haha..finally i am back from my attachie..boy was i tired because i just had so many things to be done..informing my colleagues regarding thislah and thatlah..and today one of my patients was feeling better after the aspiration was out and it was solid 900mls of aspiration..well i was really overjoyed to see her smiling again today..the satisfaction was really great..hehe anyway life for me now has been very stagnant..just going to and fro to work and then back just didnt want myself to think too much abt unhappy events but yesh i still do think about it because it really means alot to me..haha today i finally got my exam results and alhamdullillah that i passed with flying colours in rainbow..this is all thanks to my hard effort in studying and not forgetting my friends such as yaty,ain,uncle zul, who shared around their notes..and oh yar most importantly my two teachers..mrs lee and mdm liaw..without them i would be nothing..hehe..well am too overjoyed so i guess that will be about it..hmm...been thinking about you...


today i was working in the afternoon shift but i arrived at the ward like an hour earlier..hehe i guess i must be mad..today i brought packed food from home which i cooked and yar i cooked dee's share too..if only yaty and ain were in the same hospital..could have cook for you guys too man..anyway guess that should be about it because i am feeling kind of not in the mood to key in my entry long long..hmmm...haizzzzzzzzz...just cannot wait for my upcoming camp this weekend whereby all my troubles and pain will be gone each time i am with my oac teamates...if only i could....


been two days since i last key in my entry..just didnt have the time as after attachie straightaway went home and slept..anyway on friday was the best day i had as after oac training, we ate a simpang bedok..this time around there were many peeps around...there were ali,bobo,eri and forgetting 'si semput'..hehe..anyway today is sunday..aduhai cepat banget deh..tomorrow already monday and attachie starts again..well yesterday i went to visit the old folks at peacehaven and boy did i miss that place..there was only dee,yaty,zahidah and me..as ain had to do other community work..well anyway yesterday the day went by very quickly and without me realising 1pm came and we could go ahead home..as i didnt have any plans to go out with anybody,..me and dee went back..while in the train..i was thinking about that someone..i was wondering how his theory test was...well i hoped he passed..even if he didnt insya'allah he will one day..dee and me was so tired after friday's training that on the way back yesterday we slept throughout the journey home yesterday..i reached home almost near to 3pm and by the time i prayed and ate it was already 4pm..hehe like i said i was very tired..i slept from 430pm till this morning...actually during these 15hrs of sleep i actually had a nightmare...the nightmare that i had was so fearful and it seemed so true that upon waking up i found myself to be teary..well anyway enough with the bad nightmare that i had...well today ive got nothing to do..ironing are all done and so is the housework..now here i am keying in my entry..well guess should be about it for today..seelah if i have the time tonight i key in my entry again..but for now i am going to watch a vcd and chill.....to that someone out there..been thinking about you..


haiz..just gotten back from work and i am like so damn tired..today theres 3 discharge cases and 3 admission..i was like working my legs out running from one patient to the other for the assesment..and not forgetting running to the other wards to borrow equipment..today actually did alot..admission..discharges..ufeme..c&s..and yar i did ECG..it was so totally cool..anyway just know i was so engrossed in taking the patients bp that i forgot that it was already 9pm..and it was knock off time..well the bus 963 was very lateand because of it by the time i reach home just now it was 1030pm already and so i went ahead to washup and did ironing..probably after this i pack my things for oac training tomorrow..hehe but if im too tired i just wait till the next morning..well i guess that should be about it..feeling zZzZ already..well nitie nite to all put there especially to that someone..hope your doing ok..takie cares...


yesterday i had no time to key in my entry because i was at my great grandmother house..have been there since the past two days..she has been really sick these few days..this is all gods will..anyway yesterday was the most tiring day for me as i didnt even get awink of sleep as i was up the whole night taking care of my great grandmother..went to work by my uncles car and i was almost late but on time for the morning report..as usual started of the morning with the normal routine and then followed by my break..as i was feeling very tired, i didnt have the mood to make up silly jokes to make the time move faster instead it was my partner sharon that was keeping me awake the whole day..well soon the time moved to 1pm den it was 2pm den finally it was 3pm and yesh i could knock off from work.just didnt know why i pefered to stay home these few days..maybe the sadness in me is still there..like i told naeem it was not easy as i was still thinking about him..yesterday after knocking off from work, i went back with my very close buddy, rasidah..we talked about alot of things as we have not seen each other for months..as we were talking, i prayed and hope that she would not pop the question up but too bad for me she did and i was upset when she did..as we were talking..i finally told her that i didnt want to talk about anything because i was going to break down..and being the understanding friend of mine, she patted me on the shoulder and said its ok..haiz..then it all started i was thinking about him again..i was wondering what could he be doing..has he eaten..i so much so feel like dialling his number and giving him acall..but thinking about it also still made me feel betrayed..well anyway i have got to go now...have to iron my uniform as today i am on afternoon shift..will key in my entry for today later at night.. ;)


today as usual again i was not in the mood to go to work as these past few days i have really been feeling down..i will sit down and tend to stare in space till i need my friend to pat me on the back to wake myself up from the fantasy world i am in..today work is still as usual..talk to patient and blah..blah..blah..haiz..just keep wondering why this is happening..wonder how he is..is he well..is he happy with the situation now..well only GOD knows all..now i am at my great grandmother house as she is really really sick..with nothing to do except that i am downloading songs now..here i am using my uncles computer to make my entry in my bloggie account..how i wished that i would sleep and not wake up to the harsh reality but what to do i have and must..today in my ward there were afew cute cisco officers and warden officer who were there..eventhough i could wash my eyes, i just felt that i wanted him back in my life..but ini semua kuasa TUHAN whereby the meeting and ending of a person is in his hands..all i could do is to pray..but the question is have i accepted the fact..well have i..guess should be about it..as usual..heres something for that somebody..'I wish you happiness..i wish you'll find peace..i wish you the best in life..And most of all..i wish you love....


haiz..today was really reluctant to go for my attachie at the hospital as i was not in the mood to do any work..besides i was feeling very tired, sleepy, lethargic, and i was not in the right state of mind because i was just thinking about way too many things..well actually only 1 thing but it seems to me that it is alot of things..haiz...been sighing and will be sighing these few days..if yaty were reading this..just wanna say that i just dont understand why this is happening to me..i know like you say GOD loves me and thats probably he has other plans for me but i just dont understand why..why do people like to give false hopes..why do people have to say sweet nothing but eventually it all turn out to be hurtful in the end...probably this is what i get for really hurting the person who loves me in the past..but hey this is now and its the future but still i got hurt in the end..emotionally and physically..well upon meeting dee to go to work together, i gave dee my handphone all because i didnt want myself to be looking at the phone waiting and waiting for his call..despite dee holding onto my handphone, i still could not get the matter out of my head..i was still thinking about it the whole day which was from 7am till 3pm..i was thinking to myself..its not like i have not been in this kind of situation before..well i have been but this time around i felt more betrayed and more hurt..imagine the same person whom you really trust stabbing you in the back not once but twice..after knocking off from work, i was not in the mood to go back home yet so i had lunch with dee at banquet @ jurongpoint..damn was i hungry because its been since yesterday i didnt eat all because i didnt have the mood to eat and no appetite..well i ate dry fishball noodle while dee at fried char kway tiow..den i felt that i wanted to gorge myself with chocolates..so i went to watson and bought 1 packet of vanhouten raisin chocolates and 2 bars of hershey chocolates..oh man i was feeling guilty abt eating so much but what the hack i was feeling down and stressed..this is what i would do..but hehe i will be back on my diet again in 2 days time..well ...haiz....now at granny writting my bloggie and i just dont know why i still thinking abt the problem..well anyway today im ending off in a different style..i will end with a question and you people..(basically all my friends)..please answer this question for me by tagging at the tagboard on the bottom left column..is it really that easy for people to fall in love and to lose that feelings at ablink of an eye..?????


as usual today woke up to the morning sun and did my ironing for the whole family..he messaged me as usual in the morning and i replied..will be waiting for his messages the whole day..well today wont be going out because just didnt feel like..afternoon came and i took ashort nap just to be awaken to his messaged as usual asking the same thing..have i eaten and all..today i just feel that its just not right as if something bad would happen and truthfully something did..when it happen i didnt think that it would have such agreat impact on me like the previous ones but this time around it felt deeper and i was not able to accept it and thus i began asking god why is this happening to me time and again..what did i do to deserve this...ya allah dengarlah doa hambamu ini..jikalau benar ini suatu dugaan berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menarunginya..siapalah aku ini..aku hanya hambamu yg lemah yg perlu kekuatan untuk mengharunginya..amin..haiz..life sometimes sucks big time..i mean people who are reading my bloggie now must be wondering what i am talking about well its really nothing just that i am feeling down and all..guess should be about it..nothing much to write as now still afternoon anyway as usual before ending i wanna say to all my friends especially my secondary school and ite close and best friends..that i really love you guys and appreciate you people for being there with me through the tides be it high or low and if it hadnt been for you guys, i wouldnt be where and what i am today..i truly cherish every moments we had together and also wanting to tell all my friend that we have to learn to appreciate and cherish the things that we have or we might just one day regret it..here is a saying..'GOD will never leave us empty..if he ask you to put something down, he want you to pick up something greater'..and also every test that is bestowed on us by GOD, accept it and only the strongest will survive..recently this quotation has been very important to me..it was being said to me in the moment i was lost, confused and down...but suddenly i just feel that everything has been lost again and that to pick myself up again is like almost impossible...


today i was supposed to go for my nursing home visit as usual but i woke up late at 6am so there was no time..hehe mrs lee must be angry i didnt go as i have told her i would be there..feel so guilty as mrs lee placed high hopes on me so much so that i am in selection for committee members..stressed sei..anyway upon waking up at 6am and doing prayers and replying to dear's message, i went back to sleep as my tummy was not feeling good as i think it must be to the cili padi that i ate last night..hehe..well my stomach was really cramping up as i finally know why..hehe it was my auntie visit coming thats why it was cramping..nothing much today except for me rolling and turning enduring the pain of my menses..haiz..just feel like opening up my stomach and remove all the dirty things..haha..anyway around dzuhur dear messaged and i was glad to know how how he was doing..anyway after exchanging afews smses, he had to get back to work..pissing off and thinking about the pain, i dozed off and was awaken when my oac friend messaged..then cannot sleep back to woke up showered and went to my granny house with my mom and sister..hehe i was so overjoyed to see baby sufian there..i carried him and feed him..well then after eating, he had to sleep so he went to sleep and here i am i writting the bloggie..guess should be about this..well as usual before ending off..just want to tell my loved one..i loved you and it still is developing..


been near to two days since i last made my entry in my bloggie..been busy and tired with attachment...the last time i made my entry was on 15/02/06 wednesday..so i guess i have alot to talk about but where do i start..hmm i shall start by saying that on the 16/02/06 was my attachie at school health services where i was posted to yuhua primary school where i got to meet alot of small little cute kids..hehe they were so adorable when they ask me questions in their small tiny voice especially those from primary1..being at the primary school reminded me of being there once and how i wished i was there again where decency and innocence was all i knew..but hey snaping back to reality im turning 20 this year and there are still many things that are waiting for me to discover..anyway back to attachie..as soon as my watch strike 4pm, we headed back..but i didnt go back straight instead i met my close friend at lot 1 and we went back together..having not met for almost aweek, we had so many things to talk about especially about attachie..upon reaching home, as usual i prayed and qadak..dear didnt messaged me one whole day except during the morning and i didnt messaged too because i didnt want to disturb him..but i was glad when he messaged me and i straightaway called him just to hear his voice which i have been longing to hear the past few days...we talked for while and then we continued our conversation at the msn then we ended and we continued on the phone where we talked till the wee hours where i was reluctant to let his voice go but before i knew it, the line was hung up and that day for me just ended like that with difficulty in having to sleep...then the next day began where i was needed to go to new town secondary where i was late for 10mins having to wait for my friends but it was ok as pitied my friend..well nothing much happen at there..the same usual things..height and weight taking..vision screening..and getting those kids to quieten down..man were they difficult..anyway after that as soon as the watch was at 345pm, we was released and i hurried down to school for my training..luckily didint reach there that late..as usual warming up and then running around the track for 4 rounds then continued with games..lepas habis games..cikgu fadil debrief on the camp and the trip to mt.stong..yesh cant wait for it..after debriefing paid fund and camp money to shark..headed to the shower and then to dinner where for the first time yaty,dee and me dine in with the rest of the OAC teamates..was actually reluctant to go because i was afraid that i would feel awkward because never did it before..but surprisingly it wasnt that bad at all..we had hor fun in opeh leaves and i drank teh-o ice..after dinner we all chatted and chatted and chatted..the funny things is that i knew magik little secret..haha it was so funny talking to magik,naeem,J,syam,vans,gayung,din,shark,magg,seng,hassan and the rest lah..left the place and bid goodbye at about 0915 like that..was really tired and couldnt wait to reach home..but unfortunately, the train was slow yesterday...was really testing kesabaran chek nohh...hehe..actually i was in hurry to back because i thought i could talk to dear but by the time i reach home and pray and did the laundry, it was already so i just messaged dear informing him i was already back and then dear was already on the way to lalaland..hehe..so was kinda sad not being able to talk to him as he said he would chat up with me that night..well so i ended my day for friday just like that..being so tired after training and not having to express my loves and hugkz to him..well dear just want to let you know..i love you lots and it is still growing in me...


well now got nothing to do and just finish my dzuhur and asar prayers..had already eaten just now and medication for my stomach has also been taken..hehe think if dear had not advised me to go to the doctors i wouldnt have been better..thankie so much for showing me care and concern but sorry eh dear for my stubborness..anyway today was my last day for attachie at senior citizen health care center..was actually grumbling that there was nothing to do for the past two days and that we learnt nothing but suddenly feel kind of missed the aunties and uncles there..nothing to worry tomorrow will be going for the school health services and hehe can see all the small little childrens..really cannot wait..anyway yesterday dear told me that he has been busy and that he will be working the whole week as he was covering up for his friend..i thank god for making him a good samaritan..hehe although dear denies it..each time kalau i kasih you compliment mesti ada jek you balas..hehe joking aje eh dear..was kind of sad when he told me that he was working this whole week as i knew that i wouldnt be able to see him..but its not abig problem for me because there is aprotrait of dear embedded in my mind and heart eventhough i had only seen dear once..there is this saying that goes "loving someone doesnt mean you need to know him long enough but it is how well you know that person"..hehe probably we clicked so well because we have the chemistry..but like dear said, the road is still long for us and anything can happen in the future but we just pray that god will be there to show us the way..and like dear said..hehe kalau dah jodoh tak kemana..all i want to say is that i am grateful to god for making dear entering my life..and i pray that the love between us will grow as deep and as big as the universe..hehe..insya'allah..finally to end off this entry..dear i know everyday also i say and key in this but no matter what i still am..i love you so muchie..


..hmm before im going to sleep, just want to say that im happy and grateful that dear messaged and i was able to chat with him online..dear im sorry that i was being stubborn just now..well i will listen to your advise and will consult a doctor kae..hehe i guess that should be about it..nitey nite..love u lots dear..


..hehe actually just made my entry just now but now feeling kind of bored..well finally i finished constructing my bloggieskin and got my tagboard back..now at granny place but will be going back soon as i have got to iron my uniform and sleep early..hmm harap-harap dear will call or message me because i really have been missing him..haiz... :(..sob sob sob...


well today was the first day of my attachie at the toa payoh senior citizen health care center..woke up very early and had to rush as i was fighting for time to take the 610am lrt after my morning prayers..hehe luckily i made it on time to meet up with my friends and headed towards toa payoh polyclinic..(in my hurriedness, i actually forgot to message dear saying that i was leaving for my attachie..finally at about 630am, i received amessage from dear..hehe was happy to see his message because was waiting for it since last night..)..hehe how cute can my dear be..actually kind of funny as i knew that he had fallen asleep..bt takpe dear i truly understand ur posotion..well back to my story.. hmm actually was not sure what were supposed to be doing there except for physiotheraphy with the old folks..at 12pm, lunch was served and the serving and clearing was done by us student nurses..at abt 230pm, students from toa payoh secondary school was there on their cip to help out the old folks...hmm nothing much happen after that except for communicating with the old folks..at 4pm sharp we sign out from the care center and headed back home..sitting in the train while thinking about dear, i suddenly doze off and was woken up by my friend saying that i have reach my stop..so sleepily and tiredly i walk down the stairs to the lrt and waited till i reach my stop..well if u wanna know why i was tired because, i was tired because there was nothing much to do at the care center as the old folks was ambulating well..finally i reached home..upon reaching home i soo much wanted to call dear saying that i have reach but fear that i might be disturbing him in his work..well so here i am writting my bloggie telling how my day have gone by in awink of an eye..hehe..oh yar, today is valentine's day but i have not received any wishes of love from someone except from all my girlfriends..well wont be too sad about this as to me with or without valentine's day my love for my dear will be growing and developing..but here i go wishing him a 'HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO YOU MY DEAR'..WILL CHERISH, LOVE AND MISS YOU ALWAYS..


..yesterday i had no time to key in any entry as by the time i reached home it was already past midnight..well i started my morning yesterday very early because i was going to visit my granny who was going to be discharged but upon reaching there i was told that we had to wait till 1pm before my granny could be discharged..finally 1pm came and my uncle picked us up and we headed back to my granny house..upon reaching there, my mom and me was asked to do some marketing at sheng siong and after getting what we wanted, we head back towards my aunts and i kind of cabut by heading back home where i surf through the internet and i log in into the msn where i chatted with my dear..(haiz..i really missed you dear..)..well we chatted for awhile as he had to get his uniform ready for work..after ending the conversation, i headed back to my aunts where i sat there till 530pm and i met diyana to go to the esplanade to see the fireworks..(dear thankie for telling me regarding the fireworks, really enjoyed it but it would have been better if you were sitted by watching together with me, but i understand you had to work)..continuing with the story, after meeting diyana, we headed to the bay where i waited for my cuzzie and her boyfriend..while waiting and sitting, my mind was wondering where could dear be and finally he messaged me asking where i was...suddenly out of nowhere after afew mins later, i saw dear..i was happy that felt like rushing over to him and giving him ahug..but i was grateful for able to see him with his smile..(dear you have a very charming and sweet smile..hehe) well the firework onli started at about 930pm which lasted about 8mins afterwhich we waited for murni to finish her work..well i guess this should be about it...will key in more in time to come as i will be starting my attachie soon and there will be plenty to write...to end off i wanna say that i truly miss and love you so much dear..


...yesterday i had no time to write in my entry as by the time i reach home it was already late..and i mean really late as i noticed the clock was already 15 mins past 12 midnight..hmm yesterday i began my day very early in the morning..after my subuh prayers i didnt go back to sleep bt was resting while waiting for the time for me to get ready to go to the hospital to visit my granny...to my surprised, we received a call from the hospital saying that my granny could be discharged on that sunday..well so i quickly hurried down to SGH and we waited till 1pm for the discharge..my uncle fetched us from there...upon reaching my auntie's house, my mom and i was made to go to the supermarket to shop for vegetables and other stuff..after getting what we wanted, we proceed back to my aunts..hehe i kind of cabut from my aunts house and head back home to surf the net..well was kind of shocked to see dear in msn because i thought he was resting well anyway i chatted with him for awhile before he went to get his uniform ironed to go to work..den disconnecting the net connection, i head back to my aunts and waited till 530pm to go and meet diyana n my cuzzie wit her boyfriend to go to the esplanade to watch the fireworks..(dear thanks for telling me abtout the fireworks, i totally enjoyed it but it would have been better if i was watching it with you)..well anyway while me and diyana was sitted by the bay waiting for my cuzzie to arrived, i was frantically searching for dear as i had really wanted to see him and heehee yesh i finally saw him..standing there so smartly and giving me asmile..i was happy to see him bt i was not really myself yesterday because i was worried about something..haiz...well the wait for the firework was so long bt eventually when its started firing up, i knew that it was worth the wait...after it all ended approximately after 8mins, we headed to salva's convience store where i met my npcc friend who was also my cuzzie fwen, murni..we waited up for her to finish her shift before heading back to the mrt..i had hope so much to see dear one more time but maybe it was not my rezeki to see dear..sadly we went back..along the way to the mrt at citylink, i just coudnt stop thinking about dear..and i just dont know why..was i really missing him..haiz...i think i was really missing him because frankly yesterday one whole day i had no appetite to eat and i ended up almost fainting in my way back..well i guess this should be about it..finally i wanna say that im missing u so muchie dear..love yar lots..


haiz..today early early already woke up to go for my community service at the nursing home..eventhough i was tired and almost couldnt wake up, the thought of putting asmile to the old granny's face daunt on me that i should be on my way there..was in a rush as i was bringing extra clothing to change after that as was heading towards orchard to meet dear for lunch..despite me having to leave and enter my house twice to grab things that i forgotten, when i was at the mrt station i freaked out to realise that i had forgotten to bring my contact lenses so i had to make the decision to purchase anew one..hehe this time around i bought brown coloured lenses..during my 4 hrs stay at the nursing home, i felt solemn and sad to see these old people to be left there by their beloved children whom they had endure morning sickness for 9 months and the bringing up of their children...dont these people have the human feelings in them..to me no matter what happens, i would never leave my parents at an old folks home..thats a promise i make...hmm as soon as the clock strike 1pm we left the home and i was starting to feel realli nervous to meet dear and having to think that i was gonna be late..(well i was late due to my contact lenses)...just dont know why i was really nervous and i was feeling cold all over..upon reaching at orchard mrt at 1450..(suppose to meet at 1430), i was franticaly searching for dear but eventually he found me first which aint fair..to my surprised he was not abit like 'shrek' eventhough i told myself even he was as ugly as 'shrek', i knew i will love him because i've given my heart to him..i mean to me looks aint important as long as he can give me trust, honesty, commitment, and to shower me with love..i would be the most happiest person in the world..sometimes one really need to have someone special to be by their side not just to be there in moments of joy bt also sorrow..well back to the story...after meeting dear, we went to al-falah to sholat dzuhur and dear im so sorry that you had to wait up for me again..i just dont know why eventhough it was our first meeting, we click very well.maybe because we had the chemistry..after prayers, our initial plan was to eat at long john bt it was so packed so we decided to eat at burger king where i didnt eat because i aint hungry..so dear bought me acup of green tea while he ate his meal...seeing the way how he ate his burger was really cute and that is something i wont forget..(dear, you look really cutie)..so we sat and chated and again he SURPRISED me..well no matter hw many surprises he gives me i will cherish him as i have moved on and opened my heart to dear..well after that he sent me to the mrt station where we parted as he was working the night shift..although the day was short and i was unwilling to let go, i was grateful enough to ALLAH to let me meet dear in my life..haiz...standing in the train as i was on the way to SGH, i kept thinking abt dear...hmm...well upon reaching, it was almost going to mahgrib so i followed my uncles to the surau for the prayers where i saw my former guru mengaji..we chatted for awhile and then i return back to my granny's ward..im happy and grateful to god for the fast recovery of my granny..alhamdullilah my doa dikabulkan..(dear thankie for ensuring that my granny will be fine and to my frens thankie too for asking about my granny condition)..well whatever it is i wish my granny all the best on the road to recovery..(insya'allah..)...den my family had dinner at west coast and i didnt finish the mee hoon goreng...hehe well was nt hungry actually..guess should be abt this for today...had fun today...wanna say dear i love you so much dear...insys'allah moga2 cinta kami akan kekal dgn doa yang terbaik untuk kami berdua..amin..


well..yesterday kind of slept late because i had to go to the hospital to visit my beloved granny..they still have not diagnosed what her ailment is and im kind of worried to her in that state of physical being..hmm..today as usual i will be going for my training in the afternoon but before that i will be going to see my granny to accompany her..nothing much to say actually because early in the morning brain blocked arh..hmm yesterday i waited up for Z's call but he didnt call probably he is asleep..was kind of sad because cant wait to hear his voice..well anyway nothing lost but will make me think anout him more..hehe..finally he called this morning and yesh i was very happy although i was stil in my sleepy state..so thanks to him i was awoken up quickly and cepat cepat go pray..well guess should be about it..will write again so..something i wanna shout out load..I LOVE U SO MUCH DEAR.. :)


haroo..haroo...today i woke up to acooling day bt it looks like its gonna rain..hmm my plan to go out today has been cancelled because my grannie aint feeling well and she gonna be refered to the hospital..i guess my sentiments of dat shes nt her usual self is right..after getting back from haj, shes been feeling rather weak probably due to the adaptation of environment...well i hope everything goes well and i'll pray for her recovery...hmm..hehe as for me, i have been feeling happy for the past few days probably because of the new chapter in my life..will tell one of these days whats the new chapter is all about..well..me gtg..wanna hopped over to my grannies house..see u around.. :)


today is the third day of my second week of holidays..today i woke up feeling extra cheerful than usual cos i stayed up late to chat up with someone special..hmm i missed my friends but its ok because tomorrow will be meeting them to go over to mrs lee apartment for chinese new year..well didnt make any entry for along tyme as i had forgotten my password and i just cannot find the time to do so..well on monday 6 feb, it was the most memorable day i had with my 7 other good friends as we went for apicnic at east coast parkway where we eat..blade..swam..and also talk to our hearts content and oh yesh yaty's 'B' was there and that was the first time all of us get to know him and hmm he aint so quiet afterall..its been 3 weeks since i last think about someone and moving on with my life and yesh with the help of my friends, i am finally able to move on and i have sadly but strongly let him go..this is apromise i made for myself..till when do i wanna sacrifice my effort for someone when he himself is not being optimistic about life..well i may have told him that i will and may wait for him 5 yrs down the road but the table has changed nt because i have someone new but because it just that i dont wanna be just the second in his heart..it truly hurts for me to do so but its for the good of both party..well at the end of the day for me after letting it go i feel much happier and not lost anymore..kae me gtg will continue with other entry for other days..