hey dere again from the window of alil squirrel's life...

hahas...just finish sahur well not exactly lah cos i ended up only drinking air kathira that my mom made...*grinning*..damn homemade kathira i way better than those selling at the bazaars..power kedebak...

anyway i just feel cold, hard and empty these few days...with my dear gone and yar have not heard from him for 1 day...macam tak biase pulak si zawani..well i am aware when he is in PLC there are times where i dont hear from him but the fact is now is way different cos i just know that he is not in Singapore...

i just cant hug my 'bantal busuk' to be a substitute for dear what...it aint the same...haish been quiet and keeping alot to myself alot and i guess my family notice it especially my mom..well in school still ok jugak cos i have already told the tikusi beforehand my situation and they fullt understood me...

its just that when im missing dear and the more people probe i tend to get more upset...and tears of sadness will stream down my cheeks...and i am really trying hard to adjust myself and accepting the fact not that i dont but its difficult...hey i guess you peeps reading this will get what i mean..rite???

semalam, dear say will call me at night..not that im mengharapkan but was looking forward..hmm isnt the meaning the same..hehe..well as i was saying, oh yar so i ended up revising abit while waiting for dear's call but till 0000hrs to no avail but yaty yang messaged...hehe...well it is a kind of disappointment but its ouhkay cos i understand his load of work...my dear is a busy man..just like Donald Trump...yar rite as if...hehe

oh man..running late gotta shower now will key in my entry again when i am back from school..ciao...


dearest dear,
loving and missing u...