yaays...yaays...finally went out with dear on a saturday..heehee i am all excited and its all because it has been along time since i went out on a saturday as dear has been busy with work..

well anyway today started the day early at 0900 by celebrating Nurse's Day at school..hmph this year celebration was not that good compared to last year...after all ended, went to changed and gotten ready to meet the boyfie..but guess what despite having to finish my celebration slightly later then expected, dearie still finished his activity an hour later..

upon having to meet, we went to his house and i waited while he changed..so chatted with his mother..hehe sometimes i find talking to his mother very enjoyable and interesting..

so after leaving his house, we decided to make our way to Causeway Point to catch Nachos Libre..and boy was the movie funny..touching..and wat too hilarious..hehe..hmm earlier on before the movie..we had eaten at Banquet..so after the movie ended, we went to window-shopped and then went to do something that i had wanted to do along time..hehe

*yawning*..guess all that must have tire me out today so gonna end my entry now..hehe..takie cares..gd nite..ciao.. :)

dearest dear..
today has been amomentful day..
every second..and
every minutes too..
but it still is the same..
all i want to say is..
i love you lots...


*giggles*..guess what..finally the mother is not angry anymore..phew was i lucky..

anyway today didnt do anything much except for sitting and slacking at home watching TV and replaying past VCD..

cant wait for saturday which is tomorrow as will be meeting the Tom & Jerries at school for the Nurse's day celebration and then off to the cineplex with the boyfie..well i hope tomorrows celebration will be much more better than last year..hehe

well peeps guess should be about it my entry for today but before i sign out, i will have to do a survey or something like that as i have been TAGGED by missy Dee-bum..hehe..here goes the 6 weird things that i do.....

1) i love putting on dozens of pins and brooch on my tudung...max i have used was 8..
2) i cannot sleep with the lights on..damn will i be pissed to have the lights on
3) i must wake up every 1 hour at night just to check on the phone..
4) i have to sleep before clock strikes 12..
5) i must at least chat or talk to one of the Tom & Jerries..
6) i must get moody with the boyfie even when he is not in the wrong..
haha..well actually i dono what to writelah but guess this should be weird enough.. ;p

dearest dear..
i love you lots..
just cant get enough of you..hehe


arrgghh...im so pissed and upset with the mother..patut ke mak chek get angry at me for no reason..even if there is areason, still she should not show her damn irritating mood to me sei..hmm now i know exactly how dearie feels each time i starts with the mood..

i am feeling so pissed that i dont think im bloggie in any entry today..sometimes mothers just dont appreciate what their daughters might have done for them...aaarrrgghhh... :x


finally...its been days since i bloggie in my entry and haha yeshie here i am to bloggie in..well as my close friend all knows that my starhub bill has been suspended due to ..hehe overdue bills...so here i am shouting out loud..you guys can get through me at my home number to get my new prepaid number which i have purchased...

seriously man..i keep saying to the parenta..'ya,ya $150 is enough for my allowancelah'..but the TRUTH is...its not enough as i have my bill to settle..if only i didnt have to settle bills and more bill..damn my allowance will be enough...but hey no wories insya'allah without money zawani can survive one..hmmm (i wonder..sure or not zawani??)

well if you peeps wanna know, last week of my holiday was really atrocious as believe it or not...almost the entire of mon till fridae kinda had small arguements wif dearie..but hey everythings fine now..well its just due to me having nothing to do at home and wanting alittle more attention from..hehe how bad can bad can i be..

hmm..well just got off the phone with dearie and he was kinda shocked that im not feeling moody at all...hey come on sei..till when i wanna be moody ..rite??...it seriously dont want to see dearie being all tired out having to pacify me over and over again..so last week did alot of thinking..since dearie is trying his hard to understand me, why not i try to give in and stop being moody so dearie can understand me...

oh yar..last sunday i fnally watched 'Pirates of the Caribbean'..hmm well wasnt that bad at all..quite like it but dearie hated the ending as it was not exactly an ending..hmm must be puzzled with what im trying to say rite..so why not to those people who have not watched it,..and since its the holidays..get the freaking legs to work by going to the nearest cineplex and catch 'Pirates of the Caribbean:Dead man's chest'..then you will get what im trying to potray..its still is worth the money though...

aaannndd...talking about money..how i wished i had 'money-making mchine'...hehe..
well peeps..gotta go..maghrib olady..ciao... :)


dearest dear..
each day without you..
in my arms..
my hands..
and the warmness of your touch..
makes me long for your love...
as passing days and hours goes by..
all i have in mind is that i know..
you love me lots..
and that im sure i love you lots too... <3


Love is not to forget but to forgive
Not to see but to understand,
Not to hear but to listen
Not to let go but HOLD ON!!!!
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.


heres alittle poem for my one and only...
.....Tom & Jerries......


Why GOD Gave Us Friends

GOD knew that everyone needs
Companionship and cheer,
He knew that people need someone
Whose thoughts are always near.

He knew they need someone kind
To lend a helping hand.
Someone to gladly take the time
To care and understand.

GOD knew that we all need someone
To share each happy day,
To be a source of courage
When troubles come our way.

Someone to be true to us,
Whether near or far apart.
Someone whose love we'll always
Hold and treasure in our hearts.

That's Why GOD Gave Us Friends!



wow..how rejuvenated i felt when i woke up this morning..hehe well its all because i didnt need to send the little cuzzie to school...so i was able to stay in bed awhile longer..anyway the boyfie also didnt woke me up with his call this morning..hmm i guess he must be busy since he was starting at SISPEC early today..

wanna let you on alittle secret..guess what after what happen on sunday, hehe again i almost turn out to be moody yesterday but thank GOD my dearie was able to handle the whole situation very well..i think dearie is beginning to understand me for the better..well anyway he was so worried yesterday that i might turn moody again, he even called to pacify me even when he is doing his BO in the toilet....hehe only my nurses will understand what BO mean..rite nurses??...well everything turned out well and we handled it well...bravo zawani n iskhairy..

oh yar..damn was i pissed with my computer yesterday as i wasnt able to bloggie in my entry..it just have to keep hanging and having errors here and dere..wonder when the big BRO gonna repair the irritating computer...haizz..early morning with all the cooking done now i have nothing to do but just sit down like a 'couch potato'...luckily these 1 week i have been at home i am not putting on any 'kilos' eventhough i eat and do nothing..hehe and its all because i watched what i eat..the boyfie wants me to gain till 51 kg but noway am i going till that range..ssshhh juat dont tell him that i will maintain my 48 kg..hehe

well peeps..gotta fly off...bloggie in again soon...

dearest dear..
heres alittle something for you..


You make me feel so happy
Whenever I'm with you.
You make me feel so special-
This love's too good to be true.
I've never met anyone as lovely as you,
You've changed my life so much.
I've never been this happy before,
I'm longing for your touch.
I don't want to wait anymore
My heart is liking love.
Whenever I am with you
I feel so high above.
If I could have it my way
We would never be apart.
And I do have it my way,
'Cuz you're in my heart.
I never want to let you go
I want you there forever.
We two, standing side by side,
We'll make it there together.





hmm..finally got to meet up wif the boyfie but it didnt turn out as well as i expected..damn i was hurt so much tdae but to my dear i know you are disappointed and hurt as well but sometimes dear my moodiness gets the best of me..i do lose to my moodiness at times...

here was what happen..as usual and sometimes whenever i am unhappy about certain things, i tend to show my mood to my dear and despite knowing that my dear doesnt like me doing it, i still did it and i dont know why..well after having to show my mood, instead of dear pacifying me he too insisted that he wanna show his 'mood' by trying not to give in but instead he was thinking that i should be pacifying him..yar well i know it was my fault and that i should pacify him but like 'duhh' i am the lady here why cant he just pacify me now and then..so we walked around Lot 1 and i was not holding his hands and he too didnt hold my hand cos our ego was winning..so eventually after he finished, i told him i wanna go back and guess wad he reallie wanted to sent me back instead of telling me not too..so guess wad..knowing tat i was moody enough, i walked away from the LRT station and headed to the interchange where we talked and talked but nothing was solved..as usual when i feel that he doesnt understand me, i will not fail to test his patience by saying that since he doesnt understand me den we should separate...well i guess today was the day tat i reallie test his patience as he reallie blurt the word saying that we should probably be ' FRIENDS'...and damn was i HURT.. it was like my heart went totallie shattered as he had promised me that separation was not the only solution out in a relationship..

well all i could do was just to walk away...upon walking away i was reallie like crying in PUBLIC and already feeling hurt, i seriously didnt know what to do as my mind was in a flustered but then i suddenly felt dear's touch on my hand but i was too hurt to accept his touch..he was saying he was sorry to have said it and that he didnt mean it but since i was in a fluster, all i could think was just to get away from the last person whom i thought would actually hurt me that way...so eventually he held me by the waist and brought me to a void deck where we talked it out in my crying state with people around..damn i never cry in public and too me it was embarrassing but it was all the worth as bcos of this quarrel i positively think after this quarrel we will understand each other better...haiz..well anyway everything is now settle n we are continuing our love story..

hehe..gotta to go now peoples..takie cares alwaes to all

dearest dear..
though u hurt me today with all those words..
i will still love u always and that lets continue our love story..


oh my god..how bored can i be staying at home for the next coming 2 weeks and to make things worse is that my phone line is temporarily disconnected as i have not paid my bill yet..well not to worry insya'allah i will be able to overcome this...hmm damn i missed my tom and jerries....haizz..yesterday they went to visit Z at TTSH as she is hospitalised for surgery and thanks to my idiotic and unfeeling brother of mine, i was not able to follow them as well...

hmm...today is saturday but i aint going out because the boyfie is in camp doing extra..well i hope tomorrow i will be able to see him...damn i missed his touch, voice and his 'pak mat tempehness'..hehe sowie dearie but i just love calling him that..well anyway uh-een kalau hang happen to read this bloggie,..hehe maner nohh chek nye taggie box...hehe but no huries...hehe

well gotta go cos the idiotic brother wanna use the comp...no wories if my comp doesnt goes boinkie, i will bloggie in each day..

dearie dear..
damn i missed you..
lovie you so much..