5:45 PM
hahas...finally i am home at the comfort of my own chair whereby i am able to bloggie in my entry for today...hehe...anyway just finished showering and am now taking ashort rest before i watched tv or do some reading...its been along time since i last read...so i think i might just do that...well since today i was on 8am-4pm shift cause of the plaster room posting...there was nothing muchie that happen today at the ward...while at the plaster room, it was kinda fun having to see how they apply the cast and seeing how patients moan and groan at just having to remove the cast using the saw...hehe actually i shouldnt be laughing at them cause i have never gone through that...and so i wouldnt exactly know how the feelings is...whatever it is the posting to plaster room was aworthwhile experience...yeays...another 2 more days and finally i will be out of SGH to IMH whereby its gonna be like a holidaying mood since there wont be anything muchie to do or would i rather say there would be NOTHING to do at all...when furthermore the 2 weeks that i am going to be there, its gonna be hopping around to different wards at the day...this can be very confusing and tiring...well lets just pray that the last day of posting at IMH, all of us are able to be on the morning shift or else...well i guess that should be all cause cant think of what i should be blogging in but these last few lines is amust to be bloggie in cause it is just like adaily routine for me to the hubby...and mentioning about the hubby...i am missing him lots lots...to the dearest hubby...just want you to always know eventhough i know you know and is assured about it...but i still must say it to you...that i am always right here waiting for you and thinking of you till the day you are back to singapore for good...and hubby that will be the day that i am gonna give you ahug like never i am gonna let go...hehe...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggsss...muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
aint he the cutest hubby around...
7:23 PM
ahhs...aint it feel great having to finish 8 hours of works and now being at the comfort of one's own home especially my 'bantal busuk'...hehe,hubby i promise i will have it thrown away one of these days... cause i know i will have you to huggie in the future...hehe...
anyway work today was normal...except that earlier in the day i was being the junior staff for the cubicle Room 20...whereby i had to orientate the 2 year one Nanyang Polytechnic students on the ward routine...haha,i was SUPER shocked that they wanted me to orientate them cause i myself am a student who is still studying or would i say still be learning the ropes of being an Enrolled Nurse but at the very least i am glad to be of help cause they will know what to do and as long as they are willing to learn,all of us will learn...hehe but today kinda interacted and made friends will the NYP students at the central station...hmm,and they are a bunch of friendly peeps...
guess what...am excited having to hear hubby's voice today...and it was sweet of hubby to buy the B-tone again to chat with me...haiz,wonder when hubby will be back...am seriously waiting for hubby to be back...haish,actually truthfully have been kinda guilty and feeling apologetic to the hubby these few days except that i didnt tell hubby...i have been feeling these way because of the small arguements that we had last week...hubby,i know you have told me not to talk about it but thus i still feel guilty...and if you were in Singapore,i could at least do things to make it up...well,i guess we have to wait for hubby to be back so i can do it ,huh hubby...hmm,probablythe chocolate chips cookies that i am going to make for hubby will just do the job...hehe...
talking about foodie,hubby i guess you cant wait to be back for the foodie that i am going to prepare for you...when you are back,the 'asam pedas ikan pari' and the 'blueberry muffins' will be waiting piping hot for you ...but too bad hubby, the chocolate chip cookies will only be for your flight back to Brunei...sorry alot alot hubby...
kaylah peeps out there reading my bloggie and especially to the JERRIES and the Hubby...guess this should be all cause have gotta shower as just finish jogging earlier on...so will bloggie more about 'bits and pieces of my LIFE' tomorrow or whenever i am free from laziness...hahaha...
to the dearest hubby...just want you to know that i am always were here missing you every minute,every second,24/7 and 365 days of my LIFE...how i wished you were right by me so that we can continue our story of 'honey and bee'...been thinking about you and am right here waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once again...and i am going to give you a big HUG...lovie you lots lots...huggs...muackiez...
.:: Two Hearts One True Love ::.
missing you always my dearest hubby..
5:51 PM
hey there peeps...its been 2 days since i last bloggie in...and its all because i was feeling kinda unwell and was just bent on lying down...
well didnt do much the past 2 days except for being at home like i usually do...but it was the nursing home visit on saturday with the newly batch of Community Service Club from the year 1...the visit on saturday was actually also the chinese new year celebration for the folks as well...everyone had their fair share of goodie bags with oranges and biscuits inside...after the whole thing ended at 1pm, i decided to head back home cause was feeling tired and sleepy as well...but this i have gotta say...i was SUPER furious with the SBS bus driver for asking me to pay adult fare price when in actual fact i am still a student...i even showed him my student pass but he just went on and on nagging well not nagging cause he was actually scolding which i thought was rude..anyway he was scolding on how i should pat adult fare price...and couldnt be bothered with his crude reply i just paid him the fare...and for crying out loud i paid him extra fare...i paid him $2.55 for just a short bus ride...haiz...some bus drivers these days especially from SBS Transit can be very rude...till now i simply think its not my fault and that i deserve to pay a student price...no justice at all...but i look at it as though its a donation contribution to SBS...hehehe...
anyway..on sunday which was yesterday, didnt do anything much at alll cause there was also no laundry to be ironed and the 2 precious water tank need not be changed so was stuck to the tv set the whole day just at watching chinese movies from the starhub free movie preview...then when night came...it was off to bed to dreamland for me...
and that was how my weekend ended...it was just like in ablink of an eye...and poof it is monday and attachie starts again for me at ward 76...haiya and today my patience was tested again by the same patient...and i thought she would already be discharged...but in the presence of her son, she was SUPER well-behaved...well i guess thats how elderly will be...even me or the hubby too will be like that one day...
mentioning about the hubby, its been 3 days since i last heard from hubby...looks like hubby have been avery busy BANQUET boy...hehe hubby i hope it wasnt too tiring or taxing on you...anyway, hubby i know u have been avery disobedient and naughty girl last 2 days ago...and i am sorry once again but am SO OVER it...looks like the advise you gave me really worked hubby...hehe and that is why i love you lots...
I TOO AM GOING TO BUILD THE FUTURE WITH THE LOVE WE SHARED, AND NOT THE WORDS WE SAID.....
to the dearest hubby...am missing you lots and am wondering when you will be back again to give the comfort that i have not had the past 2 months...eventhough i know that 1 month is not long...it is still faraway and i too know that you agree too...been thinking about you lots and been missing you lots...thinking about how much i miss you, the memories of the happy things we did together all came pouring back to me...be it the sweet things you did for me or even the most ugliest quarell we had...and these memories are the events that gave me the strength to be here for you always...and that i will be right here waiting for you till you are back once again...and i cant wait to give you abig,tightest hug...am always thinking of you...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez....
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
boy...arent we all bloated...the apple of my eyes....
9:36 AM
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
holding on to someone you love so much is very important especially when the rough gets going...the tough gets going to...this is the story of my life...having to met this hubby of mine, my whole life changed...the way i eat...the way i sleep...hmm prolly even the way i walk...but the true thing is that the way i love someone even changed...loving someone is not to own that someone...but to give the love that you have towards that someone by showing how you muchie you love him...well in my case, the relationship of mine and the hubby didnt start off well cause both were trying to step up toward our own ego...and it took us quite awhile to know one anothers heart and also to understand...but as time pass by...quarells and arguements are being exchanged and its through all these rocky situation that WE learn from it and began changing for the happiness of US...hubby changed...i changed and that is why we are holding strong...arent we hubby??...and that we are prepared for future challenges...and i have my own strength and my own superhero to look on...and that is none other than you hubby...i was not wrong in believing you cause you have shown me the way to LOVE and you guided me through
haha...i aint sure why i am blabbering all these but i guess i appreciate hubby so muchie that i wanna make known to hubby all the time...but the fact that is clear is that i truly lovie hubby lots...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...
7:00 PM
hehehe...yeays finally i am back from attachie and also from school...which i think is really unnecessary cause i just have to travel all the back to campus to key in the cca/cip updates...lucky thing i did it fast and before i know it i was already on the way back home...
wahh...today at ward...my patience was really being tested by this auntie whom just refuse all the bedpans that was being served to her...in the end, ended up having to push her to the toilet as well...well at least i was able to maintain my cool...hehe, lets just hope that tomorrow will be abetter day since i will be in the afternoon shift...and yar talking about afternoon shift, its been consecutively 3 weeks that i have been alocated the afternoon shift on fridays...the end of the week...haish...
but seriously looking forward to the last week of posting at SGH and then off we go to IMH...and alhamdullilah i am able to complete the 31 skills that i was supposed to complete and now am aiming to complete more...insya'allah...
anyway while on the way to school, i was shocked to have received amessage and acall from the hubby...its as though the hubby knew i was missing him...but the other fact is also that hubby too misses me...by the way i was at first unaware of the message cause since i thought hubby wont be calling me till next, i decided to OFF the handphone of mine...well not to avoid peoples call but to self-divert my thinking...and to keep myself occupied...it was pleasant to the ear..and music to the ears having just to hear hubby's voice...ahhh....
i have missed the hubby alot these past few months...and i have never missed anyone this much before...i guess hmm well not i guess...the feelings i have for the hubby must have been really intense and deep that i could miss him lots...hehe...
well but the main thing is that hubby knows that i misses him and that i lovie him lots and that i am always thinking about hubby...not even asingle day did i go without thinking about hubby...and i hope in knowing this hubby will be able to endure the next few months...just like how i am enduring...hubby, lets find the strength in each other...i believe we will be able to do it...
to the dearest hubby...am waiting for you tii you are back in my arms again and that i miss you so much that even if you ask me to compare who and what i would miss most in my life...is it you or my 'bantal busuk'....hehe, and the answer would obviously be you hubby...thinking of you always....and cepat2 lah balik eh dear...hehe...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez....
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
colours of our lives...
5:31 PM
ahhh...finally am back from the attachie and hmm whats wanie evaluation going to be about this ward 76 that i am posted to for the next two weeks...but actually right these two weeks excluding the CNY holiday...am only going to be there like ONLY aweek...hehe...hmmm, well the ward is ouhkay not too bad unlike ward 73...but since its the CNY time, theres was not many patient to an extend that 3 cubicles of 6 beds were left empty cause the patients have all gone home for the festive season...wah if only everyday was like this at the hospital...i guess they wouldnt need anymore nurse...hehe...guess what i found out from my working colleague today...that the increment in the healthcare sector which i thought was 5% increase was actually going to be 7% increase...hey isnt that great...i mean although its asmall sum, at least there is an increment and at the very least we nurses are being recognized and appreciated...so i hereby would like to thank the government body...hehe...guess i must be crazy huh...haish...have been feeling kinda bored having to stay at home even on the weekends...cause usually i would be out with the hubby watching the movies or just walking aroung window-shopping when hubby was still in singapore...but now the harsh and reality is that he is nowhere around me cause hubby is still in brunei...hubby still has a long way to go before coming back here for GOOD...well prolly this is the test for US...lets just take it on the positive side...absence makes the heart grow fonder...besides prolly being away will make us quarell less often...hmm...but didnt we just had aquarell like 2 days ago..kan dear...hehe...and i am truly sorry for that quarell cause it was SUPER unnecessary...but still kan dear i wouldnt count that lah eh...cause both was reacting toward the situation..hehe well i also dont wanna talk about it anymorelah....to the dearest hubby...i just wanna you to know that whatever you have done for me has never gone down the drain cause i truly appreciate for whatever you have done for me...and cause of that fact alone i am loving you lots...and i will still continue loving you...and that i am right here always thinking and missing you and not forgetting will be right here waiting for you with open arms...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggss..muackiez....
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
you are the music of my heart...
12:19 PM
actually nothing muchie to bloggie in today...but the chinese new year holidays been kinda stagnant cause stayed home for the past 2days which includes today as well...woke up this morning to a rude awakening...my whole dressing table was filled with water...and guess from where did the water came...haha, it came from the 2 precious tank...and im guessing that the filter is leaking...and since the dressing table is made of layers of wood, the top layer has kinda came off...wonder how i am going to answer to the parents...well anyway will be getting anew filter soon...took me 2 hours to try and salvage the filter but sadly it cant be saved...anyway am feeling very exhausted today cause didnt get agood night sleep yesterday night...cause i have lots of thinking to ponder on...well that was what the hubby said lah...and yar it kinda work for me...ad now my thinking have straighten out and i shall know what i should be doing not just for now but in the future as well...the only thing that i need to do now is that i have got to be strong for all the challenges that gonna come...be it 10times the impact, i have to be strong...and the strength i need and i see can only be found in hubby...its through hubby that i get my strength thus therefore i have to be confidence in him that both of us will pull through no matter under what unforeseen circumstances...hubby, after thinking through semalam...yar yesterday incident was just the beginning...and that now i am prepared to face these challanges of OURS...and for that hubby i need you...and i know that you will always be there for me whenever just my guard is going down and i am assured of that...to the hubby...just know that i may sometimes seems that i cant face the challenges or that i face it with negativity but its through you that i learn from and that when in future it happen again i will know what to do kay...you dont worry about me cause you do know that i have changed and you said it yourself...so have the faith in me like how i am going to promise and tell you now that i have the faith in you...like you say...as long as both of us love each...even if people were to throw stones at us or hurl abuse at us...we are going to make it safely together...insya'allah...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez....::Two Hearts One True Love::.
6:19 PM
The Hunney and The Bee
dear..will always lovie you lots no matter what happen..never amoment that i stopped loving you...happy anniversary hubby....
5:43 PM
have you ever felt the hatred and grudge around you or in you before...well i myself have felt hatred and grudge towards someone but that was so OVER cause i learned to move on..but now having to see how people having the hatred and grudge towards others can be very scary and to acertain extend hurting...
sometimes why cant people just learn to let it go....i have been there before so i know how it is...learning to let go can be very cleansing to the mind, body and soul...even if you are not willing to let go, take it as alife challenge rather than VENGEANCE...what can u reap from having your revenge...all u might get is RETRIBUTION...probably this is the hubby and my retribution for his misdeeds but we'll learn from it...and why having agrudge can actually make some people go to the extend of wanting to make the other party life difficult...in simple they dont wanna the other party to lead a peaceful life all because of their hatred and vengeance...
i seriously pity these people with vengeance...i mean i know how it feel to get hurt cause i myself have been there especially when the situation i am talking about has got to do with relationship...
recently,i received an unknown taggie in my taggiebox regarding the hubby and i was shocked to have to read the taggie and at the same time hurt ans insulted...the taggie reallie could have make or break my relationship with the hubby..and thank GOD for it that we'll go through it together..but the true fact is that i already know about hubby's BLACK past and that i have accepted him...but the reason i got hurt was because the person taggie in amanner that was as though was laughing at me...and if it was awomen who taggie, ask yourself...shouldnt you be telling me straight cause we are akind...we are WOMAN who got hurt and we shouldnt be letting others get hurt to but NO instead of helping, you are MOCKING..which human in the right mind would do that...psychologically that is....
but whatever it is, i accept what the taggie was as a challange to my relationship... but to whoever it is, the art of FORGIVING IS AVIRTUE not only patience ouhkays!!...and all i can say is i understand how it is to be HURT....well, the hubby and me have also talked about the taggie and we have expressed our feeling upon reading about it and that we are accepting the harsh truth...and furthermore the true fact is that both of us love each other lots...both of us have one another and that both of us have changed for the better of the relationship....whatever the BLACK past that the hubby has, i, nurul zawani zainal abidin have accepted it and that the most important thing is that i have given him achance to change...anew wings to fly...anew leaf to turn over...so here i am telling that whoever the person is that i am ready for hubby's past to come back haunting us especially and eventhough no matter hurting it can be ...both the hubby and me will weather through the storm together...to the hubby...after this incidence i am sure that you are feeling down and that it has instill fear in both of us but i just wanna let you know that i seek the strength in you like how you seek the strenght in me...whatever may happen i am always here for you...and no matter what may happen i will always love you for who and what you are..that is my PROMISE to you dear...like you say...buruk, baik i u terima..then here i am telling you also...all your weakness and your goodness of strength i accept...so dont worry i still am loving you lots...will always be missing you lots...will be thinking and waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once again to continue the little story of the hunney and the bee...cant wait to hugie you once again...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggs...muackiez....::Two Hearts One True Love::.
6:10 PM
A Valentine's cum Anniversary day Surprise
thats me and the hubby in the pic..minnie & mickey
I LURVE ISKHAIRY HARON TOO
thats me trying to cut the cake up at the granny's place...
this was a surprise that shocked me upon having to received it eventhough i kinda know what was going on..i didnt expect the hubby to go to the extend of ordering an ICE-CREAM CAKE from SWENSEN'S just to surprise me for the V'day....this have happen to the help of my all time favourite tikusi...UH'EEN...
anyway i am touched by what the hubby had done for me...how silly of me to think that i wouldnt be celebrating V'day but it though this gift came belated to me...hubby it was a sweet surprise...whats more its my favourite flavour of ice-cream...it was CHOCOLATE FRECKLES MINT..hmm...i LOIKE...hehe....
but the sad thing is that hubby wasnt here to celebrate and have the taste of the cake with me and the family..hubby when you are back we will do all that we had wanted to do kays..i am lucky to have you by my side and that never will i forsake our love for anything..never will i...
to the hubby..just want you to know that i lovie lovie you lots no matter what may happen....and that you too is the man that i love..iskhairy haron...just cant wait for you to be back in Singapore once again...huggs..muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
10:56 PM
have u ever had the mood swings that is actually affecting the way how u react towards your emotions and your loved...it can be to the extent that some hurtful words could have been exchanged or being said..well it kinda happen to me for 2 days consecutively..i had alittle tiff with the hubby and i was feeling guilty of what he was feeling afterwards...
hubby here i am wanna say that i am seriously sorry that hujung kaki ke hujung rambut if these 2 days i said some hurtful words to you but you should jolly well know kan that i love you lots and that whatever you have done for me i am happy with it cause your the BESTEST HUBBY AND AWESOME HUBBY around...i am pretty sure i wont be able to find someone similar to you...and that whatever you have done for me tak pernah i fikir bukan-bukan kays...kalau dulu tu u bole lah cakap i fikir bukan-bukan...but now no tau hubby...and its all because of YOU...you brought the change in me..probably what had happen was the result of the torment that is eating me up..hehe but fret not kay dear..IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN..insya'allah..
well peeps aint mentioning anything about the last day at ward 73 today cause it was irritating ever..probably it was because of the menses cramp and at the same time the patient was equally fussy..haiz..usually this doesnt happen..no matter how tired i would be in a ward or how fussy and difficult the patient can be, i would still put asmile on my face...just to ensure that my patients will have their satisfaction at the end of the day..but cause today i had to ENDURE with the pain that i was suffering...i could get easily irritated..hehe...
looks like i seriously have to do what the hubby said...BETTER KEEP MY PMS IN RESTRAIN..hehe
to the dearest hubby..just wanna say that i am seriously sorry for whatever i have said..never once did i really mean whatever the hurtful things i have said...and probably at the same time i should blame the PMS also kays..hehe i know very contradicting...but the most important thing that i want you to know is that i wuold never do anything to hurt you especially not when you have said this in your friendster profile...LOvEd yOuR WomAn, NuRuL ZaWaNi...hehe...aww that totally brought laughter, smiles and chuckles to my heart and not forgetting that i am touched...but like you say, you dont need to say these word to me for me to know that you love me because the actual fact is that you do love me alot...and i also love you lots....am thinking and missing you every moment..24/7 365days...hehe...am waiting for you till your are finally back in my hands...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggss..muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
the CHARMED of my life..
9:32 AM
A World On My Own
haish...how lonely i have been feeling lately...with nowhere to go except to and fro to work and then back home and the whole routine will resume again the next day...if only the hubby was here with me...just been feeling so empty in me without the hubby...so empty...not only the hubby is not around me but i am feeling there is no presence of the loved ones around me except for my family who knows that i have been missing someone close to me only that they just keep quiet cause they know they can do anything...haiz, what am i to do...how can i make this feeling of emptiness go away...maybe all i need is amiracle to happen...missing someone you love so much can be painful but hubby no worries i am still staying strong here...just needed to let it all out before i go crazy...heheto the dearest hubby...i know i keep blogging in this everyday but i guess this is the only way i can express myself...love you lots..huggss...muackiez......::Two Hearts One True Love::.
4:52 PM
haish..happy valentine's day to all especially the hubby if you are reading this...
anyway once again i am celebrating the lovers day all by myself...probably this is what fate has install for me eventhough i am already being tormented having to be away from the hubby like 1138km...
on the way back from works makes me even more sad having to see all the other couples who are making their way to their each and another valentines surprise that will be waiting for their loved ones...well as for me i guess i shall just turn in and seek solace on my bed to prevent myself from being thrown into the world of feeling loneliness despite having to miss the hubby alots and i mean like big time...hmm..sometimes i wonder when will the time pass by faster so that hubby would already be back in singapore..but unluckily for me that is still along way to go before i can actually see that happening...
i wonder how it would be this valentine if hubby were to be around...but one thing for sure i know that i wont feel lonely...but hey snapping out from this negativity, looking onto the positive and brighter side of my life...i guess i am bersyukur that god have actually made us meet and fall in love....alhamdulillah i am treasuring every moment that i have with the hubby...and its for him also that i am staying strong and tough....cause i know hubby wouldnt want me to be feeling this way...hehe...
hubby..in event of 'V' day, i would like to once again wish you happy lovers day..and that having to have you in my life is amiracle and also a blessing bestowed to me..although i cant be there and you cant be here to make known of valentines day, i am sure we will be as happy as can be and grateful for this wonderful realationship of ours..cause though we are still new in these, we have made tremendous change and put the effort into understanding each other better in order to make US happen....but the main thing i wanna you to know is that i am right here waiting for you till you are back in my arms once again....
talking about valentines day and how lonely i am feeling right now without the hubby, at least while being at work people including staff and house attendant was wishing one another on these lovers day...though it was kinda funny to wish strangers, i cant deny that it actually brighten up my day although i was feeling all tired...hmm i am actually wondering why working at ward73 is making me have fatigue like i have never had before...well all i can say is that i have to start getting used to it to prepare myself in the near future....
well lets hope that in the future i will also accept this fatigue or else...looks like i can just tell myself that i am not fit to be a nurse...
guess that should be about it..have gotta wash the uniform cause working in this ward too have made my uniform tremendously dirty and i mean real dirty...
to the dearest hubby..i am actually missing you big time...even at work i am missing and thinking of you even when i am talking with the patients...hehe..well having to be able to think and miss you only proves one thing...that i truly love you lots..hehe..niwae been 3days since i last talked to you and am also missing your voice..in fact missing you too...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggs...muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
am in love with you always...
5:21 PM
haish...had asuper tiring day today since i was man-handling 2 cubicles all by myself...been some time since i brought alot and i mean alot of patients for showering within a speculated timing...hehe but it was kinda fun though except for the fact that my legs is now all aching from all the walking about to and fro...alamak...just started bloggie but i have gotta go..need to go and do the daily jogging..hehe..when i am back i will continue from where i have stopped....UNLESS i am just too tired or lazy to do so...hehe...hey there..i am finally back to continue my bloggie in my entry..hehewell actually the jogging turned out to be grocery shopping at Sheng Siong and at that also manage to like sweat out alittle cause we walked to and fro from the house and on the way back the bro had to carry the new fan that thw parents had just bought...well anyway today is the second day at ward73 and its was much more tiring than yesterday like i have mentioned earlier on but today made a discovery regarding one of the patients diagnosis...i had initially not know what was it...during the passing of report, the staff only mention HP4..which i dont even know what it means but malu bertanya sesat jalan..so i asked the staff and to my surprise when i found out what it meant i was like...this is my FIRST time nursing these kinda case...the HP4 only meant universal precaution and alert...well too bad peeps and hubby i cant reveal what is the diagnosis cause of patient confidentiality..the main aim and goal on me nursing this patient is not to have fear like other people would...today mdm angel met up with me to discuss where i have gone wrong for the nursing care plan assignment...and thank god..alhamdulillah that i kinda did well for the assigment...phew nasib baik tak payah re-do...she also mentioned that is amiracle that i was able to complete quite anumber of skills within the past month..well all i can say is alhamdulillah...i guess i work well under lots of pressure...haish..didnt hear from the hubby like 2days already except for me chatting with the hubby yesterday till like 2215hrs and by the time i log off and finish ironing my uniform i was already exhausted and tired but wanna know something...talking to the hubby is NEVER tiring but its a pleasure and music to the ears...especially my ears..wahahah>>these is the laughter that the hubby likes to used...anyway just gotten back from the aunts place to ask her of the favour of sending hubby's stuffs over to Brunei...and lucky for me not only she agreed to do it, she also agreed to be responsible for the pricing of the mailing stuffs...hehe..thanchew lots BIBIK!!!.....urhm, probably she wants to also send it to her future nephew-in-law eh dear...hehe...hahas...the bro is ordering PIZZA again after yesterday...hmm looks like i have to continue with the dieting since i had like 2 piece yesterday..guess i shall forgo todays pizza....i guess that should be about it..wanna wait for CSI:Miami before turning in for the day as i have been feeling aching all over the body...to the dearest hubby..i am seriously missing you big time here...been trying to occupy my time to make it pass but still you are always on my mind..no doubt about that...thinkinga about you make me realise that i am actually unable to live without you dear...haish...ngah waiting for you right here..lovie lovie you lots lots..huggss...muackiez....::Two Hearts One True Love::.
just wanna be with you...
6:27 PM
haha..its been 2 days since i last bloggie in on 9feb07...anyway been kinda busylah the past 2days...with the kenduri arwah on the saturday which ended so late..and the shopping with the family yesterday..
anyway on saturday for the kenduri arwah, i decided to contribute chocolate eclair which i was doing for the first time ever...hehe well its didnt turn out that perfect but still it was edible and the relatives was like asking who brought the eclair..well my mum had wanted to take the whole credit to herself but noway was i gonna let her do dat...i gad to make known that it was me lah..hehe but it was actually the same lah cause i had to get the recipe from my mum..and she did help me also during the process...
yesterday was the splurging day...the family decided to head down to Bugis despite the bro saying that its gonna be crowded cause of the new year coming..but because my mum and me wanted to really get the outfit that i had long wanted to buy and been searching high and low for it...crowded or not..there we will be...yeays..finally i got the mini dress that i wanted and i bought 2 pieces at that...the mum bought 1 piece and 2 skirts..well too badlah the shop we went to was SUPER generous..gave discount like noone business..hehe i will head down there again cause there will be new design coming up...well anyway the lil sis bought herself an ORIGINAL ADIDAS bag which cost 80bucks while the dad bought an NIKE classic shoes...hmm, not that we were splurging yesterday but since the dad got some extra salary cause of chinese new year from his company..why not buy things too...its not as though my family shop every week....hehe oh yar i also bought myself another pair of CROCS...silver in colour...hehe well i guess i should stop asking the dad to buy anymore stuffs for me..
but there is still ONE thing that i have yet to get for myself since like i dont kow when...been wanting to get myself apair of LEVI's jeans which i have not yet gotten it...hmm, maybe i should ask my dad to get that one last thing for me when the BUCKS come out next month since i wont be receiving the bucks for the driving license which the parents have initially planned to...but its ouhkay it wont be aproblem cause the hubby gonna take the driving license over in Brunei so in the future he can just drive me to the destination...betul tak hubby,kan kan??
mentioning about the hubby..am missing him lots actually..wonder when the time he will be finally be back for good...i feel as though its still farway..one of his fren ihsan is already back in the arms of his family but i wonder when it will be the same for the hubby..haish...
anyways today was the first day in ward73...and i aint quite like it cause its kinda stagnant with nothing muchie to do..i guess i am not cut out for medical setting..looks like ward55 which is surgical settings suits me better...hehe
well peeps i guess that should be all cause have gotta dry the uniform in the laundry and change the water in the fish tank which has been 2 days delayed..so sorry my precious lil fishes...
to the hubby..just want you to know that i am right here waiting for you in PREPAREDNESS for the future in us...and that i am thinking and missing you always wherever i maybe and although we are 1138km apart...our hearts beat as one...i lovie lovie you lots lots...huggs...muackiez..
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
always right here waiting for you....
9:29 AM
arrgghh...i am like REALLY irritated and pissed with the service of the CF...they have been delaying that thingy about the membership for like about 4 months already and still have yet to get back to me...now when i called in to them just like today (o9.02.07 @ 0930hrs), they told me that they are aware of the situation and said that i ahve to understand on my part that they have yet to receive any information from AZ side cause she have been on sick leave for afew days or weeks or something like thatlah...and the way the recep told me to understand on my side was like asmack on my face cause it was like saying that i didnt understand thier trouble and i was more like a DIFFICULT customer...i mean like come lah..this thing have been delayed since NOV2006...and was it our fault..hmm well i dont think so cause we beforehand had given the BLACK and WHITE document to their side...all i can say is blame it on their communication lah~........ *hiakdush*p.s: i am not trying to put the whole blame on them but still we have the customers RIGHT!!
8:47 AM
hmm...yesterday went back to campus again for SIMs training..and yesterdays lesson was SUPER dry and boring unlike last weeks SIMs training..but luckily there were afew funny people that liven up the class such as nick..hehe this guy super funny lah... anyway today will be the last day at ward 55 and i will be in the afternoon shift and haiya just wondering the irritating sister wont allow us to change shift on the account that we have helped them for the past 1 month or on the account that it is our last day...hmph...irritating... well since i have always been taught by the hubby to always stay positive, then i shall take tomorrow last day on an AFTERNOON shift POSITIVELY...lets just hope that there will be lots to do so that time will past by faster...and before i know it it will be 2100hrs... right now just came back from the jogging and is drying the perspiration up while bloggie in my entry... yesterday just as soon as i reached home, i logged onto the net and alhamdulillah the hubby was online..hehe then i didnt know his fren was using his computer then i acted to be angry saying why hubby didnt PM me in MSN when i signed in..hehe hubby was shocked to see my reaction and quickly tried to counter my 'ANGER' reaction by trying to pacify me...hehe but seriously now and i mean now that we are in almost into the 10th months together, i am glad to say that hubby's detecting my anger or merajukness is very skillful cause hubby is able to detect it more better now...and will be able to pacify me in time before i get angry..hehe..sayang hubby banyak2... damn..then before i know it, am talking to the hubby on the phone...while i was still blogging.... to the dearest hubby...i will love you always and that i will forever be waiting for you...and that you are always in my mind 24/7 365...no matter what may happen you will always be on mind...right here waiting for you in pain....lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez.... .::Two Hearts One True Love::.
the story of the army and the nurse...4:41 AM
imagine having to miss someone so much that you could eventually think that other people is the person you miss...just from its body size and the perfume..
well it happen to me this morning on the way to work when i smelt the odour that the hubby uses..the ADIDAS...and the guy whom i saw was also exactly the size of hubby but he is not actually the hubby..i was lost in the space for amoment back then..hehe..but no wories kay hubby...i will know and recognize you even if you are old and dah kerepot..
well anyway there is this issue that was mingling through my mind the whole night yesterday after watching GOL & GINCU...you peeps reading this bloggie answer ths question to yourself..especially if you are attached...
what would you do and how you would react to the situation if your significant other has contracted HIV...in this event your significant other truthfully told you the truth cause he/she respects the whole relationship..would you leave him/her for fearing of the future or would you still stay and stick together with him/her to go through thick and thin together...even to an extent that people around disagree of you doing it for fear of contracting the disease from your significant others...
well in that show, the girl ANA decided to leave REZA the one whom contracted HIV...it was for fear of the future...cause she want to have afamily with alot of children which she knows that REZA cant give...the most touching part of the story was to see REZA crying so hardly...and i can feel the pain he was going through..in my mind i was like, ANA should have stay with him to give him moral support...
but now come to think of it if it were to happen to me..i would be more confused then her i guess..i wouldnt know what to do at all..all i can say is i will be lost...
hahas...i also donno why i brought the topic up...probably it just strike me in the head...
anyway today at work wasnt so bad afterall..the same usual thing when i am in the morning shift..sponging...giving gargles...chatting with the patients...giving breakfast and many2 more to mention...but it seems to me that i am liking the whole of ward 55...be it A side or B side...especially all the staffs from 55 whom have been a great guidance to me in answering all my queries and doubts regarding anything...its them whom i wish to be after i graduate..to carry on being a kind nurse who is approcable by anyone...
hehe..actually kinda nothing to bloggie in regarding work cause the things at work are very routine to me..its just the same...i wouldnt wanna make my avivid reader who reads my bloggie bored reading this blog of mine...
well looks like its gonna be all...ciaos...tudalus....but before that...hehe...
to the hubby...i am and will be proud in the future to be called your wife and for that you have the answer to it..but i just wanna let you know also that i am proud to have a hubby like you..and that i will be right here waiting for you till you are back in my arms once again....missing and thinking of you lots...lovie lovie you lots lots too..huggss...muackiez....
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
the cutie one..sayang sama anda selalu.....
4:41 AM
Dedicated to my one and only huBBy
hahas..actually nothing muchie to say cause i have already bloggie along one today...just felt like bloggie in again cause this the only thing that occupy me..the INTERNET..this is where i will update mine and the hubby's hotmail and friendster..but actually all these are still not enough to make the missingness goes off...probably i shall just bloggie in how i am feeling right now...heheanyway eversince the hubby went to brunei starting last october 2006...i feel that my life have just lost something well not exactly somethinglah but i felt that i have lost abig part of me...it just felt so empty..truthfully i have been empty in the past before hubby came to the pictures of my life but this emptyness that i am experiencing now is way deeper than how i used to feel in the past...it is through this being away phase that i realise that i seriously love the hubby lots..i mean no amount of i love you can actually explain how muchie i lovie you hubby...no amount of words...all i know now is that i need you in my life to guide me as a real hubby in the near future..like how you always say that you see the future in US...i too see the future in us..you might think that sometimes i appear as though i dont take the future seriously but in my heart i so much want it to happen insya'allah...each time you as me wheather you are prepared for the future with me and how i would say NO but the truth is yeshie you are prepared and i too wanna let you be aware that i am prepared...but for now we still have many storms to be weathered and i am quite sure that both of us will be matured enough to solve it...especially with you to show me the way and the guidance...haiz..hubby dear..you just dont know how muchie i love you...if i hadnt love you this muchie i wouldnt be faithfully waiting for you here...and if there was a chance for me to be there with you hubby..o would drop all the things that i am doing in singapore to go over to your side in brunei but ni semua angan2 yang takkan tercapai..hehe..right now bloggie in and missing you but luckily theres still the memories of the fishes that was left for me by you..just wanna let you know that i lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss..muackiez....::Two Hearts One True Love::.
4:41 AM
ahhh...the satisfaction of having to sit on the chair is so overwhelming especially when i have standing for the past 8 hours...anyways the schdule for the next 3 weeks at SGH have already been posted out and i so like the timing and the peeps that i will be working with..hehe..
niwae nothing muchie happen today at work cause its just the beginning of the week and alot of patients have been discharge but fret not cause by the time i work tomorrow, it will be full house for T1...and i will then have things to do such as hourly monitoring and orienteering to do also...today i felt very pitiful for one of my patients who under trachea tube and also today i saw how his flushing of the wound and the changing of the packing was done..eventhough he was under LA(local anaesthia) i could still see him gripping his fist and his face grinning with pain...if only there was something i could do to alleviate his pain and to make him better but it was not within my control..haiz..probably these are some of the events that i have to witness as a nurse even if i didnt want to...
hehe..well dear like i say you have to earn it if you wanna know what happen on that faithful day..and iyer ke you have been a GOOD boy...well i'll pray that u have been aites??...
to the dearest hubby...i wonder when you will be back again cause i cant wait to give you ahug..and i too cant wait to be hugged cause only you know how it feels like when i am being hugged by you...niwae am seriously missing and thinking about you lots..will be right here waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once agian..been diarying in the diary everyday just to keep my missing you in checked..haish...haiz...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggs...muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
you are so near but so far..
8:22 PM
haish...cant wait to continue with the colours of our lifethe blooming of the relationship..hurry back kays hubby!!
8:22 PM
urhmm...today waking up to the rantling of the mother...she was SUPER noisy and i just had to wake up cause the noise pollution have disrupt my sleep..and at that moment is was only 0645 in the morning...hmm so guess what i decided to dress up in my training attire and head off to the park to jog ALONE....hmm by the time i finished jogging it was already 0745..hmm not bad i took an hour to did some exercise to the body...by the time i finished and reached home, my mum told that the auntie have asked if we would like to follow her to JB..so knowing that i have absolutely nothing to do at home decided to taggie along...but before heading off to woodlands checkpoint, i had to stop over at the hubby's house to take some foodie prepared by his mum...to my shock having to reached teck whye by car, my mum...auntie and including the granny wanted to accompany me up to hubby's house...and can you guess for what purpose??...haha shockingly with the intention of knowing hubby's mum..hehe was kinda shocked to see my family reaction...hubby i think you are sure to laugh your heads off if you are reading this...and comments from the family members shall only be known to me and no one else...heehee hubby even if you wanna know about it...you have got to earn it...hmm...anyway nothing muchie to bloggie today as i am feeling exhausted...besides there really is nothing to bloggie in except that i misses the hubby alot...hmm...havent heard from the hubby after yesterday except a message from the hubby informing me that hubby's already back from 'bandar'...erm hubby you also said that you have been a good boy and tak buat benda i tak suka...i WONDER how true it is...tak pernah2 pun you cakap macam gitu...must be that you have done something mischevious and naughty so thats why you are feeling guilty about it...SO you better tell me what exactly have you done or ELSE....haiya...the weekend is already ending and another week of attachie..not that i am dreading having to go to work but just cant wait to be out of ward 55A cause there is nothing muchie to do...even if i try to find something to do also..there wont be anything...and lucky thing this week is the last week...nevermind zawani just endure it for alil more days...this week will be doing 4 morning and an afternoon..yeays...i so love morning shift...heheto the dearest hubby...my one and only...the king of my heart..the apple of my eyes...the nut to this squirrel..the bee to the hunney...am seriously thinking and missing you right now..how i wish i was there with you or you with me but that is all just unfullfilled wishes of mine...you dont know how muchie you mean to me...you are as though the light of my life..without you this lil squirrel will never glow lest you are back...but with the strength that have been imposed onto me by our deep love...i am and will be right here waiting for you no matter what happens....i need you in my life like how a flower yearns for water and sun..like the moon and the stars...lovie lovie you lots lots..huggs..muackiez...::Two Hearts One True Love::.
10:24 PM
hmm..sooner or later i will look like walking zombie...am feeling so bored at home with nothing much to do at home...wanna go out but cant seem to find any peeps thats free...
been bugging the mum to go out with me but she is just plain lazy...
haiya..nothing nice to watch on the TV set...looks like i shall just rot infront of the comp but dang i am unable to do that because the lil sis is using the comp...nie pun i just told her that i need to bloggie in for awhile... haha..yesterdays SIMs training aint so bad after all..got to meetie up with quite anumber of 'E' class students..like sufian..kak nadia..uncle zul..michelle..gaya lawrence and many morelah but not forgetting the all time favourite uh'een..whom i will missed alot when we graduate...but sadly yaty wasnt there yesterday...we would have a hell of good laughter and giggles...after SIMs we decided to 'jenguk' and take a peep at OAC training and guess what saw magik, hanaf, khai,fir,man,wando and including the new peeps...but sadly the new intake of OACians wasnt that overwhelming..nampak nye tutup lah tak lamer lagiks..haiz...kesian..but yg tetap best magik aderlah..hehe..gonna miss OAC too mayn....
anyways yesterday finally hubby called unexpectedly and it sure was relieving and it felt great having to hear his voice..it was like music to the ears..ahh..hehe...anyway after near to aweek never talk, we wasted 2 B-tone card...but as both of us was missing each other i shall just close one eyes...its really tough having to be like this but hubby no worries aites i will be ouhkays and before we know it...you will already be back in Singapore..
oh yar..fret not kays..my mind is all set to continue my studies in diploma..you just pray that i am given a placing in poly tau...and you didnt brainwashed me lah..i just wanna tease you only..or maybe you didnt brainwashed me hubby but you used propaganda instead..hehe...anyway its gonna be another week before hearing hubby's voice again cause today hubby's going to 'bandar' for OFF and will be back only tomorrow but i am sure i will endure THE torment...
the clocks ticking by seconds and its already gonna be the 4th week of attachie and i have got 3 more week at SGH before going to the last posting at old time IMH...arrgghh really dread having to go there cause i am gonna trouble my dad to send me to work early in the morning...haiya thanks dad..love you lots..what to do...you work just beside IMH..hehe..but as the clock ticks, the months of hubby's homecoming for good is still exactly 8 months away..i sure pray and hope that it will move faster..insya'allah...and that hubby's understudy will be there sooner than expected so hubby can make it on time home for raya and most importantly my 21st birthday..hehe...
to the dearest hubby..you will always be in heart...its you and your love that i crave and cant live without...its you that i am waiting and thinking not only in the day but also at night..be it awake or asleep...i need you in my little life...missing you lots everyday...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss..muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
thinking of you always hubby..where art thou are you...so near yet so far...
5:31 AM
finally i am able to bloggie in..how irritating can blog be..wanting and needing me to switch to the new blogger..haiya anyway that is all done and here i am..hehe..niwae yesterday shift was the first morning and it was super fun yet stagnant...having to do only hourly para and hourly urine plus NG feeding...and not forgetting our friend SPONGING..hehewell today going back campus for SIMs training and will be meeting up with uh'een later cause shes on SIMs training too..yeays at least i wont be alone going to and fro to campus...ader jugak teman makan nanti during break...hehe...because time is running short on me all because the blogger, i shall bloggie in again later tonight...that is if i am not too tired or LAZY...like i did yesterday...kays gotta head off to the toilet and get ready to head out to jurong east station...and we better not be late cause MDM PHYLLIS TAN will be there at SIMs today..haish...the thought of her being there brings goosepimples on me and butterflies in the tummy....the fear of her will be stuck in me till i donno when...to the dearest hubby...am missing you big time...and its been aweek lor since i last talked to you....sob3...and that i am thinking and waiting here for you just like how the bee waits for the hunney..hehe..anyway lovie you lots lots..huggs...muackiez...p.s:off to meetie the lil tikusi.......
haish...how lonely i have been feeling lately...with nowhere to go except to and fro to work and then back home and the whole routine will resume again the next day...if only the hubby was here with me...just been feeling so empty in me without the hubby...so empty...not only the hubby is not around me but i am feeling there is no presence of the loved ones around me except for my family who knows that i have been missing someone close to me only that they just keep quiet cause they know they can do anything...haiz, what am i to do...how can i make this feeling of emptiness go away...maybe all i need is amiracle to happen...
hahas..actually nothing muchie to say cause i have already bloggie along one today...just felt like bloggie in again cause this the only thing that occupy me..the INTERNET..this is where i will update mine and the hubby's hotmail and friendster..but actually all these are still not enough to make the missingness goes off...
haish...cant wait to continue with the colours of our life