the line just wouldnt get through....this is so irritating...what a christmas i am having now...

first it was all the boring shows and one whole day at home..when i thought hearing the hubby's voice could make it better, these connection error just have to occur....wrong timing people...arrgghh...how infuriating can this get....*ears poofing out steam*......

anyway as usual nothing much happen but its was just slacking for me as today the mum said need not cook and i dont exactly know why...except for the fact that the dishes from yesterday was still available for consumption..so cant grumble on that..hehe...save me the troubles anyway...but tomorrow will be business as usual...cooking is a must for me...doing the laundry....

well since there wasnt any cooking today, the lil sis and me decided to grab some foodie from KFC...and though i was feeling very hungry, i still had half a burger only..just that these days dont eat much although i am supposed to be gaining weight before hubby gets back but it just wouldnt budge...the weight i mean...im in big trouble if these goes on...

but hey looks like in the next 2 weeks i have alot of gobbling to do...and i mean awhole lot...uh'een and yaty would so totally agree on this and guess what they would be glad to help push up my weight..they would love to do so...

hahas..but they aint getting it from me...its gonna take more than 2 person to make me eat...but i think the hubby would be able to do it...ok ok..i will eat...

haish..guess should be about it cause i dont have much to write...the holidays must have freeze my mind...

to the dearest hubby...am thinking and missing you lots now...haish, so irritated with the connection...now i am unable to call and talk to you..sob3..but anyways just want you to know that i really missed you lots the past 2 days and that i lovie lovie dovie you lots lots...muackiez..huggss....

gonna be slow man...

2006-12-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

*yawning*....guess looks like there wont be any entry for tonight cause am just plain tired to make my bloggie but heys fret not cause tomorrow there will still be..hahas...

well, good night to all and takie cares and lovie you all lots...have a jolly Merry Christmas....

to my dearest hubby...am seriously missing and thinking about you...damn my head hurts but anyway where was i..oh yar...have been thinking about you the whole day dearie...hehe...niwaes lovie lovie you lots lots..muackiez...huggss...

another week coming up...

2006-12-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

damn...today waking up feeling all cold but yet awesome cause yesterday night had along talk and precious moments with hubby...guess what, the hubby was acting all weird up just cause i say i wanna experience and see how the night life at Clarke Quay was like..he was totally insisting that i should not go to those kind of places even if it was with him and after some persuasion on his part with all the 1001 reasons, i decided to drop the idea..hehe but really enjoyed talking to hubby yesterday...now i am longing for him..uhrmmsss...*sob3*

anyway actually kinda lazy to make any entry today but to occupy my time and cause its like a promise i made to myself that i must at least bloggie once aday to ensure that i dont disappoint those peeps that have been loyally paying a visit to my humble abode of bloggie..hehe..so yar here i am...now with nothing much to do as the mum have already finished cooking without asking for my help..hmmp well i did help her to prepare all the stuff and yar so i deserve to have arest on the pretext that i have did all the cooking these weeks but not that im grumbling about it it just that i wanna make known that i really enjoy cooking even if the lil sis like to say...no matter how you cook, it still is not gonna be the same like the mums..aint that really 'encouraging' of her..hahas but what the hell cause im proud to say at the least i inherited my mum's genes and that to know how to cook independently unlike the lil sis who is so 'kaku' in english would be rigid when it comes to cooking but hey i am not gonna critique here but i will somehow, somewhat and someday teach her how to be a lady in the kitchen...hehe..

looks like today gonna be staying put at home and it will be more of TV...which does not interest me much today cause hey its Sunday and nothing much is up in the tv except only later in the evening as there might be some interesting eve of Christmas show or something...so i have to rely on that..but in the worse case scenario, i migth just watch PGL again on the VCD or just rewatch all the rented CDs...hmm i might just do that...

haish..hey i shouldnt be sighing but anyway wont be hearing from the hubby for the next two days cause he's on off day will all his frens and some officer and they are off to the Empire Hotel or something..and yar quoting the hubby...its a 5 Star hotel ouhkays...hehe..and hubby will be collecting his flight tickets as well...psst, tell you peeps something..actually i worry bout the hubby collecting his tickets cause im afraid he might misplace it but now now zawani you should have confidence in him..hehe, dearest hubby i know you will takie cares of the ticket..anyway i just cant wait for the hubby to be back...hmm, haven i been repeating this in all my entries...well cant be helplah...once again...cant wait for you to be back...anyways i hope you will enjoy and have fun during the off days kays...and Merry Christmas to you my dearest hubby..

to my dearest hubby..am thinking and missing you every moment..and that whatever we talked about yesterday is all so true..about the fear and anger and all..hehe hate it when you are always right but at the same time i LOIKE...takie cares and lovie you lots lots...muackiez..huggss..

P.S: To all have a very happy Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year...well in advanced...to my frens may you be blessed with good health and happiness surrounds you..Insya'allah...

urhm...had agreat lepakzing at CB....

2006-12-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

urhms...just gotten back from the meet-up with uh'een and yaty at CoffeeBean..hahas i tried the new flavour in event of Christmas...i had Chocolate Peppermint Ice Blended and Peppermint Tart..and i thought it would be a minty feast but sadly it was not that minty...how disappointed can i be...hmm, very very...

niwaes after having to chill at CB for about 2hrs, decided to head down to Clarke Quay area to plan but before that making a detour at CentrePoint to take a look at the Piniata...i might just think of getting get cause its of an affordable price..so later on we head on to intended place..but hey did i mention that we were clicking pic of ourselves everywhere we went..we even took photos with this Star Wars character..hehe but on account that we made a donation for the salvation army but hey its the season of giving so what the hack...and i was feeling generous so yar i donated and not only that i even donated to the statue people...how i admire them man for having to stay still...if it was me...i would be like fidgeting around non-stop...hahs..

anyway at clarke quay had intended to do the planning but hehe as usual being the CAMWHORE us, we decided to take some pics of us first...all these pics will be uploaded soon...promise...

by the way..i enjoyed myself lots with the girlfriends though it was just threesome..really love you both lots for making today happens..looking forward to more chilling outs in the future with you guys....must make it apoint in the future even when we have start working to meet up at least once in every 2 weeks or at the least once amonth...but if possible meet up everyday pon alright but that is if we are freelah..hehe

guess this should be all cause gonna watch lakehouse...

to my dearest hubby..am missing and thinking of you lots...having to go out today to town make me reminded of those not only sweet but unpleasant memories that we had when going out together...damn i really missed those moment hubby...missing you lots...lovie lovie you lots lots...cepat2 baliklah...muackiez...huggss...

finally..its a saturday...

2006-12-23T13:03:00.000+08:00

finally..its a saturday but it just felt like sunday cause the dad is at home today..clearing his end of year leave or something like that...as for me am getting ready to go out and yar surprisingly i have finished doing the laundry and the cooking...well since it has been raining and it looks like its gonna rain again, so i decided to cook something soupy...all that was done within less than an hour..

so here i am now as usual..blogging in my entry though its just the start of the day..hehe...

oh yar, this morning was awoken up by aloud crashing sound outside the house..and true enough to my instinct and my mum's word that an accident had happen..and for the first time i made a call to the 999 line...well since there wasnt any civilised people who dare or in this case bother to call the authorities up..and yar at first i had thought that it was just a case of skided motorbike but in the fact that it also involves a car...didnt see the car cause it was in a corner blocked by the tree...niwaes from what my bro and dad evaluated, it was the car's fault and true enough it was the car's fault...hmm lucky for the rider cause he didnt suffer any severe injury on the intent that he could still walk but only GOD knows if he was in pain...guess what it took the ambulance and the TP like more than 10mins to reach the incident site...aint that long or what...

urhmm...this was the early morning show that we, i mean my family got to watch...heehee but all was ouhkays once the victims was off to the hospital in the ambulance...seeing this incident and hearing from new recently about the fatal accident involving 2 ladies at CCK, i sure pray for all riders especially my loved ones be it family or friends that please2 say aword of prayers before starting your bike and ride safely and yesh memang ajal maut ditangan TUHAN but what we can do is try to avert and avoid from it so yar...be safe and ride safely..treasure your life if not for yourself but for your loved ones....

so yar...guess this should be all cause i have gotta get ready to meet up with the girlfriends...hehe...it will be just slacking around at CoffeeBean @ Royal on Scotts...

to my dearest hubbby...am thinking and missing you lots...am right here waiting for you...and yar the weekend is already here and blink blink only the next week will end...hehe cant wait for you to be back in my arms again...lovie lovie you lots lots...muackiez...huggss..

yeays..

2006-12-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

...hye there peeps its me again blogging..hehe look at it this way...that blogging has run deep in me now so much so that i have to bloggie twice each day...

niwae went out wif the parents and lil sis to shop around but in these case its just window-shopping first as it was already late in the afternoon and the mum is just too lazy to head down to town..so we decided to just set eyes on the heartland mall...IMM...went to Giant to find some groceries but we ended up buying up awhole baskets of fruits...orange, cherries, pineapple, guavas...and i think rock melon as well..hahas really getting into the healthy lifestyle man this Zainal's family..hehe..after the groceries were paid for we decided to have dinner at LJS but before that i went to get some stuffs from OCK and Jollibean..hehe..wonder why the sudden increase in appetite...i was seriously munching alot...but i just had the chicken and potato salad at LJS which was very appetising though the potato was alil dry on the inside...so after the belly was all full, next stop was home cause the mum have something on later...

niwae upon reaching home, decided that i wanted to do something new..hehe apply a VCD rental so-called membership...and looks like the next few days or weeks before the hubby gets back will be a movie marathon for me...but dang i almost forgot that i have that 'PROJECT' with D'TJs coming up...hehe..so excited for it manss...but at least tonight will be amovie marathon cause i rented 2 DVDs and a VCD.... High school Musical...Stay Alive...Lakehouse...hmm talking about lakehouse, if only the hubby was here then he would be able to watch it all over again with me just like we did at the movies...haish...*thinking about hubby*

tomorrow will be the day that i meet up with D'TJs...but i guess its gonna be just uh'een, yaty and me...well its ouhkays cause we will still meet up though its gonna be a threesome...hehe gonna have sup tulang..really cant wait for it..looks like i am gonna put on something dark or black cause i jolly well know how i will always end up eating tulang...sure got spots all over..furthermore tomorrow will be in public..never done it before man..so we'll see how tmr...

well gonna continue with the movies...

to all...enjoys the weekends and to those celebrating Christmas better do some last minute shopping for gifts yar...hehe

to the dearest hubby...wondering how you look...hehe niwae am thinking and missing you lots as days goes by...just want you to know that i lovie lovie you lots lots..and yar takie cares of yourself...lovie you lots..i just cant get enough of saying that i love you lots..hehe...muackiez...huggss....

2006-12-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

yeays..finally the weekend is reaching and abrand new week will come by and that marks the last week of december and yesh ah it will be only be aweek before i know it and the hubby will be back...and im pretty sure that that week is gonna be a hell of waiting for me...haish...this is what love makes us do...just waiting anxiously and feeling esctatic just waiting for your loved ones...only you will know how that feelings is and its sure is hard to come by...hehe

niwae yesterday was on the fone with the hubby and spend some precious moments on the fone..i was seriously touched to heart when hubby told me that he actually asked his fren for favour by buying the B-tone card from his fren..and its all in the name of wanting to call and hear my voice cause he was missing me...aww, that totally made my heart melt...never would i thought any guy would do this kind gesture for me...if hubby was here i would have given him a great big hug....that is why i really love him so so much..its through these little things that make me respect and appreciate him more like a man whom i can foresee having my future with him..insya'allah...

if theres ever one thing i would wish for is that i wish that we will see happy days ahead of us..there are just no word for me to describe this guy whom i have accepted to be my special someone in my life except that he is stupendious and awesome...haish, now i am missing him more man....hubby!!!

these being 1138km away from each other have really taught us alot...and im sure there are more parcels of life for us to go through together if we gonna make this relationship bloom into abeautiful castle of which we claim our own..hey i suddenly realise that i have been blogging all about the hubby..hahs, guess what hubby says of me is true...i am devoted to him....and yesh i aint shy or not afraid to admit that i am devoted to the hubby as i really treasure this pearl of mine....name it all, apple of my eyes...king of my heart...he's the ONE...insya'allah..

well, i guess this should be all cause i have gotta head off to the shower as might be going shopping with the parents and lil sis...the bro is fast asleep after his first night shift...c'mon bro im sure you will be able to pull through and this is what you have always wanted..we are all behind you all the way....hehe...

to the dearest hubby...am waiting right here for you till the day you are back in my arms once again..am thinking and missing you always, every moment in my life is all about you..lovie lovie you lots lots....muackiez...huggss...<3

P.S: Will make my entry in the bloggie again tonight y'all..so sit back, relax and enjoyzz.....

no wonder senoko got electricity trip....hmm

2006-12-21T17:17:00.001+08:00

hahas...the house was electricless because there was a power failure...and guess what at that point of time i was having my nap and was awoken up due to the shouting and scrambling of the bro..just had wanted to follow the hubby's advice to rest more cause of the backpain but all thanks to the power failure, the fan was off...and i couldnt get back to sleep as was feeling kinda stuffy though it was raining...hahs, how irony can that be..you tell me...

looks like today not gonna going jogging again as its getting cloudy here and has started drizzling but hey we'll see first...wonder what the dad will have up the sleeves...he might just ask us to jog at the carpark opposite the block...well at least thats something...but it wouldnt be as fun as doing it at the park where theres lots of other people doing the same activities...hmm they can be very motivating also..

hehe..this is actually an edited post...

anyways..it stopped raining to my surprise and we still went ahead with jogging with the irritating bro tagging along cause he wanna us to accompany him to the bookshop to photocopy some documents needed for his work..so since we were headed to Greenridge Shopping centre to get dinner to what the heck....kesian punya pasal...hehe

haiya..another day have almost just passed..hmm and i wonder how my day will be like tomorrow...im sure it will just be the normal routine...wake up and straight to the shower (cause the hubby doesnt like me showering in the noon)..then deciding what to cook and start preparing for it...then finally start cooking....that will take less than an hour den wait till 1100 for the malaysia drama...and blah blah blah...haiya...damn i need to get out of the house...hmm but to think of it, better behave myself cause when the hubby gets back sure will be spending time with him...so looks like i have to be a good daughter and stay home...hehe, this is also good time for me to polish on my cooking skill..getting ready for the future..well, you know what i mean....

well , these few days i have been blogging alot cause uh'een say its a must to blog..hehe..but its kinda good thing cause it takes up my time..at the least i don feel that bored niwaes yesh ah today got prison break man...isnt SCOFIELD cute...ish ish ish wanie..hw can you lay eyes on another man...hehehe but only i know that i love THE one and only hubby...haiz..talking about the dear...now i am missing him already..

guess i should just end off here cause gotta head of to the shower..now that the body is all dried up of the perspiration...and damn i stink..hehe...

before signing off and as per usual...and i never get tired of doing this...

to my dearest hubby...just wanna you to know that i am always thinking and missing you always eventhough ifi don say it..hmm, you should know that i am teasing you if i don say it..hehe..you know i LOIKE teasing you kan..niwae lovie lovie you lots lots..muackiez...huggss..*winky winkz*

a morning day today..

2006-12-21T12:40:00.000+08:00

morning..morning..im feeling so rejuvenated after yesterday's jog eventhough i am experiencing dysmenorrhea..hahas only my nursing frens would understand what im trying to say..anyways today woken up early and went outz with hubby's mom to remit the money over to brunei...after all was done accompany her to the post office to settle the bill and headed towards home after that..i hope i am fulfilling the responsibility that hubby have given to me before he departed for brunei..hmm i feel that i am in fact getting closer to each and everyone of his family...alhamdullillah... (^=^)...

niwae cant for saturday..will be meeting up with yaty and uh'een..tat is if all is free and it also has yet to be confirmed..i sure am missing all my frens...wonder how they are all doing??...i pray for their safety wherever they are and whatever they are doing...u guys really mean alot to me...

am missing and thinking of the hubby again as usual..hehe, he really is the apple of my eyes..haish..just cant wait for another 2 more weeks or so...

to my dearest hubby..the moment you are back in arms, it when the glow of my life and smile appears again..will be smiling from cheek to cheek..loving you more and more as each days goes by..no amount of 'i love you' can make up the deep love i have for you...never have i loved someone this much...''......although your not my first love, your the person that taught me the meaning of LOVE...''.....

.........another day of blogging..

2006-12-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

at last my room is filled with silence..but kinda quiet too with 2 lil cuzzie already back at their own home..cant wait to have them again for the sleepover...

hahas..finally was able to resume my jogging regime again as the pouring has already stop and i hope insya'allah that sunshine will be back once again...but the coldness still fills the air though..well nothing much happen to except that i have like watched Bring It On: All or Nothing for the fourth time today...tell me about it...and the lil bratz liked it too..till they were actually cheering at home too...and aper lagi, kak nurul pun join sekaki lah...

here we go y'all...shabooya, sha,sha,shabooya..roll call...my name is Leti,yeah and i like to party, yeah..when i shake, yeah..all the boys goes...'Ai,mami...'..hahas cool cheering we have got here right...5 thumbs up for Crenshaw Heights Warriors...

hmm.....*blank mind*

well guess i shall just end off my bloggie entry for today...

as per usual..

to my dearest hubby..just cant wait to have you back in my arms...am seriously big time missing and thingking of you dear..haish....".....am so lost without you.."..thats what i can say..hehe niwae lovie lovie dovie you lots lots..huggss...muackiez....

survey doneded!!

2006-12-19T16:42:00.003+08:00

hahas..heres something that i just felt like doing since i have nothing to do..yar you can say again that im feeling bored..

Time of starting This?? 2353hrs
2. Were you named after anyone?? hmm...don think so and not that i know of...
3. Do you wish on stars? not that i believe in it but i used to study astronomy...stars are beautiful..
4. When did you last cry? hmm..like afew weeks ago i think...
5. What is your favourite meat? hmm...nobody can resist the CHICKEN..
6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf?? none..
7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?? might consider...
8. Are you a daredevil? at times i guess...
9. How do you release anger?? i rarely get angered..but when i am, just pamper me with Roche.. 10.Where is your second home? my room... 1
1. Do you trust others easily??y eh..too easily..bt now no..hehe....
12. What was your favourite toy as a child? polly pockets...
13. What subject in school do you think is totally useless? Personal and Interpersonal Effectiveness..
14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? not anymore....
15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?? nah...
16. What do you look for in a guy/girl??? honesty...and to love and care for me....
17. Would you bungee jump?? always wanted toooooo!!
18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? nooope...don see why i have to...
19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? chocolate mint...
20. what are your favourite colours?? green..blue..especially black...?i luf it brite..
21. What is your least favourite thing?? bein lied to..
22.missing!!!
23. What do you miss most right now?? D'TJs and especially the HUBBY...love him lots..
24. What are you listening to right now?? Delta Goodrem-Lost without you..
25. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? green..
26. What is the weather like right now?? cool and rainy..
27. Last person you talked to on the phone??t he lil fren..uh'een...
28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?? smile..
29. Do you like the person who sent you this?? like being around her man..
30. How are you today?? feeling all cool and shrivelled in the blanket...
31. Favourite drink? POKKA Green tea...
32. Favourite alcoholic drink?? not in a lifetime would i touch that thing...
33. Natural hair colour?? black..
34. Eye colour?? brown...hazel also can..
35. Wear contacts?? yeah...
36. Siblings?? 1 elder bro n 1 younger sis
37. Favourite month?? Oct...me birthday where i know i will be ayear older..and always remind me to grow n be mature...and also April..the month that brought me and the hubby together... 38. Favourite food?? i love foood..i cant choose..heh..but often craves fer chineeeese food..
39. Last movie you watched? devils wear prada
40. Favourite day of the year?? National day...ceh, how patriotic can i be..??
41. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out?? nope..don ask people out except my friends..
42. Scary movies or happy endings?? both actually..
43. Summer or winter?? summer..
44. Hugs or kisses??..kisses on the forehead...have always loved that...
45. Do you want your friends to write back? its all up to them..tak nak pakse...
46. Who is most likely to respond? uh'een and yaty..hahas...especially uh'een...
47. Who is least likely to respond?? cant think of anione...
48. What book/magazine are you reading? none..
49. What's on your mouse pad? mousepad that the bro gt it..ITE...
50. What did you watch on TV last night? CSI...Cold Case...the OC..
51. Favourite Smell?? the hubby's aftershower fragrance...
52. do you regret ever breaking up with someone?? nope..cause the ONE that i with..i am grateful for having to meet him....
53. Time of finishing?? 0018hrs

gotta sign outz of the net now..if the hubby knoes im up till this late on the net, hes gonna nag man....

2006-12-19T16:42:00.001+08:00

Hmm...heres something that i came across the net and thought that it was so true..so here i am posting it here to share it with the people around me especially my GIRLFRIENDS....hehe..so you peeps out there better read this "If you love someone".....

Ever since the first time i looked into your eyes, i knew you were the perfect one for me,our love isn't something you can just forget about! you mean the world for me..you know that i love you and forever will...

If i change my world for you would you love me more?? every time i think of you i think why me?? i cry and cry,tears come out of my eyes as the days go by just,because there ain't no other guy like you, you make me crazy just by thinking of your smile, of your eyes, of your voice, and of your laugh...

I love everything about you, people tell me you fall in love once and the rest of the times that you think your in love is just to see if your heart can take all the pain..your my one and only love and I've never been in love with no one eles like you...

Love is a strong word cause people say i love you like if its just another word that doesn't matter but dont say it to some one just because they say it, dont say it unless you really know you do and unless you know that you wanna be with that special person for the rest of your life..because many ppl get hurt by the word love! soooo think about it before...

lost without you...

2006-12-19T16:42:00.000+08:00

brrrr...its cold in here.......

hahas...the rain still haven stop yet and im shivering all over...

haiya..looks like im gonna be a potatocouch just having to laze around like this all day long..especially in the rainy season...

2006-12-19T14:18:00.001+08:00

a world of coldness surrounds me as the rain continue to pours down and if only these wasnt rain but snow..urhm..wad abaseless thought that occur in me...

wonder when the rain gonna stop..the last i check the weather forecast, they say this will continue till late noon but hey its already late noon but it still is raining...haish guess its gonna be a jogless day for me again today...its been 2 days since i last jog and now because of the continued rain i cant jog...hurmp...well but alhamdullillah jugak hujanlah...rahmat kalau hujan tau...this is wad old folks likes to say...

am feeling so bored right now..seriously donno wad to do...with the lil cuzzie around the house, its like hey 'bringing the house down'...screaming everywhere...hehe but kinda fun to see them having to sleep-over the house...been some time since they last did it...

....rain, rain go away...little children want to play....

haiya..when will the rain stop...with the rain around it just makes me feel like lazing around on the bed but hmm just cant get the eye to shut..guess must have too much rest since nothing to do during these holidays...hehe...

hmm and the msn contacts aint having any fun people around..like D'TJs...haish, where art thou are you????....all i can repeat is i am so BORED....aarrgghhhh.....

anyway just don feel like blogging in much cause nothing much to say..hehe...not much happening around..

well since it has been raining in Singapore, i just hope that things in Brunei is fine...haish its during kinda cool, wet weather that makes me think of the hubby badly...just wish that he would appear and give me abig hug to give me the warmth that i need...but haish...........thats like not gonna happen........DREAM ON WANIE!!!!!!

anyways to the dearest hubby..i know that it has been humid and like you say hot down in Brunei..so you better take care of yourself kays...drink more water to prevent any mouth ulcers kays...niwae am here thinking and missing you always...lovie lovie you lots lots...muax...huggs...*winky winkz*

2006-12-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

damn..am down with flu..haish been raining the whole day but...heeeheee am gonna have wonderful nightmareless night tonight..with the cooling space and the blowing of the fan onto me...ahh pleasure..

actually had wanted to turn in for the day when the hubby called and we chatted for awhile..decided to log into the net after that and here i am now blogging in alil before logging out..well mengikut perintah suami jadi kenelah loggie out sekarang...lagipun hubby said that im not feeling well which is truelah...ahh..pleasure again to hear you love one showing concern...alhamdullillah...bersyukur kepada illahi..amin...

last but not the least....

kehadapan hubbyku yang tersayang..inginku ucap selamat malam, mimpi yang indah2..dan anda selalu didalam ingatan dan kerinduan diriku..sangat mencintai mu...muackiez..huggss...

You're always on my mind baby.....

2006-12-18T17:37:00.000+08:00

yeays...finally am able to savour the wonderful taste of Mine Shine Milk Tea...dang the 7-11 at my house ran out of it and is only left with the Oolong Black Tea *eyes squinting*...yucky man the taste...got the lil sis to buy it from the other 7-11 at Fajar...hehe amazingly she's treating me for that...

niwaes yesterday kinda had afamily gathering at the granny's and it been along time since i last saw the lil cuzzie..hehe niwae all the parents is out at the wedding invition and the kids and me are left to fend for ourselves...how bad can that be...that is preciously why i hate sunday when there is lot of invitation to go to cause the mothers will end up not cooking on these days...damn that totally sucks...so guess wad, burn the uncle's pocket...$50 to be precised...ended up buying some goody2 food at the Banquet..well although i was feeling SUPER hungry, decided to opt for just the Tenderfresh fishburger which i ended up eating only half ashare...hehe...ssshhh well guess i still kinda wanna keep the body slim and maintain it but have got to make the cheeks alil chubby...dats wad the hubby wants at least...haish, hope that i am able to reach that target before hubby comes back...insya'allah he will...

BB-OO-RR-EE-DD....BB-OO-RR-II-NN-G....these totally describe my holiday life..haish with D'TJs not in my everyday life during the holidays seems like as though time stand still...frankly speaking i hate the holidays because i am unbale to see all my buddies especially uh'een,yaty,zacky,deebum and dee...i wont be able to know what their life have been up to..wonder if they are OUHKAYS and everything else...it totally saddens me to feel this way cause its these people that brighten up my life...be it in school or outside school...they really mean alot to me and i hope from them to me too..having D'TJs in my life really made me understand the word FRIENDS...been through lotsa up and down with them...haish....where would i be without them...if you guys are reading these, although that we are not seeing each other often i hope you will remember that a friend by the name of zawanie still exist and that i am always here for you guys when you are at your lowest.....SSSOOOO, when in clinical if you are encountering any problem remember that not only me but also the D'TJs is here...

hehe niwae before signing off as per usual...

to my dear just wanna you to know that i am thinking and missing you always..no matter how i may sometimes appear to be 'cant be bothered' when you call, in actual fact i am delighted name it all but im glad to hear your voice..hehe..lovie you lotsa...muackiez..huggss...

hahas...

2006-12-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

yeays...finally got myself 2 new pairs of contact lens after a very very long time..hehe...anyways just gotten back and just like window shop alil bit and already feeling exhausted...and do you wanna know why i am feeling that way..its because it is more tiring to shop ALONE than with others...haish now i am missing all those shopping that i used to dread when the hubby was still here...*sob sob sob*..

hahas...after purchasing the lenses, had decided to head down to orchard but decided to went down to Taman Jurong to meetie up uh'een who is feeling bored having to be at the aunt's place or something...so sat down with her and halfway through wif azrul and haikal...uh'eens lil bro and cuzzie...till like after maghrib then proceeded to her house to take that PGL and Bring it On 2 dvd..hehe gonna watch it soon and get myself occupied...

dang the lil sis ketuk the bucks out of me again to get her a McD meal..haish kalau tak kerana adik takkan ku beli...still she say her sis such a miser when it comes to buying her stuff...hmm...she should appreciate that i care but does she..well she DOES amazingly...hehe...aww aint family ties very important...so i eventually gotten her a McChicken meal while since i have the craving for banditto pocketts...heehee..gotten myself one lah eh...damn i will feel guilty tonight having to eat junk food today..haish..nevermind me..i will just jog another extra lap or 2...talking about jogging..amazingly i have maintain it and there will be more to come..gotta train my stamina and my leggie muscle for the future..urhm actually the boyfie is planning a backpacking thingy for us both and that he say its gonna be atiring journey so i have gotta train myself up...which is what i am doing...am gonna keep this healthy lifestyle...hahas well guess this should be about it lah eh cause already bloggie in along entry earlier on besides wanna enjoy my delicious and mouth-watering bandito pocketts...hehe

to my dearest hubby as per usual..just wanna you to know that i am here waiting for you as day goes by and that i am thinking and missing you always..no matter what and where i am, you will always be on my mind and heart..lovie you lots lots...takie care of yourself..muackiez...huggsss............

2006-12-16T09:52:00.000+08:00

hahas..finally the exams are over and now i am free to update all bloggie entries and start having the entries again and to D'TJs especially uh'een...pls feel free to read up my entry and i will keep to the promise of updating it every SINGLE day...hehe insya'allah if the lil sis does not hog down to the computer all day long...

anyways..the holidays have long started and now as usual without D'TJs and the hubby my life will rot down at home..haish how unlucky can that be...hmm well my plan for this holiday is actually to start cleaning up my room and start thinking of a uniquely design and colour for the makeover of the room..and that is if the parents truly agree on doing the makeover..well i think im gonna try to do this makeover on my own ...intitially had planned to ask uh'eens bro's fren...the loveable teddy bear NADI to do it up but i guess i shant bother himlah cause he just started his National Service..well as for nadi all the best for the BMT yar...*jia yo*

hehe..eversince the holidays started and its like only aweek into the holidays, i am already missing the D'TJs..haish recently i read up on yaty's bloggie and i am touched to see that she feel that way so i guess here i am also wanting to say AMILLION thanks to you guys for being the best of buds of mine..*mah kasih banget deh*..hehe...gue lurp samer lu semua...nie biler nak kluar and discuss bout the january thingy and also the exchanging of the letters..if anything you guys know where you can get me yar..just give me abeep on the mobile and *poof* there i am right infront of you..hehe...

aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh...am feeling so bored sitting at home...well thought today wanna go out wif uh'een but too bad for mua she has her abg sedares wedding..al-maklumlah depa kene rewang...hehe jadik the bunga telur girl kod..hehe she's sure to nag if she really have gotta be one..hahas..hey sis will pray that you wint be one huh...anyways so i thought i would ask dee OAC along as i was gonna buy my contact at sembawang but she also have plans on so once again unlucky for wanie shes left with noone to accompany her..haish guess i will just head down to sembawang and orchard all by myself..i seriously have gotta go to orchard to settle the hubby's membership thingy cause i don wanna the same thing to happen next month..so that is why i am personally showing myself up...well as they say 'customers are always right'.. hehe well it is a fact though...hmmm after running the errands where shall i head to....i wonder???

hahas..dat i can crack my head up later when i am outz..anyways got my hair cut two days ago...hmm kinda like the new look but the hairstylist thin it up too layered but hey im kewl with dat...this might and shall be the last hair cut..gonna maintain it at a long length...den might think of perming it up..hmm wonder if it will look goodie good on mua....*thinking too myself*

well anyways since the plan for today is up, i think i shall just go ahead with it because i am just B-O-R-E-D at home with nothing to do..and its all because i have finish cooking and doing the chores in the early morning..wanna noe sumthing..i tot since its the holiday, could wake up late but hey i ended up waking like 0700 hrs in the morning like almost EVERYDAY..how ridiculous can that be right...haish..

just got off the msn with the hubby and its was just nice to have to chat with dear even for just awhile..satisfaction guaranteed..hehe anyways he couldnt chat long cause he has not finish his duty just yet and i just miss him soo much..no amount of words can describe it...kinda counting down to the days left before i can meet dearie..im just praying hard for dear for his IPPT..i hope he can gain asilver so he could be back in Singapore for free lest if he cant obtain asilver, he has to burn his own pocket just to get back here..haish...how cruel can these people..having to earn something before one can be back home??...haish..

well anyways cant wait for dear to be back...

to my dearest hubby...am seriously thinking and missing you always..just cant wait for the day that you will finaly be back...lovie you lots..muackiez...hugss...

haishh....

2006-12-09T12:14:00.000+08:00

...........silence is filled in me as i long for the love thats faraway.....am missing you so muchie....

aarrrgghh...busy wif the revisions...

2006-12-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

hye peeps...how have you all been doing..

well anyways sowie have not been blogging in the entry for the past 2 days..what to do ...been busy with the notes and more notes..exams are just around the corner..must aim to get an A....

hubby have also been persistently reminding me to study...hey dearie really appreciate you for motivating me to start with my revision...hehe..your MY MAN....my source of motivation as well..lovie you lots...

well cant bloggie in much as gonna get some restie..been on the notes since morning and am feeling exhausted..will promise to bloggie in when am free or till the exams are OVERRRR...anyway to all my friends especially D'TJs...all the best in your revision and upcoming exams... and cant wait for the fun to begin after the papers end....hehehe

finally to my dearest hubby..just wanna you to know that i lovie you lots always and no amount of words can express that except for the many 'I LOVE YOU'..and that i am thinking and missing you always..muackiez..huggss...

hahas..pls attend to this survery...

2006-11-30T12:39:00.000+08:00

well peeps heres a survey that i got from Dee-bum..and here goes nothing...

SERIES ONE as usual
-name: nurul zawani zainal abidin
-birthdate: 121086
-birthplace: singapore
-current location: simei ite MLC
-eye color: it has got to be hazel, seriously.
-hair color: black
-righty or lefty: right
-zodiac sign: libra
-innie or outtie: both!

:SERIES TWO describe
-ur heritage: dad pure malay, mum javanese
-clothes u wore today: school unifrom
-ur hair: wavy kinda curls
-ur eyes: very the big
-ur weakness: i'm too emotional but hahas now am doing well and changing all thanks to the boyfie
-ur fears: losing the people i love
-ur perfect pizza: lots of pepperoni!
-one thing u'd like to achieve: being a noble nurse

:SERIES THREE what is
-ur most overused phrase: "hmm..not sure lei"
-ur tots first waking up: is there any missed calls or msgs from the hubby
-the first feature you notice in the opposite sex: smile
-ur best physical feature: my butt i guess well thats wad alot of peeps say even the hubby!
-ur bedtime: depends
-ur greatest accomplishment: definitely the girlfriends. I've picture-framed them in my heart.
-ur most missed memory: being alittle kid once more...where there is no burden,worries and all...haish...i wanna be 11 again..

:SERIES FOUR prefered
-pepsi or coke: coke....can it be coke lite???
-McDonalds or Burger King: recently Burger king...
-single or group dates: definitely single! but i don't mind group dates though
-adidas or nike: adidas
-lipton ice tea or nestea: lipton ice tea
-chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-cappuccino or coffee: cappucino

:SERIES FIVE do you
-smoke: no
-cuss: hmmm...
-sing well: nope
-take a shower everyday: yep
-have a crush(es): yes...but now have thrown all those away...
-who are they: hehe...
-do you think uve been in love: yep
-like high school: okay lar!
-want to get married: double duhh!
-type wt fingers on rite keys: errrr.... ya?
-believe in urself: they've beeen telling me i should
-get motion sickness: always..
-think ure attractive: *loooks around*
-think ure a health freak: like duhh..hehe yeshie
-get alg wt ur parents: of course..without them i wouldnt be here...
-like thunderstorms: nope
-play an instrument: nyeh

:SERIES SIX in the past mth, did/have you
-go on a date: nope...
-got to the mall: yeshie..
-eaten an entire box of oreos: yar..amazingly kanss..
-eaten sushi: yep ..i lovie it..
-been on stage: yesh..quite anumber of times...
-been dumped: yesh...
-gone skating: yesh..and it hurts..
-made homemade cookies: yes..pastimes...
-been in love: every single day in my life.
-gone skinny dipping: no..NEVER!!
-dyed ur hair: nope
-stolen anythin: hmm..does taking my sis's pen without her knowing counted??

:SERIES SEVEN the future
-age you hope to be married: before 25?
-numbers and names of children: well depends on my hubby...
-describe ur dream wedding: "hmm..it must be as pure as white and in greenary as well..haish cant wait for t he moment.."
-what do you wanna be when you grow up: to love and be loved...still happyily in love with Iskhairy Haron
-what country wld you most likely visit: Paris!

:SERIES EIGHT opposite gender
-best eye color? brown
-best hair color? not fussy..
-short or long? obviuosly short..
-best height: definitely taller than me. i also like feeeling feeeling small can!
-best article of clothings: errrr....
-best first date: the one I had with my hubby
-best first kiss: the one where hubbby gave me on the forehead...ahhh...!

hehe...i must be mad..

2006-11-29T20:15:00.002+08:00

hahas...finally got some pics uploaded for view of the fellow viewers of my bloggie..anyway school have been normal except for the tough revision that the lecturers are starting on despite us having to go back school next week for revision..haish, actually not stress with the exams but actually just need to prepare myself thats all..and i am starting today by splitting up all the topics up..hehe am not spotting topics here but arranging in order to facilitate easier studying...

oh yesh...today was not exactly normal because something special occur in TPS class today..it was an emotional ending of class today..as since it was the last day of TPS, Ms Wong decided to have class emotion revealing..the target was to think if we had the chance to say sorry and thank you to anyone, who would it be??...well at first everyone in class was going like,'wanna say what sei'..or some like me was going 'is there anyone that i wanna say sorry or thank you'..well we start the ball rolling with Marcus..and i was shocked to see the emotion in it because we were actually saying things that was real and within in us all these while..having to see Marcus shed tears, i was doubtful that others and me would to but guess what...everyone who had share their feelings and mostly broke down in tears including me..i just couldnt control that emotion..it was too domineering...in fact i was touched to hear all their story but the story that touched me the most was Sufian's and the story that shocked me the most was Uncle Zul's..well all i can say that after todays TPS session like what Yaty has said..there seems to be acloser bonding in the class especially among those who were present during TPS sessions..having to have todays session, it made me realise though i used to hate being my dad's daughter, i wouldnt what i am if id hadnt been for my DAD..and now i realise that he is the one that confide in most and without my dad having to be what he was in the past,i might not bw what i am today..a girl having the determination and will-powered when the tough gets going..these few days i feel that i am filled with tranquility..i just wanna THANK GOD for bestowing on me the WONDERFUL and BEAUTIFUL family that i have now even after so much hurdles...having to appreciate the people around me...FAMILY..FRIENDS...and most IMPORTANT figure in my life now...my LOVED ONE...iskhairy haron...*really sobbing*....

anyways i was feeling over the moon yesterday and it was all because i was able to talk to hubby on the phone for quite a long duration actually..hehe well we talked about some heart-opening question..and i was glad that i was able to open myself up and have the confident to be talking to a man i regard with respect who also have the confidence...I LOIKE..anyways yar...i am so madly in love with iskhairy haron..haish...hey i seriously dont know why the hell i am sighing but i am glad and i pray hard that things will and have work out how it was supposed to be while dear was still in Singapore..and like dear said 'buang yang keroh, ambil yang jernih' and in the english version it would be something like 'throw away the past but look forward to better days in the future'...see what i mean i need dear to be by my side to teach and guide me relatively as how one's hubby would do...having to realise that i have not been appreciating dear in the past, it made me realise more that i dont see why someone as good, caring, gentle, and everything nice and the TREmendous like dear not be appreciated and respected...whatever dear said have all come to light about him being away in Brunei is not totally abad thing but its actually ablessing in disguise as i understand and am more confident of myself and also the relationship....haish having to say so much, now i am beginning to miss him lots but its ouhkays as i understand the situation that we are in now...

well i am just glad and bersyukur that things are putting in place...and i am also excitedly happy that all the micey (tikusi) are appreciating one another in their relationship including mine...alhamdullillah...amin...

finally as per usual..

to my dearest hubby..just wanna tell you that whatever i am doing and being now is not because i am changing because of others but because for you and the best of the relationship and that i am sincere in all that i am doing...which includes having to love you so, so deeply like i never had before...am always thinking and missing you lots..i seriously dont know what i would be without you in my LIFE...lovie you lotss...muackiez...huggss...

2006-11-29T20:15:00.001+08:00

well...since i am having problems in having to upload the pics..here i am again back to square one having to bloggie in but anyways this will be ashort one..as i was saying since i was uploading pics of my bestie friends, and saying that they are important to me...there is another special person in my life that is as important and someone whom i look up to more than a boyfie but most of the time the utmost respect as a hubby...and he is none other than Iskhairy Haron...

hehe...aint he the most cutest...the apple of my eyes..

when is the person im longing most be back in my arms once again.....

2006-11-29T20:15:00.000+08:00

Heyya..heyya..presenting more pictures....

These are some pictures taken on the PGL day at the OACians Chalet cum pit...

friends are the most important things in LIFE...

oh man...so seriously gonna miss all these OACians very muchie..

2006-11-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

Yeays,finally the Puteri Gunung Ledang outing pics are up...

Presenting Tiara Jacquelina aka Gusti Puteri Retno Dumilah

wow..this have gotta be our tickets...

well...these are some of the pics that Z managed to snap secretly during the musical and like i say the people involved are tremendeously great including the small little kid who take on the role of the crown prince..hehe..macam nak cubit2 pipi dia...

yeays..the outcome of our business...hehe...

2006-11-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

Presenting our creation by D'TJs..Brownie ice-cream

hahas..actually now supposed to be doing my revision but decided that i will continue with it after maghrib..hubby no wories kays insya'allah i will prepare myself for the exams beforehand...anyways this is the creation created by my lovable group D'TJs..our very own Brownie ice-cream..and yar i reallie mean it ...its our own creation and we really made it on our own..so finally marcus forwarded me this pic so i can upload it but there will be more pic that will be uploaded soon..hehe..which includes the belated raya pics and the Puteri Gunung Ledang outing pics as well...hehe..

haish...am irritated by the mom...

2006-11-26T13:25:00.000+08:00

haloo, haloo and morning to all the bloggers out there..anyway today is a wonderful sunday morning eventhough i am grounded by the mom for having to come home late yesterday..haish..den now cannot go out to Uh-een's for the project..haish sorry guys couldnt make it...owe you all one...

anyway yesterday was the most hectic yet memorable day with the girlfriends..guess what we finally caught 'Puteri Gunung Ledang:The Musical'..it was my first but not the last musical and having to been to a musical for the first time, i was entrigued with the performance by AC Mizal, Tiara Jacquelina,Adlin Aman, and the cunning 'Hang Tuah' casted by Stephen Rahman-Hughes..damn was his malay good..you peeps should really catch it but hmm too bad today is the last day of the musical and that tickets are all sold out..well who knows Suria might decide to telecast it on air..hehe will be praying hard for it because i would pay to watch it again..(sowie hubby you had to miss it , should have watched it with you because hehe its seriously is one of akind musical)...no words can explain how great the musical was, rite Yaty, uh-een and Zacky..??...but the wasted thing is only that we didnt get to meet face to face with the cast cos they werent ready to meet us as i think they were changing and heehee we were already hungry with our stomach having to growling like nobody's business..but we managed to catch sight of Afdlin Shauki..hehe looks funny as how his character would be..soooo before we know it, our legs was carying us to Long John Silver...yum yum...

and yar so there we were sitted with all our orders...Zacky, Uh-een and mua had the Combo 2 which had 2 chicken and 1 fish pieces along with the fries and drink while yaty decided to set her tastebuds for 1 chicken, 1 fish and 2 prawns along with the fries...hehe aint all these appetizing and gosh werent we full..oh yar by the way, one of the staff was super stern...dono if shes even the manager..well we guess she must be some police retiree or something..hehe...till theres no smile on her face..uh-een was also like saying 'agaknya kene demoted tak..bab tu muker masam jek'...hehe might be true too...as usual being the 'CAMHORE' us, we decided to click some while in LJS...

well, after all was done head on to Plaza Singapura to meetie up with Dee to accompany her watch her 'FRIEND' in a competition and i could see the GLOW in her eyes having to watch him perform on stage...hmm we left PS at 2100 to head on to Pasir Ris Costa Sand chalet eventhough it was already late and i somwhow knew that it might land me in trouble and true enough it did when my mobile rang at 2300 when we about to leave the pit that the OACians had organized..the dad was asking bout my whereabouts and asking me to get back ASAP..haish here comes trouble...when i told hubby what had happened, he say that all it needed was disciplined to get me back on time..well actualy kinda true cos there was this once when we went to his pit late but was still able to reach home before 2300 and yar hubby maybe what you say is true i need you to be disciplined..hehe well that is why i need you not only as a hubby but also a man who can teach and correct me whenever i am in the wrong and when i need guidance..to add positiveness in me when negativeness starts to prevail..that is why i want you to be my future... all i can say is that insya'allah with our hearts,mind and soul together all this is able to happen and this phrase will remain true in our life..'TWO DIFFERENT HEARTS,ONE TRUE LOVE'...this phrase really holds aspecial meaning in my life with you...and you taught me a whole lot hubby..

hubby... i always say that i appreciate you alot when you were in Singapore..but i realise now that i appreciate you more when you are away from me...having to appreciate you, it makes me feel that i am lucky to have to found you in my life...and that is why i wanna you be the one for me and i am hoping, wishing and praying that days head will test us for the better of our relationship cos i cant stop but wishing to share my whole life with you for the rest of my life..i lovie you lots, am thinking and missing you always..will always be right here waiting for you...

hahas...guess i must have been blogging plenty of stuff here so all wanna shout out is enjoy reading my blog and feel free to taggie me at my tagboard..lovie you peeeps lots..and lovie you too hubby...huggss...

2006-11-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

*yawning*..damn i am feeling tired...am having a muscle stretch on both thigh now..and this all happen because today without warning, Ms Kristy said that NAPFA was to be held today and yar i was so not prepare for it man..hahas unlucky for me i failed my 2.4km by 2 mins and it was because i was not pushing myself hard enough..well how to when my muscle stretch from last week S&W was still not recovered yet but hey insaya'allah can make it want...hmm its not so important for ladies to pass it anyways...hehe

anyway todays lesson was super dry with Ms Yeo having to cover 5 topics of PCB and den Mdm Alice having to cover 3 topics...oh man guess what...i finally well not finally lah actually i already knew but what i am trying to say is i realised that there is sooo many topics to be revised and exams are like 2-3 weeks away..haish reallie gotta have to start revising..insya'allah will be starting revision this weekend when all the projects are all finally submitted...

oh yes..i scored like 93.3% for my theory test on my CPR..yeays that is like only 2 wrong answer and i am proud of myself...*wink*..anyway congrats to all my classmates..we really did well man..'E' class will always persevere till the very end..'ciayo'...lets all run the last lap of our semester....live up to our 'E' class name and make Mrs lee proud of us...

hmm, i guess thats about it on my day today and finally as usual..

to my dear, have been missing and thinking of you badly ...just want you to know that i will always lovie you lots...muackiez..huggss....

2006-11-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

7th months have passed and our relationship is still going strong despite all the arguements and stiffling..but like dear always say no matter how much or how angry we get when we argue, at the end of the day we still love one another as much..and the assurance will always be there..eventhough our anniversary have been along distance one, we do not fail to wish one another..hahas actually i kinda recall saying to dear that not to bother about all these days but at times you just have got to know how times sometimes fly very fast...felt like i have only known dear for 7 days..hehe..anyway although the anniversary have passed, i still once again would like to say, to my dearest heres wishing you a happy anniversary and may the roads ahead be full of surprises for both of us..lovie you lots, missing and thinking of you always..you will always be close to my heart...

anyway, today in school didnt do anything much except for the normal routine with D'TJs..hmm i guess this name will be official..hahas..finally the oncology project have been 'professionally' submitted..aload of the mind..now with only 1 and ahalf project to be done and insya'allah can..

haish..actually today seriously nothing much to write...oh yar have gotta share this funny incident..today while in lecture theatre having our combined lecture, halfway through the lecture, there was this dono which course chinese guy who entered the lecture theatre and not realising that he was in the WRONG theatre..to think that he can still wave at the nursing lecturer thinking that it was one of his lecturer but sadly when he turn toward the whole nursing cohort, he was stunt to see that he was in the wrong class..feeling soo embarrased when we laughed at him, the guy quickly hurried and left the hall...damn i wonder what i would feel if i was in his situation..confirm 'paiseh'..actually kinda rude and cruel of us to laugh but it was SUPER funny tha he couldnt realise he was in the wrong class...haishh...people nowadays..seelah come lesson late somemore...

well, i have gotto go and have some food because am feeling kinda hungry...might just snack on some biscuits..hehe

finally...

to my dear..just want you to takie care of yourself...am right here always waiting for you..lovie you lots and lots...and am thinking and missing you always..muackiez..huggss

tarakucha..tarakucha

2006-11-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

yeays...finally am now back again in blog to bloggie in and yar...wanna shout out loud...i PASSED my CPR certification programme...phew..that was a relieved and the sense of accomplishment was stupendous..hehe..

anyway have not been blogging in for almost aweek i guess...al-maklumlah been busy in school doing projects and more project...things have been on track for me now that almost the projects are done then all i have got to focus on is revision for exam...exams is still like 3 weeks away but already the hubby is reminding me to start with revision...correct or not dear..he even asked me to sprint since its the last lap of my nursing years as a student...haish..i hope insya'allah i am able to make the grades either to fulfill not only mine but my family and my dearie wish for me to continue studies to a diploma..insya'allah if bertekad boleh..its either i want or i dont...

hmm..actually since i have not been blogging in my entries last week, so i will just share alil bit...

well, last weekend was the raya outing with the secondary peeps on saturday while D'TJs on sunday...well what can i say when you are in good company you seem to enjoy it..and hey i did..on both days...i felt it was the best raya that i could have with my friends..be it new ones or old ones..as long as i know that we are still in contact and still try to meet up i am sure the bond will always be there...cant wait to do it again next year..hmm...but what i am afraid is that next year all will be too busy.....haish...

anyway, life for me looks like it have return to usual and i am praying hard that it will stay that way...i wont want to jeopardize my life..hehe u peeps must be wondering what i am saying...its for me to knoe and for you to find out lah eh...hehe

last but not the least as usual...

to my one and only dear...just wanna tell you that i am doing fine here in Singapore after 1 month without you here physically in Singapore but i am taking it slowly as this is a test for not only you and me as an individual but a test for both of us..endurance, patience and understanding is the main key to this test and i am sure insya'allah dear that we will overcome it and better road ahead is waiting for us...just would like to end off by saying that i really love you lots...thinking and missing you always wherever i may be...you are always close to my heart....takies cares of yourself out there...huggiess lots2 and tite2...muackiezzz.....

haish.....

2006-11-10T19:13:00.000+08:00

Two Different hearts One true love...
With these rings will it make us strong..

this morning waking up feeling all so tired and filled with remorse and saddness...dear still have not call me yet and i wonder why..hmm i guess ni mesti the P-card dah habis..anyway i also dont wanna dear to waste too much money on it...hehe puas hati dear save up the money for better use..i am not sad about him not calling me but the fact that i am not hearing from him after the arguement that we had...i just feel so guilty because it is my fault for feeling that way...

now dear i wanna tell you that i take back what i say and that i am proud of myself for being able to be there for you like a wifey should..heh macam gini baru lei jadi wifey misali kan dear??...anyway i am so sorry dear of me to feel the way i did tau..

anyway nothing much happen in school lately and today lesson was super short with only CDP and PCB...hehe lagi2 today not going for OAC training as i have got to go to Z's house to do the brownie ice-cream..hehe while waiting for the ice-cream to freeze, we watched the movie 'Heart'..oh yar did i mention when i was at Z's house was actually terrified of the cats..was like going ahh...maklumlah takut ngan kucing...anyway finally i couldnt take it anymore so i decided to give dear's fren a message to inform dear that i needed to talk to dear...and yar true enough dear called and it was calming to hear his voice but upon hearing his tone, i began to feel scared as i think that dear is still angry...oh yar he told me his waiting for his pay to top-up the card and he will call me but deep in me i am just so afraid he wont..haish zawani please pull yourself together and be positve..you need to have faith and confidence in dear...

nowadays especially the past 3 days, just not in the mood to bloggie in that much as i am feeling worried..well dear like u truelly always say...i think too much well yesh i think too much because i care for your feelings..and i apologise if i always prove you right by always caring for you in the wrong way..but dear you know deeply that i always love, care, think and missing you..

sometimes i just feel that i am useless and not good enough for you but i always put in mind of what you always say..to have confidence in myself...

finally all i wanna say to you dear is that once again i am sorry...and that i lovie you very muchie..am thinking and missing you always..wherever you maybe i will be right here waiting for you to be back in my arms again...muackiez..huggsss.......

what abad day i have been having...

2006-11-09T21:06:00.000+08:00

haish...i wonder how i am feeling deeply in me now..

i feel so lost without you...

haish..anyway nothing much to bloggie in as im not in the mood too do it anyway..

actually yesterday just kinda had an arguement with dear and it was a really heart-reanching arguement..i am sorry and i admit it was my fault for feeling that way but dear totally misinterpreted it wrongly...i am seriously sorry over what had happen and i know it have happen before and i know with me saying i will learn from it will be of no use..but dear seriously i was there for you and if you had think about the 1 month that was fine and me trying to be strong for you then why cant you just put your anger feelings aside despite me having to say that it was all intentional...i even told you that i love to hear u telling me your problems at work eventhough sometimes my answer could be blunt but the point is when you confide in me it makes me feel assured that you need me and its through there that you make feel like your 'wifey'...i am really sorry kalau i hurt you tadi malam but both of us was putting our ego and feelings ahead as the priority instead of the relationship...

but seriously niat i semalam memang nak minta maaf dengan you but it took a turn for the worse instead of me trying to make you feel better, i ended up making you feel pissed...thats why i once say, physically you sound and look fine but emotionally and psychologically i dont know whats burning in you..and dats where i come in to be of your support..i know your out there alone dear...here i wanna tell you that whatever it is i am here and will always be..

haish..i am still waiting for dearie's call but to no avail..

just want you to know...i lovie you lots..thinking and missing you lots and whatever hurtful things i said to you, i sincerely take it all back and i really mean it dear...lovie you lots..muackiez..huggss....

am at school now...blogging in...

2006-11-07T12:40:00.000+08:00

hehe...rite now just completed the Oncology project halfway through and am now at the Multimedia Learning Centre (MLC)...well already eaten my lunch but didnt finish it exactly...i ate the Nasi Goreng Kampung and it is 'SUPER HOT' till i was perpetually tearing and gulping down water...pai kembong perut nohh...betul tak Uh-een??

well surprisingly today while in practical lab lesson, dearie messaged me...alahai damn i was touched to read his messsage...his message wrote 'Chiak, anjat tak! Morning sayang its your hubby just messaging you from a far far away land to say i miss you, huggs,,muackiez..'..haiz it was like music to my heart to listen or i mean to read the message..

hey well gotta sign off now..time for my lesson...*yawning*...another 2 hours of tutorial...haish..

dearie, lovie you and thinking and missing you always..huggz...

aarrgghhh....project still not done yet..

2006-11-06T19:58:00.000+08:00

haiya...the mother and the lil sis is making a din in my room...ish3 its so noisy man..wonder how i am going to enjoy my blogging and continuing my project..hehe looks like i shall just head off to my bed and rest in for the day..tomorrow there will be Sports & Wellness and we wil be playing softball...yeays cant wait for tomorrow..

anyway the dearie have already come back form the outfield camp and he is now in camp doing normal duty..well today he called to chat with me so early in the morning when i was in the lecture hall at about 0800hrs but as i was going to start lesson i couldnt actually answer his call...but hey dear still message me saying to message him when i am on my break...well lucky for me today PCB lecture ended early so was able to talk to dearie while waiting for the Tom & Jerries to print out our TPS assignment...haish..was kinda long when i chat with dearie..dang i have got to buy the international calling card that dearie was mentioning...nak save budget katerkan...hehe..gotta save and save and save...for the future and i mean it ...hehehe...

anyway the Oncology project is already halfway through and the business plan is getting on 'FINE' with the whole group agreeing on making our Brownie ice-cream venture...hmm i wonder if one day me and frens decided to venture into business, will we succeed and become enterpreneurs....will we??...

hmm..well nothing much happen today as usual..but all i know my day is filled with happiness with my frens around me and especially with the dearie having to call me up but still am feeling kinda frustrated with my cough which have not yet healed and with my wrist having to be pain again especially after having to use the keyboard everytime...wonder why rite??...its because i sprain my wrist at KK hospital during attachment and furthermore now when i use the keyboard m left wrist tend to be 'crooked' thus worsening the pain..arrgghh...haiz...must be fully healthy for next week with the Basic Cardiac Life Support (BCLS) and phase test coming up...eeeee, so many test but so little time to study...haishh...nevermind i am sure i will pull through if i put in the effort...

anyway apiece of good new...finally the ICA reply to my bro's work application and alhamdullilah he was accepted for the postition...hey bro you have got to 'belanja' kaes..jangan lokek2...in english it would be dont be stingy...

with the wrist giving me pain and the body system feeling almost down i had better sign off first before i rattle on nonsense...hehe...

as per usual...

to my dearie..thanks for being there giving me assurance time and again and i truly appreciate it..its this words that keep me going for the next few months...just want you to know eventhough you already know, i lovie you lots and thinking and missing you always..muackiez..huggss tight2...

damn im so bored...

2006-11-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

haish...how bored can i be..

for the first time ever i don feel sleep on a Sunday night..hahas thats a miracle man..blah blah blah..actually dono what im trying to do also..just blogg just now..

guess i must be mad..hehe...spongebong humppants..

hmm..raya pics

2006-11-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

The mother & daughter......
The Kosdiman's Enterprise....
The Zainal's Enterprise....mua Family..hehe...
The Kosno's Enterprise........
The Sariff's Enterprise....
The whole family....Saraman's Holdings...

2006-11-05T20:18:00.000+08:00

been a very busy and tiring day since yesterday...was busy with some school assignment in the morning and obviously the house chores too...well anyway school days was not so bad with Ms Chor Buey ending the lesson early..hmm i wonder did she actually realise that she let us off early??...

oh yar...friday OAC training aint so bad actually with Yana not being there...but macam pathetic abitlah because there was like less than 30 people that came...alahai kecian OAC...makin budak2 gerek macam chek and gang dah nk graduate makin pathetic the situation..hmm i wonder why???..well after OAC pun dee, yaty and me decided to just head back home oh yar did i mention Uh-een wasnt there..hmm...knape agaknye Uh-een tak datang eh??...knape??...hehe hanya Tuhan sahaje yang tahu... ;)

anyway..its has actually been 3 days since dear called me as he has outfield 'camping'...something like dat lah..so missed him like BIG time but hey absence makes the heart fonder...

haish...oh man there is like lots of project to be done is its dueing soon...aarrgghh why last semester got alot of project..ingatkan dah nak graduate relax sikit...looks like the table turns on me...what i expected wasnt what it was supposed to be...

finally semua tetamu pun dah balik..and i hope there wont be anymore visitors coming...*shouting out loud*...I NEED MY REST...

actually kinda boring staying home with nothing to do..back den when dearie was around dear was the one who filled my lonliness by going out but now that dear is in Brunei...here i am all alone...wanna ask people out also awkward as today Yaty and Zahidah balik kampung den Dee sure busy at home with baby Danial ...Uh-een pulak i think she went out with Aza...furthermore wanna ask my close frens..Yaty and Uh-een out also like 'paiseh'..they have their own life...haish...Iskahiry Haron when are you coming back to my life??...

well to my close fren, if you are reading this...i wanna thank you lots for being there for me when i was down and when i was so lonely..only i know how much you have been there for me...and yar Uh-een..u were saying..kalau dh keje once amonth must meet right..i totally AGREE..hehe..and yar love you guys lots..

as usual ending off....

to my dear, it was so great to have to hear your voice...and i just cant wait to have you back in my arms..am thinking and loving you always..muackiez..huggs

Love is togetherness,
Sharing with each other,
Supporting each other,
Filling each others lives,
Love is happiness seeing the joy of your loved one happiness..
(depicted from the movie 'Heart')

finally.........

2006-11-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

finally...the weekday is over and hahas weekend is finally back...but still sure got alot of housework and also not forgetting my revision...

haish kinda feeling the heat of being in 2nd year as the number of project have just accumulated to a total of 4 projects and none have yet to be done and that includes TPS project which is due this coming friday...but hey insya'allah boleh habis...

nothing much happen in school lately except for the normal routine but i still enjoy being in school as all my Tom & Jerries are in school to keep me company...betul tak??..

haish, actuallty there has been alot in mind lately and its basicly eating me slowly i guess but i shant share with anyone because i feel its just too personal to be told just by blogging besides i want to keep it from the knowledge of my dearie whom i wish not to worry...kesian dear dahlah kat Brunei takkan masalah chek pun nak bilang depa...but if dear dont know its more better as i dont wanna and dont wish to hurt him in anyways but dear if your reading this i guess you are worrrying about whats going on in my mind but all i wanna you to know is that i love you alot...

recently i have seen this Indonesian movie entittled 'Heart' and this movie depic a love story that is very touching but whats important is what beneath the message of the story..all i can say is you have gotta watch it on your own to know how the sadness could actually make you cry...to those yang tak menangis tu...hmm you have gotta ask your humanity feelings...

frankly speaking blogging is actually an entertainment that tires me out..hehe...having to recap and think what happen to me the whole day is taxing but in a good way i am able to express my feelings and thoughts...

well man...the eyes is starting to drop and so before it really dropped, i would better end off the entry...

anyway to my one and only dear....cant wait to hear your voice on monday because i really am missing you lots and been thinking about you alot too..be it negative or positive thoughts..haishh...just wanna you to know dear that i lovie lots...missing and thinking of you always...muackiez...hugsss......

haish..tired lei...

2006-10-29T17:29:00.000+08:00

haiya..this morning was awoken up to the ringing of the home phone..and since there was nobody at home, i had to answer it...

am so sleepy as yesterday went out to do the visiting and got back only at 12 midnight...then today must wake up early as my house will be expecting some guest...

hahas..so after having to wake up by the phone call, i decided to do some cleaning by vacuuming the whole house while waiting for my mum to get back from the market...

so as soon as my dearest mum reached home, we set off to work...we delegated our work evenly...hehe i did the beefball and the roti kirai...ish ish ish..kirai roti sampai jari chek scalded...hehe but since its for the guest...hey i dont mind at all...

blom sempat habis masak, tetamu pon dah sampai and how embarressed i was as i was still not changed which includes not yet showered and i was smelling of the minced meat lah, the spices and all sorts of smell...u name it and its there on zawani...

so while having to prepare the foodie, i had to chat online with my dearest hubby as all his friends was on 'off' and his turn was yet to come but to me its okay having to rush into the kitchen and to the room as hmmm...i also dont know why but its just that i love him..hehe well i know its not a good enough reason but hey he is my dearest hubby...

anyway ended up having to chat up with him even after i finished cooking and showering...damn it felt good having to have showered...hehe well so continued chatting with dear till it was almost 1800hrs and he had to go for his run and den pray and off to dinner...

these few weeks have really opened my eyes to things that i thought i would never do even when dear was in Singapore and the thing is im not trying to boast about it but alhamdullillah i am changing for these relationship...and the happiest thing about it is dear realised it and he said it would have been better if i was like this when he was still in singapore...well dear you dont worry-worry okay...insya'allah in the name of God i will still remain this way even when you are back..

hahas..too bad i cant ramble on so much as i am expecting my uncle to arrive at my house soon..gotta go and siap all the things...i mean the kuihs and drinks..hehe

as usual..

dear, lovie you always and thinking about you always too kaes..you takie care of yourself especially ur ehem ehem and your ulcers too kae..jgn malas letak Bonjela..muackiez..hugs..

yeays...salam lebaran..

2006-10-25T14:05:00.000+08:00

hey dere peeps...it's me here again just wishing all salam lebaran...

anyway i have been sick the past few days...like i said in my last entry and yar i am still feeling unwell with the voice 'going away'...dah macam suara Ella si penyanyi tu.. really lost some weight because of the fasting and now that i am sick, it will continue to decrease...sebut pasal fasting, berakhir sudah bulan yang mulia Ramadhan dan sudah pun tiba syahdunya Syawal..

Ramadhan datang dan pergi tanpa si seseorang dihati...dan Syawal ini ku berasa sunyi dan sepi tanpanya...well anyway yar malam raya i was able to talk to dearie on the phone and yar we talked quite long actually and it was the moment of seeking of forgiveness..dearie started off first and all was well..dearie you are long forgiven and semua orang buat kesilapan hanya untuk mempelajari darinya untuk memperbaiki dirinya untuk seseorang...den it was my turn to seek forgiveness from my dearest hubby...i just dont know why and seriously i dont why when i started to say my word of forgiveness, tears roll down my cheeks and as i go on and on apologizing to my dearest hubby, i jusy broke down crying...macam tak dipercaya gitu zawani crying asking for forgiveness from my dearest one..probably there was just too many sins and wrongdoing that i did and that i really mean everyword that i say..that was why i cry...dah macam minta ampun dari suami yang sah..well i hope lepas lebaran ini, akan membuka minda kiter untuk memulakan hidup yang penuh dengan dugaan, rintangan dan kasih sayang...dear walupun ur in Brunei i know that you will ensure me that the kasih sayang in us will always be there...and i asure regarding what we talked about on raya will always be in my mind...i will not let fear get the best of me and conquer my heart...i will let all the love, the arguements, the pacify and all the positive points for me to have faith and be brave enough to take the step forward...just like you say....

to make me feel as though that my dearest one is in Singapore, dearie actually called me when i was out the whole day doing the raya visiting at certain interval of the days..that really actually touched my heart and not only that..knowing that i was still sick, he ensure that i didnt drink any sweet and fizzy drink...dear, jangan bimbang i minum warm water...i always bear in my what you tell me....*seriously i also dont know why i always listen to my dear but because i think its for my own good..and like you always say eh dear..i am comfortable with you...*

so yesterday after visiting the eldest aunt at tampines, me and family took paman su's van to head for my bibik's house..boy, werent there alot of people at rumah bibik..with the small kids running around eating and messing the whole house wiyh the kuihs and ME..hehe all i could do was stay sitted at the soft sofa and its all because i was having menses cramp..it was super irritating to have it on raya as it totally made me feel uncomfortable...setelah beberapa ketika disitu, the whole family decided to head to the great granny's house...nasib baik tak ramai orang..alah duduk kat saner pun tak lamer as we had to be going back to bibbik's house..pasal takut-takut nanti ada orang datang nak ziarah embah...so jadi lepas rumah buyut kembalilah kami di rumah bibik...

so to sum up the whole of raya day, it was fun but hanya Tuhan sahaje yang maha mengetahui aper perasaan sebenarnya..sampai rumah pun taklah lambat sangat...kul 0930 dah sampai rumah..reaching home, gi mandi den salin den berehat untuk menunggu hubby chek call and tak sampai beberapa minit...'ring,ring' bunyi handphone but sebenarnya bunyi ringtone Sean paul lah...so we talked and talked about alot of stuff sampai benda yang tak mahu dear mengetahui pon eventually had to be told to him...i just didnt want to keep anything from dear as i want him to be aware how i am really feeeling in this little island of Singapore....i just dont know why i have to tell him things that i dont wanna him to know..proabably its just that i respect him alot and i look forward to telling dear things in the near future..hmm..u get what i mean...'telling dear things in the NEAR FUTURE'...

so well we chatted for quite long actually...say about 45mins..but it was worth the chat..and anyway both of us was already feeling sleepy but aint it great because dear is not working today..but its ouhkays..dear really need the rest for all his works..

signing off this bloggie, i just wanna say a big thanchew to all my friends who have been consistently reading my updates...

having to be separated from you for just 2weeks, i fell the intensity of being lonely and that i feel that i have at times take you for granted and that is always trying to find fault with you but its only now i realise it was wrong of me to do it and i want you to know that i will treat you the ways a man should be treated... ;) ..just wanna you to know i think and misses you always..lovie you always... <3

am feeling so sick...

2006-10-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

haloo haloo dere all peeps..

sowie have not been blogging in for the past two days because i have not been feeling too well..asthma relapse...haish its damn stressful having to be breathless...

niwae i will be bloggie in soon when i am feeling better...

to my dearest hubby, i will always love you lots..thinking and missing you always...muackiez..

finally...the weekend is coming..

2006-10-19T19:31:00.000+08:00

hehehe...finally the weekend is nearing and here i am today to bloggie in once again...

yeays...its left with only 4 days of fasting and its going to be Hari Raya..amonth of physical and mental endurance was worth the wait...but sadly this raya for me is not that worth the celebrate because my dearest dearie is not in Singapore..so this year raya will just be simple for me..nothing much happening..baju raya pon tak beli kalau kwn2 chek nak tahu..just dont have the mood to rayalah..macam sunyi dan sayu gituk..

today in school nothing much happen..lesson was as per usual..with ms yeo tecahing and im not captivated by her method of teaching but i am just glad that the day has end..hehe..tomorrow's lesson will be more relaxing because lesson is only from 8am to 10am..den finish but tomorrow got OAC training lah as usual at 430pm..hmm before OAC i will be going for an interview and den heading towards orchard and bugis...heehee...

anyway i dont know if i have bloggie in about this..but hey peeps my hubby will be back in Singapore for his break on 11 Jan 2007 till 20 Jan 2007...although its ashort period of time and i will be on attachment, i plan to spent all my time with dearie even after my attachie.. (and yar zawani here is an advice for you eh..jgn carik pasal when he is back...spent time, appreciate him as much as he can)...hehe..its still like 3 mths away but yet i am so excited..wanna noe why i am excited...*evil laughter*..you have got to tune in to my bloggie more often especially in 2007 Jan..den you will knoe what i am up to..

anyway while blogging,i am actually waiting for dearie to log on to the msn..hehe just receive acalll from dearest hubby that hes gonna be online soon..im praying hard that no bad connection will occur today..insya'allah..

anyway like how i usually would end my bloggie...

to my dearest hubby..lovie you lots...jage diri you baik2...muackiez...

haha..nothing better to do

2006-10-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

hey dere peeps...im back again for the second time to bloggie in for today...

haha..actually nothing much happen in school today except that the class advisor ms yeo took like near to 2hrs to complete the lesson of a powerpoint slides as much as 12..den in Oncology, the topics was dry with the lecturer having to use a solid 51 slides which was super wordy for the topic on bone marrow transplant...but hey all that is over and now im at the comfort of my own home..in my solitaire...

just got off the msn with dearie and the funny thing that happen today was that both our computer was having difficulty to connect to the net and msn..hehe macam orang giler dibuatnya..

hmm..actually nothing musch to blog in today as im already feeling all the muscle on my body due to yesterday Sports and Wellness...

to my dear...just want you to know that i will take care of your mum but the true fact of reality is that i cant replace you but i can be there to cheer her up during ur absence..thats why i am praying hard that this 1yr will pass by super fast so all the missing yous will be over..but fret not everything in Singapore is fine..hehe with your wifey...semua ditanggung beres...

finally...i love you lots..thinking of you always..missing you always..takie care of yourself out there...you are the man..hehe oh ye dont pay too much attention to what ur sis say kae..i believe and have faith inyou..all you need to do is PROVE her WRONG...muack..

feeling so sick and tired...

2006-10-18T12:08:00.000+08:00

haloo once again to all readers of blogger...

hahas..anyway im right now in school having my break..wad better things can i do other than blogging in my entry..but actually nothing much has happen to me yet today as its just only half of the day but may be i shall bloggie in my entry for yesterday cos i was just plain lazy to bloggie in yesterday...

yesterday although was running aslight fever, i still decided to go ahead to school and guess what i was nearly late for school yesterday..hmm guess the alarm clock didnt go off as expected or maybe i think i shut off the alarm when it went off..hehe well den my mom actually woke me up at 0555 and dat was seriously not enough time left for me as that is usually the time i would be setting off for school but guess what even having to woke up late, i took almost 15 mins to get ready iincluding packing of my beg...yesterday i brought a SUPER big beg to school as i was having my Sports and Wellness and i needed to bring all the necessaties...and it look as though i was going to runaway from home...but luckily i wasnt the only one to bring such abig beg as yaty too brought abig beg..

anyway yesterday lesson was not heavy but its was more of boring as the first 4hrs of the day was PCB_practical lesson and during this 4hrs, my class advisor only like went through 2 topics which i seriously find very nonsensical as if it was Mdm Chick, we would have covered at the maximum 3 topics but well hey yesterday is over...after PCB it was behavioural science and that was ouhkay den it was followed by Sports and Wellness..the whole class was actually grumbling about having to do physical education despite having to fast and with the unhealthy PSI level but thank god Ms Kristy was human enough to let us do it at the indoor sports hall and yar we did some stretching and some games and to much shock, we all actually enjoyed the lesson....after the lesson ends, me and uh-een decided to head for the shower while dee, zahidah and yaty decided to run along home..so only the two of us was left to the shower...

*wah and wow*...that was the words that came out from my mouth after the showers as damn it sure felt refreshing...rugi sei yang lain balik..hehe anyway pasal dah penat punya pasal me and uh-een decided to take a bus ride to tanah merah to take MRT...

so took the train back and was in time for buka puase at home...oh yesh did i mention that the bursary money, allowance money and pay money is already in my account..hehe well tak bole jolly zawani...mesti simpan duit..(maklumlah umur pon dah meningkat jadi mesti ada savings just in case tap tup tap ade jek orang masuk minang..dah ader savings...hmm asyik berangan zawani ni sorang...)

haish.. yesterday did went by fast but the days to my dear coming back is still so far but hey dearie has given me the love and strength to carry on with the wait and i pray that insya'allah the wait will be a worthwhile wait..anyway after buka semalam kerana too penat i rested in my parents room and i was awoken to my brothers voice whenhe say 'adk,khairy call kau' and i blurly replied 'huh,khairy datang, maner dier'..hehe and den my brother funnily look at me and gave me the phone once again saying..'khairy is on the phone'..that was when i truly woke up and realised that dearie was on the phone..

hahas..actually i didnt expect dear to call cos dear said his calling card finished and havent buy yet and i also reminded him not to waste money on calling card but anyway yesterday dear called me using his friend calling card and it was for ashort while..say less than 2mins..all dear wanted to say that he missed me and that he loved me...

damn i loved him lots..nt only dear know how to care for me..after knowing the fact that his girlfriend is always thinking NEGATIVE, he will always emphasise his love for me...

dear, i just want you to know that i have faith in you and i trust you..remember the time when you say that you want to be able to make the relationship stay on and grow during this 1 year, just want you to know that i am here waiting and am here for US to be stronger...insya'allah..

hmm...i think i've been blogging in alot so i'll guess heres where i am going stop.. oh yesh dear..nanti kalau 'kuih raya' dah sampai dont forget to give your mum acall to say thanks and that the kuih she made is nice tau cos the kuih she made for you dear is made with love..and don worry i will take care of your mummy..

for my dear..i love you lots and missing and thinking of you always..really cant wait for you to be back in the comfort of my hands...muackiez...

haish..bored at home..

2006-10-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

haloo...haloo..its the owner of this bloggie againss..

anyway today was the beginning of the ITE school term and boy was the train packed and finally the one week of ghost school has risen up again and all the peeps are back in school..but most importantly for me was to see all my friends again..hehe..

actually im super exhausted and am now running aslight fever and i guess its due to overworking myself doing all the'kuih raya' and also because of the haze is back again..and guess was at this point of time im blogging in my entry, the PSI reading is at 130..giler kan..kalau mcm gini tutup jugak sekolah...

arrghh...bsok ader Sports & wellness sei..so feel lazy to go for it with the haze and all but hopefully tonight will rain and wash the haze away which i doubt so...

semalam..dearie didnt call me..ceh ingatkan dear gi bandar but hehe kesian my dear he had guarding duty to do...haish..kat Singapore ader and kat Brunei pun ader...just gotten off on the msn with him and it was good having to let go of the rindu walaupun kat msn ajer..hehe haish...cepatlah setahun berlalu...

money...money...money..why cant we live without money...haish finally will be settling the Starhub bill with the bursary money...and den guess wad i receive acall which surprised me like really surprised me lor..anyway will blog that in when everything is finalised..insya'allah..

finally..just wanna shoutout to all the peeps out there especially the tom and jerries..better takie care of yourself as the haze is back and yar love you guys lots..hehe..

to my one and only love..my dear..you will always be the King of my Heart and that i love you..thinking and missing you always..i know everyline, every blog is the same i love you and all but sincerely i just want you to know 'Chek sayang hang banyak2 nohh'...dear, you tunggu nanti i dah tahu bahasa brunei nanti i challenge u..muackiez..

damn im so tired...

2006-10-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

haish...finally i can have the time to bloggie in my entry for today..

hey peeps im back again and damn im feeling super exhausted..must be wondering why rite??..because i have been busy doing the raya cookies non-stop since yesterday..yesh yesterday..slept like at about 0100 plus abd here i am again doing the cookies today...

woke up in the morning to prepare all the things to be sent to Brunei and quickly made my way to Singpost..just to hurry back to start making the Double Choco Chunk cookies that my bro wanted...alhamdullillah 'kuih raya' for dear dah pun dihantar through parcel and i pray that it will be received by dear in one piece..mintak2 tak hancur..dear is really looking forward to all the 'kuih raya'..i really that it will reach safely as that is the only confort from home he could receive during these raya...

anyway after the cookies, i started on the pineapple tarts and finally now which is 2230hrs, i am done..hehe just waiting for the mummy to get back from terawih and bake it as seriously im exhausted and my back is aching due to prolong seating...aiks dah macam nursing diagnosis pulak zawani nie...hehe...

hmm..its already 2230 hrs..guess the dearie must have rest cos already had along conversation with dear earlier in the afternoon..

haish..seriously to people i look ouhkay but actually deep in me i am missing dear alot..no words can express how much i miss him him..anyway will keep thinking and missing you dear..hehe

finally to end..just wanna say all the people out there take good care of yuourself since the hazy days are back once again..

to dear..love you alot and also deeply at that..mungkin tadi tak cakap as dont wanna tell you but most importantly you know i love you lots and thinking and missing you always...jage diri baik2 and yar dear kuih you dah pon dihantar...bawak bersabar ye..it will reach you soon..insya'allah..amin...once again sayang you banyak2..muackiez...

the week has passed....

2006-10-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

hey there peeps..the owner of this bloggie have already landed..hehe..anwayss...

yeay..finally the week has ended and weekend is coming well this week school schdule have actually been hecticlah actually...with everyday starting school at 8 am and ending almost at 6pm..haish if only this semester was lighter..

well anyway after school had this talk on BGR and sexuality..hahas although i dont need it, but hey it was a worthwhile experience..got to know more in depth..and im sure i will put it to use when the dearie is back...so lepas sekolah quickly hurried back home as i was going to break fast with my secondary school friends...met them on time to finally settle down at Zingdo..hmm thought this was a Chinese restaurant but to my delight and surprise it was a korean restaurant..and obviously its HALAL...didnt want to stay long actually as i have things to do at home but again i was being surprised like how my 'tikusi' surprised me...it was a belated birthday cake from Sarah,Najibah and Sri..i was and i am touched by them...i truly appreciate the thoughtfulness of all my close buddy...be it secondary or ite...where would i be without them...LOve you guys lotss...

hmm...been missing the dearie today but was delighted to hear his voice at around 830pm and although the conversation was like then 5mins, i felt our heart was interlink..haishh..been aweek only since he was gone...but im sure i will be strong enough to eventually cope with these loneliness...been busy doing his 'kuih raya'..hehe im sending him home made 'kuih raya' made by his dearest mother and lovable wifey which is MUA...hehe..anyway dear don worry you will receive your 'kuihs' in the nick of time...maner ader fun sei yg lain dapapt 'kuih' dulu when its not raya yet..so bersabarlah sebelum kamu disabarkan..hehe..gurau je eh dear..

anyways..yesh dear insya'allah kiter akan mengerjakan Haji together...insya'allah...and yar dear..semua org sayang you...its ouhkays dear that you cant be here on my actual birthday but im already contented to hear your voice besides before you departed kan we celebrated already..

hmm....actually i miss joking with dear..hearing him laugh..his voice..his touch..his love..and most importantly HIS SMELL...hehe...

kaylah guys guess i end here because i have got to look at the tming for the 'kuih tart' that is right now baking in the oven..dont wanna it to get burnt yar...

dear, i love you lots too..my mind and love is with you wherever you are..sayang you banyak2..like alwaes takie care of yourself, thinking of you always,missing you always...love u lots..muackiez....

another day has passed again...

2006-10-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

hmm...finally am back from school..well anyway today was along day in school with having PCB for the first lesson and then 4 solid hours of Oncology...damn it was heavy...there was so much to copy down..i mean all the notes..but hey its was interesting knowing how those cancerous cells spreads and all...

today i ate out with dearies buddy who was Kelvin the baby bro and Azizul the elder bro together along with my friend, Diyana...we had our dinner at Pizza hut..the best pizza under one roof..anyway we talked about alot of stuffs including about dearie..hehe dear dont you worry kae...we didnt mengumpat cume just recapping the memories of you in Singapore...

after dear's departure to Brunei, i felt that i am beginning to be close to his family as well as friends..lucky thing for me we treat each other like family...haish..at least i feel that not all part of me is gone as its in these people that i see dear...as they are also his loved ones..

anyway just got off the msn and the phone with him..and yar lepas jugak rindu sikit2..anyway im feeling tired already due to the heavy schdule today so i guess that will be all and yar till we meet again and till i make my entry again...

lastly for my dear..i love you beyond words too and that am thinking and missing you always..

another day has passed..

2006-10-10T19:58:00.000+08:00

another day has passed and today's school curricular was very taxing...with the sleepless night i have been getting, it was tougher trying to stay awake in class..at the rate i am going, im afraid i might turn imsonic...hahas...

anyway nothing much happen today except that it was kinda stuffy due to the haze..haish isn't the indonesia really selfish..their burning to make way for agriculture has take a toll on its neighbouring countries and mua lovely country Singapore is affected...wishing that these hazy days will be over soon..well like i say nothing much happen, but i was overjoyed when i received a vibration from my mobile which was in my pocket...guess who...yesh its my dearie who called and it was soothing to hear his voice...aint it funny he told me the peeps in Brunei are having apublic holiday cos its 15 Ramadhan..kan bagus kalau Singapore pun begitu but fat hope sei....

oh yar...the haze must have made my mind in a flustered but wnna know something...for practical lesson today we were taught on plaster cast (...womdering what is it...its will be more familiar if i say, you break ur hand put cement lor..)..and i gladly volunteered my hand to be used on and uh-een was the one who cast it on me..hehe maklumlah jakun tak pernah patah tangan..so i had the cast moulded onto my wrist but boy it was so uncomfortable as it felt warm..and not to forget i also took pictures on it too..will publish it one of these days...anyway as soon as practical class was over, quickly decided to remove it...

well anyway sekarang the tummy has been filled with fried rice and alil of coke..though what i ate was not that much, the fullness is unexplainable and after a full meal , i am feeling sleepy but hey i cant sleep yet cos the new season of CSI:Miami is premiering tonight and yar am waiting for dear to call but am not hoping so muchie on it...oops..azan isyak sudah pun berkumandang so i guess i better go and kerjakan waktunya..like the hubby always say tak baik dilambat-lambatkan...

kaelah peeps...gotta go now and wanna rest A.S.A.P so will gain my energy back when the dearie call later...takie cares to all...thinking of you always...lovie you...

thinking about you...

2006-10-10T04:59:00.000+08:00

hey dere again from the window of alil squirrel's life...

hahas...just finish sahur well not exactly lah cos i ended up only drinking air kathira that my mom made...*grinning*..damn homemade kathira i way better than those selling at the bazaars..power kedebak...

anyway i just feel cold, hard and empty these few days...with my dear gone and yar have not heard from him for 1 day...macam tak biase pulak si zawani..well i am aware when he is in PLC there are times where i dont hear from him but the fact is now is way different cos i just know that he is not in Singapore...

i just cant hug my 'bantal busuk' to be a substitute for dear what...it aint the same...haish been quiet and keeping alot to myself alot and i guess my family notice it especially my mom..well in school still ok jugak cos i have already told the tikusi beforehand my situation and they fullt understood me...

its just that when im missing dear and the more people probe i tend to get more upset...and tears of sadness will stream down my cheeks...and i am really trying hard to adjust myself and accepting the fact not that i dont but its difficult...hey i guess you peeps reading this will get what i mean..rite???

semalam, dear say will call me at night..not that im mengharapkan but was looking forward..hmm isnt the meaning the same..hehe..well as i was saying, oh yar so i ended up revising abit while waiting for dear's call but till 0000hrs to no avail but yaty yang messaged...hehe...well it is a kind of disappointment but its ouhkay cos i understand his load of work...my dear is a busy man..just like Donald Trump...yar rite as if...hehe

oh man..running late gotta shower now will key in my entry again when i am back from school..ciao...

dearest dear,
loving and missing u...

abrand new day and abrand new term...

2006-10-10T04:24:00.000+08:00

today was the start of the new school term..and boy it felt great to see all my friends back again but sadly this term our class advisor aint Mdm chick....haishh...

anyway yar i guess it has been along time sice i last made my entry..pardon me for my insolence..just was busy with the attachie life..oh yesh did i tell you i enjoyed my last attachie and the group too..

guess wad i got for my elective...haha its ONCOLOGY..was thrilled and worried at the same time knowing that i will be taking a challenging elective module..

well enough bout my schooling life...actually awhole lot have been going in my personal life..be it family, friends or my loved one..dats is my hubby, Iskhairy..

The sad news that is my dear has already left to Brunei like afew days ago and well it was a solem departure for me as i knew the one and only strength and energy booster in my life that has been keeping me going besides my friends is gone as far as 1138km away from Singapore..

just wanna keep update more about my love life...hehe guess wad alhamdullillah both our family have accepted both our relationship..but still we need to get their restu and confirmation again once dear's back...im getting along fine with his family especially his mom...and dear is also getting along fine with my side...actually i got to knoe something even better afew days back and dear does not know about it..hehe will only tell him when he is back...

hey peeps..guess should be about its as nw i need to sahur...

my last parting words..dear i am missing you alot and just wanna let you know that i love you too...takie care of yourself..

wad agreat day...

2006-07-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

yaays...yaays...finally went out with dear on a saturday..heehee i am all excited and its all because it has been along time since i went out on a saturday as dear has been busy with work..

well anyway today started the day early at 0900 by celebrating Nurse's Day at school..hmph this year celebration was not that good compared to last year...after all ended, went to changed and gotten ready to meet the boyfie..but guess what despite having to finish my celebration slightly later then expected, dearie still finished his activity an hour later..

upon having to meet, we went to his house and i waited while he changed..so chatted with his mother..hehe sometimes i find talking to his mother very enjoyable and interesting..

so after leaving his house, we decided to make our way to Causeway Point to catch Nachos Libre..and boy was the movie funny..touching..and wat too hilarious..hehe..hmm earlier on before the movie..we had eaten at Banquet..so after the movie ended, we went to window-shopped and then went to do something that i had wanted to do along time..hehe

*yawning*..guess all that must have tire me out today so gonna end my entry now..hehe..takie cares..gd nite..ciao.. :)

dearest dear..
today has been amomentful day..
every second..and
every minutes too..
but it still is the same..
all i want to say is..
i love you lots...

lalalala...

2006-07-21T17:44:00.000+08:00

*giggles*..guess what..finally the mother is not angry anymore..phew was i lucky..

anyway today didnt do anything much except for sitting and slacking at home watching TV and replaying past VCD..

cant wait for saturday which is tomorrow as will be meeting the Tom & Jerries at school for the Nurse's day celebration and then off to the cineplex with the boyfie..well i hope tomorrows celebration will be much more better than last year..hehe

well peeps guess should be about it my entry for today but before i sign out, i will have to do a survey or something like that as i have been TAGGED by missy Dee-bum..hehe..here goes the 6 weird things that i do.....

1) i love putting on dozens of pins and brooch on my tudung...max i have used was 8..
2) i cannot sleep with the lights on..damn will i be pissed to have the lights on
3) i must wake up every 1 hour at night just to check on the phone..
4) i have to sleep before clock strikes 12..
5) i must at least chat or talk to one of the Tom & Jerries..
6) i must get moody with the boyfie even when he is not in the wrong..
haha..well actually i dono what to writelah but guess this should be weird enough.. ;p

dearest dear..
i love you lots..
just cant get enough of you..hehe