today as usual again i was not in the mood to go to work as these past few days i have really been feeling down..i will sit down and tend to stare in space till i need my friend to pat me on the back to wake myself up from the fantasy world i am in..today work is still as usual..talk to patient and blah..blah..blah..haiz..just keep wondering why this is happening..wonder how he is..is he well..is he happy with the situation now..well only GOD knows all..now i am at my great grandmother house as she is really really sick..with nothing to do except that i am downloading songs now..here i am using my uncles computer to make my entry in my bloggie account..how i wished that i would sleep and not wake up to the harsh reality but what to do i have and must..today in my ward there were afew cute cisco officers and warden officer who were there..eventhough i could wash my eyes, i just felt that i wanted him back in my life..but ini semua kuasa TUHAN whereby the meeting and ending of a person is in his hands..all i could do is to pray..but the question is have i accepted the fact..well have i..guess should be about it..as usual..heres something for that somebody..'I wish you happiness..i wish you'll find peace..i wish you the best in life..And most of all..i wish you love....