2:40 PM
am right now at the granny's sister house...just got off the msn chat with the hubby...though i cant hear hubby's voice as per usual, it still was nice to be able to chat with hubby despite hubby being busy doing his work and duty...hubby, i really appreciate that of you...haish am missing him lots...been quite awhile since i last bloggie in my entry...anyway my holidays have already begun since monday and right now no more attachie and waiting for work only...which i might start in june or july...so peeps soon i will be a qualified full-time enrolled nurse...and yar i will be working at Tan Tock Seng Hospital...am honoured to be able to work at an instituition of the late forefathers...ceh2 now i am talking about history...anyway will be meeting up with D'TJs on thursday to slackz togather while shop around for prom nite outfit...frankly speaking am kinda lazy to attend it but for all the claamates sake am going for it...prolly i might not get a dress but just put on something presentable...cause the function is at school and its like only 4 hours...it will be a waste to spent alot for only 4 hours...the important thing is i will get to meet up with the rest for the second last time before graduation ceremony which falls in May...its just so fast...within ablink of an eye, my friends and i will all be graduating and starting work...sometimes it just frightens me to think i will be solely independant at work without the guidance of my lecturers...but hey im sure all of us will be able to do it...but the only sad thing is i wont be hearing from my buddies much as all will be in their working world...these buddies of mine mean a great deal to me...been through thick and thin ...all sorts of laughter with me right from the start...i think without them i wont be here today...well you gurls cheesy well know who you are and who im refering to...hehehe...hey just dont forget me yar...tat a friend named NURUL ZAWANI ZAINAL ABIDIN aka KAK NGAH aka TIKUSI still exist...am going to miss you lots...huggss....muax...well hubby dont feel that left out since i never mention you YET...hehehehaish, am right now actually thinking about the hubby lots...am missing him eventhough just chatted with the hubby...as the date for the hubby to be back for his home leave draws nearer, the more i am missing hubby...prolly it is just the home-coming syndrome for me and the hubby as well...just can wait for the hubby to be back so we can carry out the activities that we have plan to do...and i mean awhole lot of things going on...shopping is amust and eating is also...heheheto the dearest hubby...am counting down to the day that you are coming back...and that is like next week...exactly 10 more days...yeays, i cant wait for that...but the true fact that am missing you lots will always be there...just cant wait for the whole 1 year of your Brunei trip to be over...and thats where i know that you are finally coming back though after that we will still have challenges up ahead...but for now lets just take it one step at a time....hurry2 back ouhkay...your famous amos will be right here waiting for you...lovie lovie you lots lots...to infinity and beyond...hehe...huggss...muackiez....::Two Hearts One True Love::.
5:42 AM
haish...been missing and thinking of hubby badly and to make it worse i wont be hearing from hubby till hubby is back in singapore...that is i think so lah...and this is all because hubby's money was stolen and he couldnt make the necessary plans...but i am worried about hubby...i mean to think we cant even trust people who are wearing the same green uniform and who is also in another country as my hubby...bak kata pepatahkan...dah dlm satu sampan pun nak tikam sesama sendiri...
because of hubby losing his money...hubby is feeling upset over it...who wouldnt...how i feel i could be there for hubby in time of his need...well hubby, if you are reading this bloggie...if you need money for your expense tell me kays...i will be glad to be of help...and to the person who stole your wallet....what goes around comes around...the person will get the retribution one day...
BUT...
to the dearest hubby...whatever may happen to you...when you are feeling low...always remember that i am always here for you...and that i am waiting for you...haish....am missing you alot...just cant wait for you to be back...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
am always loving you hubby
4:57 PM
haish...am missing hubby badly...
no amount of words can describe how i am feeling right now...
no amount of chocolates can make me stop thinking about hubby...
but one word describe it all...
YEARN
i yearn for hubby to be here right by me...
in times of need...
in time of loniness..
only the strength that i seek is in hubby...
and its in him i get through...
what would i be without hubby...
probably just awondering soul...
no place...
no happiness...
but am grateful that i have you,hubby...
and here i wanna express words that holds meaning...
but no amount of words can compare my love for hubby...
i love you no matter what the challenges up ahead...
i will love you when all desert you...
but most importantly...
i love you for who you are to me and that is being my hubby...
lovie lovie you lots lots...
missing you lots lots..
huggss...
muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
12:42 PM
ahhs...today am feeling very vibrant and jovial as hubby once again called me today despite having to spent $20 on the B-tone yesterday...and spending another $10 today to top-up his B-tone card again...hubby, i seriously appreciate what you have done for me and that sayang bangat sama anda...hehehe...
anyway since the parents aint home, i am the one in-charge of the household...which means i have to clean the house...do the laundry...and also cook...and thankfully all these have already been done as soon as i woke up early this morning...
well now since i have already finished talking to the hubby, am right now blogging in cause am missing and thinking about hubby...there is still like 3 weeks more to hubby coming back for hubby's home leave...which will be 10 days...hmm, i wonder what hubby and me have in store for ourselves...
as for me...in these 3 weeks i have gotta finish baking hubby's chocolate chips cookies...and i will be probably baking about 3 or 4 packs of it...cause the big brother also want some...and i just knew that he is going to ask me to bake it for his girlfriend as well...but hey am proud that i can show my culinary and baking skills to peeps out there...hehe, so hubby harga pun must go up tau...hehe...takdelah i am just joking kays...bluekz...
anyway hubby...there will be more than the ccokies that you are going to get...and you know what it is...and you better make more room for the blueberry muffin and also the assam pedas ikan pari eh...
kaylah i guess that should be all cause i am actually intruding the time that my lil sis is supposed to be playing on the computer...hehehe...
to the dearest hubby...simply cant wait for you to be back and give you avery big huggie and lots cuddles for you...haiz....these 3 weeks for me is like asmall kid being deprived of sweets...anyway am thinking and missing you always...will be right here waiting for you hubby till you are back in my arms once again...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
abeginning moment that will never i forget...lovie you lots hubby...
11:48 AM
how does it feels to look back in your past...having to come to know that your past wasnt really agreat one to be talked about...be it schooling, family or even relationship...
then you start focusing on what you have now...and that you are really thankful and greatful for the past which have taught you many lessons and to move on...
to feel proud of your results having to get a good grades...unlike in the past where all i can see is just red marks and more red marks indicating that failure was there but having to coming near completion of my ITE life...i am proud to be an ITE student cause of this true fact that i am doing so well right now in life...but to prove myself and others around that i can be of a useful person i have still got to work on it...and insya'allah i will...
dengan doa dan ketabahan akan ku harungi semua cobaan...
looking back on those days whereby my relationship always fails and it saddens me alot cause i put all my heart and commitment into it...but right now those sadness is all thrown away into the depth of the ocean cause what more do i seek when what i have right before is not only a gem but to be exact a RARE gem...and he is my beloved iskhairy haron...
having to meet eye to eye for the first time on 6 of april 2006...i just knew that there was something different about hubby but little did i know that we would end up hubby...hehe...anyway it was the first time that i felt touched by what hubby did for me...his concerns was sincerely shown through his actions...though we were shy toward each other but the chemistry was right there from the beginning...and i am grateful for that to god...and alhamdulillah where are now still happily together but there are still many more challenges that we have to go through as one...and right now itself we are still experiencing it...hubby, having to be apart from you is not easy...only ALLAH knows how both of us are feeling...but it is through this being apart that made us change and learn from the small tiff that we used and also have...and right now i am missing the hubby lots...
and its has been near to three days since i last heard from the hubby...not being able to know how hubby is always makes me feel uneasy but deep down in me i know that hubby will always be ouhkays...and i just know that...haish, but it still aint easy when you just misses someone...to the dearest hubby...i am and will always be right here waiting for you no matter how slow the time is going to move...and that the 365 and 24/7 will always be a challenge for me till you are finally back in my arms once again...am always thinking and missing you lots...and that tak dapat dengar suara you make me feel as though aBIG part of me is missing...haish...biler nak balik hubby...well yar i know end of the month but aarrgghhh...anyway lovie lovie you lots lots...huggsss...muackiez....::Two Hearts One True Love::.
where art thou are you hubby...
5:42 AM
hey there peeps...been almost 5 days since i last bloggie in...have been kinda tired lately and due to that, hence the laziness in blogging in...anyway into my 2nd last week of attachie and am right now at IMH whereby there is completely nothing to do...not even serving the urinals or bedpan...so it already considered my 'holidays' have already begun...actually having to travel to and fro to Buangkok (Hougang) can be very tiring...but lucky for me when i am on the morning shift which i will be for the next 2 weeks, my dad will be sending me but its the journey back that tires me out...having to wait for the bus which takes some time to come and the 30 mins to 45 mins bus journey is kinda hectic...but looks like i just have to endure these 2 weeks only...
anyway haven been able to have adecent and enjoyable conversation on the phone with the hubby cause hubby have not purchased his B-tone yet and his EZ-card have just run dry...and this is kinda of sadden me abit though cause when i am feeling all tired out, the best medicine would be to hear hubby's chirpy voice...but its 100% alright cause i understand hubby's situation only that at times or sometimes my body mechanics chooses to feel this way...hehehe...
haiz...but i am actually missing the hubby alot lately...well this usually happens when hubby's home leave is just around the corner...
to the dearest hubby...just want you to know that eventhough i seldom unable to talk to you... my love for you have not decreased abit but instead it remain stronger...and that having to think about you when you are not physically here can be a torment but this i take as a TEST for us in the near future...i am always right here waiting for your return 24/7 till you are finally back in my arms once again...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
am missing you lots hubby... :'(
9:29 AM
morning2 there to all...waking up to the chills and shiver of the morning rain can be very slacking for me...and i hope the rain doesnt continue till the afternoon or else i am going to slack my butt off at work...cause raining days on an afternoon shift really makes me sleepy...and all i wanna do is just sleep but too bad cause i am on attachie...finally today will be the last afternoon that i am doing at SGH and the last two days there too...thank god i will be in the morning shift tomorrow till 1100 only then off to school for the class phototaking...yeays!!
but the irritating thing is that tomorrow we have to sit in for 2 hours of career talk...just when i thought we could be off earlier...well at least i will be in the company of D'TJs except for diyana who is going back to school today...hehehe...
haiz...i think it is high time that i get the computer servicing cause it is making the whole computer and NETWORK going bonkers...files and webpages are starting to be missing...such as i thought the hubby deleted the testi i gave to the hubby in his frenster...mummy, i need a whole new set of computer...but i know what the parents will say about that...DREAM ON...
well i hope todays work at ward wont be that stagnant and that at least i have the companion of the 2 NYP students...and yar i hope that 'soft' staff nurse wont be on duty again today or else he is gonna be a pain to the eyes...arrgghh...lets just hope that the staff that is on today will be the fun ones...hehe boleh gituk pilih orang...
guess that should be all cause didnt want my bloggie to go empty for today as being in the afternoon shift and getting home at 2200hours will kinda make me too tired to go online and bloggie in but i might just log in today if i aint that tired...
but before that.....
to the dearest hubby...it already the beginning of the month and we have exactly 30 more days before we see each other again...and hubby i simply cant wait for the day but for now i shall live life as per normal and i wouldnt wanna hope so much just in case the worse case scenario happens...lets just wait till the end whereby everything is finalized kay hubby...but the true important fact is that i am right here waiting for you till you are finally back in my arms once again...and that i am always thinking about you in my life...lovie lovie you lots lots...huggss...muackiez...
.::Two Hearts One True Love::.
how i yearn for you to be right here by me..my dearest hubby...
