haiz..today was really reluctant to go for my attachie at the hospital as i was not in the mood to do any work..besides i was feeling very tired, sleepy, lethargic, and i was not in the right state of mind because i was just thinking about way too many things..well actually only 1 thing but it seems to me that it is alot of things..haiz...been sighing and will be sighing these few days..if yaty were reading this..just wanna say that i just dont understand why this is happening to me..i know like you say GOD loves me and thats probably he has other plans for me but i just dont understand why..why do people like to give false hopes..why do people have to say sweet nothing but eventually it all turn out to be hurtful in the end...probably this is what i get for really hurting the person who loves me in the past..but hey this is now and its the future but still i got hurt in the end..emotionally and physically..well upon meeting dee to go to work together, i gave dee my handphone all because i didnt want myself to be looking at the phone waiting and waiting for his call..despite dee holding onto my handphone, i still could not get the matter out of my head..i was still thinking about it the whole day which was from 7am till 3pm..i was thinking to myself..its not like i have not been in this kind of situation before..well i have been but this time around i felt more betrayed and more hurt..imagine the same person whom you really trust stabbing you in the back not once but twice..after knocking off from work, i was not in the mood to go back home yet so i had lunch with dee at banquet @ jurongpoint..damn was i hungry because its been since yesterday i didnt eat all because i didnt have the mood to eat and no appetite..well i ate dry fishball noodle while dee at fried char kway tiow..den i felt that i wanted to gorge myself with chocolates..so i went to watson and bought 1 packet of vanhouten raisin chocolates and 2 bars of hershey chocolates..oh man i was feeling guilty abt eating so much but what the hack i was feeling down and stressed..this is what i would do..but hehe i will be back on my diet again in 2 days time..well ...haiz....now at granny writting my bloggie and i just dont know why i still thinking abt the problem..well anyway today im ending off in a different style..i will end with a question and you people..(basically all my friends)..please answer this question for me by tagging at the tagboard on the bottom left column..is it really that easy for people to fall in love and to lose that feelings at ablink of an eye..?????