haish...i wonder how i am feeling deeply in me now..

i feel so lost without you...

haish..anyway nothing much to bloggie in as im not in the mood too do it anyway..

actually yesterday just kinda had an arguement with dear and it was a really heart-reanching arguement..i am sorry and i admit it was my fault for feeling that way but dear totally misinterpreted it wrongly...i am seriously sorry over what had happen and i know it have happen before and i know with me saying i will learn from it will be of no use..but dear seriously i was there for you and if you had think about the 1 month that was fine and me trying to be strong for you then why cant you just put your anger feelings aside despite me having to say that it was all intentional...i even told you that i love to hear u telling me your problems at work eventhough sometimes my answer could be blunt but the point is when you confide in me it makes me feel assured that you need me and its through there that you make feel like your 'wifey'...i am really sorry kalau i hurt you tadi malam but both of us was putting our ego and feelings ahead as the priority instead of the relationship...

but seriously niat i semalam memang nak minta maaf dengan you but it took a turn for the worse instead of me trying to make you feel better, i ended up making you feel pissed...thats why i once say, physically you sound and look fine but emotionally and psychologically i dont know whats burning in you..and dats where i come in to be of your support..i know your out there alone dear...here i wanna tell you that whatever it is i am here and will always be..

haish..i am still waiting for dearie's call but to no avail..

just want you to know...i lovie you lots..thinking and missing you lots and whatever hurtful things i said to you, i sincerely take it all back and i really mean it dear...lovie you lots..muackiez..huggss....