11:48 AM
how does it feels to look back in your past...having to come to know that your past wasnt really agreat one to be talked about...be it schooling, family or even relationship...
then you start focusing on what you have now...and that you are really thankful and greatful for the past which have taught you many lessons and to move on...
to feel proud of your results having to get a good grades...unlike in the past where all i can see is just red marks and more red marks indicating that failure was there but having to coming near completion of my ITE life...i am proud to be an ITE student cause of this true fact that i am doing so well right now in life...but to prove myself and others around that i can be of a useful person i have still got to work on it...and insya'allah i will...
dengan doa dan ketabahan akan ku harungi semua cobaan...
looking back on those days whereby my relationship always fails and it saddens me alot cause i put all my heart and commitment into it...but right now those sadness is all thrown away into the depth of the ocean cause what more do i seek when what i have right before is not only a gem but to be exact a RARE gem...and he is my beloved iskhairy haron...
having to meet eye to eye for the first time on 6 of april 2006...i just knew that there was something different about hubby but little did i know that we would end up hubby...hehe...anyway it was the first time that i felt touched by what hubby did for me...his concerns was sincerely shown through his actions...though we were shy toward each other but the chemistry was right there from the beginning...and i am grateful for that to god...and alhamdulillah where are now still happily together but there are still many more challenges that we have to go through as one...and right now itself we are still experiencing it...hubby, having to be apart from you is not easy...only ALLAH knows how both of us are feeling...but it is through this being apart that made us change and learn from the small tiff that we used and also have...and right now i am missing the hubby lots...
and its has been near to three days since i last heard from the hubby...not being able to know how hubby is always makes me feel uneasy but deep down in me i know that hubby will always be ouhkays...and i just know that...haish, but it still aint easy when you just misses someone...to the dearest hubby...i am and will always be right here waiting for you no matter how slow the time is going to move...and that the 365 and 24/7 will always be a challenge for me till you are finally back in my arms once again...am always thinking and missing you lots...and that tak dapat dengar suara you make me feel as though aBIG part of me is missing...haish...biler nak balik hubby...well yar i know end of the month but aarrgghhh...anyway lovie lovie you lots lots...huggsss...muackiez....::Two Hearts One True Love::.
where art thou are you hubby...
